Work Experience Day 2

Got a cute kitty in, adorable. Then got a pup, such a cute-y. Teased him with the rubber mat, he's so cuttte. Day 2, boring. Thank God we don't have to give out leaflets. & to my calculations, I'm pretty sure we're safe till maybe Friday, its plausible. Didn't get lost today, I'm a safe chook. Thank God once again. (: Let off work early cause boss was amazing and she probably saw me sleeping by the bench. Twice. Harriet and I felt so fly. Tomorrow's another early day, we end at 1pm!

Day 25-

What I would find in your bag:

I don't usually carry a bag when I hang with people...

But if I did... I'd take a picture but work experience is draining me...

1. I pod.
2. Phone.
3. Wallet.
4. Drink Bottle.
5. Jacket, if its winter.

That's just it.

Work Experience Day 1.

by Pehabe

Got lost... Called Mel, she didn't answer. Called Puan, I screamed in excitement and at the same time into the ears of this lady beside me by accident. I didn't know she was there... The ocf-ers passed the phone around and finally maxwin guided me with his google map. Life saver. They are all in Tasmania for AGM and Convey and they had to help this lost soul that's walking streets of perth, lost. Walked for 45 minutes all the way to the vet.

Witnessed 1 investigation on this dog who had like a lump on its neck, seen like 10 needles go into pets today. Harriet fainted on the second go of injection. The vet is filled with cats...

The second case was dental, it was so cool. Then we had to give out leaflets to 200 houses. It was 36 deg, it was my second round of long walking.. The lady bought us water cause we were half dead by the end. Went round helping aroung the clinic then had lunch and out to another 200 houses. We were swearing by this time cause it was midday and the sun was on us.. 3rd round! I was so tired by the end. Went back, sat in front of the air conditioner, it was way better than watching tele.

The vet is probably cat heaven, they get such good food, their waterbowl has to be always full and they get priority on chairs.. Half of them was probably blind... And the others had other problems. Good but tiring day... Got home, showered and died on my bed. Then went looking for my spectacles, died on mum's bed. Then got up, still looking, died on my bed again. Then went looking for it and finally found it.

Gonna sleep early tonight, CIAO.

Day 24-

A letter to your parents:

Dear Mummy and Papa,

I'm sorry for the times I was going through maturity and rebelliousness and caused hell at home and you had to put up with all my whinging and swearing and the rebellious acts I did just to piss you off in revenge. I'm sorry for the times I would just scream in your face. I'm sorry for saying "I hate you" to you mum but in all honesty, I love you more than any boy on this earth. *You'd still beat my future husband, hands down* & papa, I'm sorry for calling you a cash cow when I disliked you so much last time cause you took me away from my comfort zone. But honestly, thank you for taking me out of there, if not I'd not be able to become who I am now. :)

Mummy, I will never forget the time when I got hives and my temperature was off the rails, I was sweating like a fountain but shivering cause I was cold on the inside and you held me like a baby again and rubbed my back to give me warmth on the inside as I shivered so hard my teeth chattered or the times whenever I'm sick and got the fever you would wake up at hours like 1am/3am or even 4am to just make sure my fever has gone down or even making sure I have food when I get home. :) Or the times you'd give me so much freedom till I abuse it. Or giving me money whenever I asked. Or buying me the gameboy papa resisted but since we bought it, he couldn't do anything and still getting me the protective case for it and some games. Or being such a cool mum in general. :) Since young I'd cry to myself to sleep whenever you're overseas because I didn't get to hug you good night. I still do that now... & You're leaving so soon.. ): I pray that you'd have fun at M1's picnic wedding thingo. You're so beautiful mummy.

Papa, I miss those times when you'd come into my room to feel my forehead whenever I was sick and I'd pretend to be asleep; before you head to work, your smooth touch makes me smile secretly whenever you leave the room. Or the times I could not stand shopping while growing up and you'd let me tag along with you to the men's section, the computer places, the electronics shop or just to walk around while you laugh at me whinge at how much I hate girl's stuff but love electronics or to let me stand on the ends of trolleys as you push me :D Or your wise guidance for Math or English making sure I understand fully the simple things I'm learning at school. Or subscribing to Disney channel for me on paid TV after me begging for the whole of my primary school years. & Those times when I'd fake sleep so you'd carry me all over the shopping center. Or just to pick me up and place me on your shoulders, those times, I felt like the biggest hero on earth that trumps all the little people passing by us. You've guide me in my christian walk so well, answering my never ending questions relating to the bible and now, I can do so the same, to my friends. <3

I love you both so much and I pray that Daddy God will continue to renew your strength everyday. :)

With loads of love, hugs and kisses, & pokes,

The baby of the family,

Marilyn Ho.

Day 23-

Something you crave for a lot:

Yeah, you get the idea.

It's just been lately for 2-3 months now. Even though I have one stringers, I crave for the next one calling out my name so sweetly and lovingly from behind the refrigerator door. You don't understand how strong my love is for cheese.

Day 22-

What makes you different from everyone else:

That I'm Me. :)

That I have a mole on on my left eyebrow.

That I have extremely small hands and feet for my height.

That I like cheese.

Spaghetti is my fave pasta.

That I fart in public and laugh about it.

That I'm pretty carefree.

That I am afraid of clowns.

That I don't want to dye my hair.

That I hate my finger nails painted.

That I totally dislike when I have long fingernails.

That I've the got the world's most awesomest friends.

I've got the best family. (:

That's just who I am.

I did day 20 just fyi for those who were just ready to pounce on me when it didn't come up yesterday. It's down there.

Day 21-

A picture of something that makes you happy:

GOD!

&...

SWINGS

Day 20-

Someone you see marrying/being with in the future:

sorry for posting this real late. I was too busy to get the last picture off my hard drive. :p

Anyways, I have been dreading this, hahaha. Time to come clean.

I'd start my journey!

• When I was like 5, I said I'd marry this actor one day. His name is, Benedict Goh from Singapore's old game show, Pyramid Game.

• But my sisters kept teasing me. We soon found A1 (band). I swore I would marry Christian one day...

• But I realise, it was all a dream... Then in 2008, I found myself looking forward to the future, to be with Zhe Hui. I screwed up, apologise but learnt sorrys just weren't enough... (Sorry, don't have a nice picture with him.. ): )

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• Then my last boyfriend. Ashim. Young but still believed in happily ever after at that age. (:

• But now, I believe its just someone out there that is waiting and till then, I'd be learning each day to be the perfect one, just for him. Just like how'd he would be perfect just for me. :) But if I was bound to be single, I don't mind cause I've already found the lover of my life who would die for me. Jesus.

Day 19-

Nicknames you have; why do you have them?

While growing up: LynLyn. (Guess it was the shortest form in relation to Marilyn that sounds the cutest for a little girl)

Still on going: Mary. I don't like it.. ): (MAR-EA-LYN and to people the first syllable is MAR and they add a 'Y' and becames the nick name I detest most..)

Now: Mazza. (I don't know really. Since Lucy called me that, it kinda stuck.)

Day 18-

Plans/Dreams/Goals you have:

Plans: 1) To do well in exams, with Daddy's help.

2) To make great new friends in Lynwood.

Dreams: Like any little girl since young,

1) Dreams of a prince,

2) a dream to change this world and

3) a dream to make a difference to this world.

Goals: 1) To make my dreams and plans come through.

:)

Day 16-

Another picture of yourself:

Sorry that I uploaded this so late, was busy studying and all... But better late than never! :)

Day 17-

I'll do day 16 when I get home. :)

Someone you'd want to switch lives with for a day and why:

With a poor, broken African child.

Everyone deserves to know what it feels like to be loved, to love and to be cared for instead of growing up too fast, serving this world before they teach you and to know what it feels like to have a warm meal before them each day and to have a clean bath everyday or even, to have their own bed. They deserve more than tears each day or hard labour. They deserve to feel peace and comfort. I don't deserve this, yet I've got all these. They deserve to be just for a day know what it's like to be in the 25% of the world who has a roof over their head, a bed to sleep in and able to have a meal a day at least.

Photograph By: Terrorblade-o7

Smiles of this world.

You'd know if this letter is to you. (:

Dear _______ _______ _______,

You've always been there for me when I needed someone to talk to. You've always been ready to embrace me when I was sad. You've always been so understanding. You've always been there to laugh with me when I do silly things. You'd wait for me to feel sleepy. You'd make sure I get off my computer. You'd put everything down to just have a chat with me. More than a true friend. A true close friend. Experiencing it first hand that a close friend so dear would sacrifice time to just hear my randomest crap on msn. To be so willing to understand me even better than what I appear to be. In summary, thank you. Thank you so much. I know it was tough to let yourself a little free today. To be so sincere, to be so real. & I know you meant every word you said.

*to be cont.

Love,

Me.

Day 15-

Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play -

1. Comatose - Skillet
2. Haru Haru - Big Bang
3. She's all I got - Thirsty Merc
4. Mad - Neyo
5. Everything you want - Vertical Horizon
6. a thousand miles - Vanessa Carlton
7. Magic - B.o.B
8. Faithfully - Glee
9. 'Til I see you again - Jim Brickman
10. Always - Hillsong

Taking a step of faith.

I think my fever burned some of my brain cells and now.. I feel like I'm screwed for math.

Keep calm, Ms Edmunds on the way!

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I've questioned, what life would be like if I wasn't born in a Christian family;

would I be stubborn and not listen to my Christian friends;

would I turn them away;

or would I stop and listen for once to what they say;

or would I ask them to piss off and leave my pathetic soul to rot;

or would I follow them to church;

what would my parents say;

would they throw me out of the house;

or would they see the change in my life and be interested in the God I adore;

or would they buy more idols to piss me off;

would my sisters call me hypocrites everyday of my life;

would I be disliked so much by my family;

would they understand?

Sorry a little insight to countless things I ask myself from time to time. So happened I couldn't help but think about these. The questions go on, I give myself different scenarios, different happenings and sometimes my mind makes it seem so real, it carries on into my dreams and feel how it'd feel. All I could remember was feeling lost, in the middle, struggling, fighting not just physical battles with friends and family but spiritual battles as the devil continues to taunt me, screaming my every move but through it all, I remember through my thoughts as these all felt so real, there was a soft gentle voice telling me, I'm redeemed.

I know there are some of you reading my blog, not so into God and all. I'm not forcing you into believing in what I believe. The pressure on yourself that you place and others place on you is more than enough to break you but I just want to say, don't give up just yet. You may question and all but Daddy God will certainly answer you with love as you seek with all your heart. He'll carry you through this tough time. Maybe, give it a shot? Experience this intimate relationship like what I have and you'd understand, you'll keep falling in love with Him over and over again. :)

Daddy God will be there, to listen to you. & so would I.

James 4:8 "Come near to God and He'll come near to you."

He loves you. He's just waiting for you to turn back and run into His embracing arms. (:

Day 14-

A picture of you and your family:

Soon, +1. Then hopefully, another +1.

then... THE END hahahahaha.

Day 13-

A letter to someone who has hurt you recently:

This is a toughie... cause no one hurt me recently. Feeling so fly like a G6! ;)

No friction, no conflict. No conflict, no climax.

Oh wait, I just thought of something.

Dear people of this world, don't be so oblivious to the people around us. Even the shiniest star fall like a speeding shooting star and even Ronald McDonald cries. Care, love and reach out. Don't be a coward.

Love,

Marilyn

Day 12-

Blogger is being mean and it keeps rotating my image... So.. oh wells, forget about the image. Did it!

How you found out about blogger and why you made one:

If I remembered correctly, I got inspired by cuppacake (Mel). I started blogging since I was 10+ years old. Which is close to 6 years. Have not stopped since then! I saw how she poured quite a lot into her blog, I thought, since I can't be stuffed getting a diary, maybe I should start one! :)

Day 11-

Another picture of you and your friends:

I won't put up the same group of people, I missed out some last time so here!

+ A new friend I made recently.

So I wrote another poem...

It's been a while... But here it is. :)

'Innocence lost'

by Hakanphotography.

Lives contrast.

Another cold winter night,

We’re tucked in tight,

But there’s some shivering in fright,

Yet we’re oblivious to their plight.

Children like a rose,

Obeying to what their parents chose.

Selling their soul,

Their lives one stole.

Feeding other’s pleasures,

It’s their life’s curse.

Being who they don’t want to be,

This was their destiny.

Children dying of STDs.

Fade like a maple tree.

Innocence is stolen,

From a child who’s ABCs are yet to learn.

They drift in a world of hope,

Searching for a saving rope,

A chance to live again,

A life that’s without such pain.

“Lord” is what they cry each night,

Asking for a giant kite.

To gracefully take them away from reality,

And instead, to be with the Almighty.

To pay off debts,

To buy loaves of bread,

To feed the family,

This is all they could see.

In such desperation,

They just let their hope burn.

To put an end to their strife,

They take their own life.

They’ve been fighting,

We’ve been ignoring.

They’ve been reaching,

We’ve been enjoying.

Behind these invisible bars,

Are tears like jewels of a child of scars.

As they fight to overcome poverty’s murk,

Are worldly pleasures - they remain to lurk.

~written by Marilyn Ho

Day 10-

Songs you listen to when you're Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad:

Happy:

I'm mostly happy when I'm listening to songs... So I'd put my iTunes on shuffle and all my songs play! :)

Sad:

Depends what made me feel that way. Really depending on the situation.

Bored:

My latest favourite song that fortnight I guess. Right now, its: Plans by Birds of Tokyo.

Hyped:

All my "bing bing bong bong" (clubbing) songs. Right now out of all of them I would go to: DJ got us falling in love again by Usher, FT Pitbull. First.

Mad:

Something loud to drain the world out and reflect. Some christian songs I guess as I reflect.

Day 09-

Something you're proud of in the last few days:

'winners'

CAMP! :) I'm so glad I didn't miss it, but went and made it so significant in my life.

JOEY! :)

I'm proud of you for making the right choices.

Hello there,

Japanese student coming today. YAY! :)

Kay, bye!

Day 08-

Short term goal for this month and why:

• To balance exceptionally well studies, play, fun with Japanese student and my own spiritual growth and continually doing what I do evenly. Not affecting each other in any way.
• To be who I'm suppose to be.
• To make the first 2 into long term goals! :)

Day 07-

A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on me:

1. SMILES :D
2. The song - From the inside out.

background story:

• After my fall year, Daddy God spoke to me through this song. Marking each new chapter with it. After all my slashes and stuff when I finally got unhooked from its addiction, that song played.
• When I moved to Perth, the ________ me stopped. That song played once I learnt to love myself, not to take things too hard and ___.
• The day that I was going to be born again. Truly accepted Christ for myself, when I decided to defy satan and make a big step into Daddy's arms. Baptism day, my church rarely sings this song but right before I left to get ready for my baptism, this song played. I sang it with all sincerity, knowing that I'm saying those words,

From the inside out

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in Your grace

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

My heart and my soul, I give You control
Consume me from the inside out, Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

My heart and my soul, I give You control
Consume me from the inside out, Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

My soul cries out to You
My soul cries out to You
To You, to You

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord, my soul cries out

From the inside out
Lord, my soul cries out
From the inside out
Lord, my soul cries out

I cut short the song lyrics here, just want you guys to get the main message. :)

Day 06-

Favourite superhero and why:
While growing up:

& +1 most important:

JESUS. (:

I can't get an accurate picture of Him. We didn't have facebook 2 thousand and 10 years ago nor twitter... But imagine! It would be like..."Today I died on the cross and rose from the dead. OH YEAHHH BOY!" C'mon you don't get tweets like these! :D

Day 05-

A picture of somewhere you've been to:

PARIS :) I watched Moulin Rouge too!

Love shadows of the broken path.

2 years, 3 months...

Back to square one,

I wished things could have been different, things I didn't do, things I didn't have the courage to say then to have been said, to tell you I really meant it...

These 2 years 10 months, we've been on a roller coaster ride... Tears that should have not been, screaming that weren't meant to be.

From loving to just simple wishing for just 5 minutes with you to talk things out. To fix that cruel broken path we each went down.

The shadow of the heart.

This is the only situation I've questioned myself so many whys that I can never answer. From smiles to a last long tight hug, then unto hoping which was then crushed like a piano thrown from Mt Everest. Heavy, black and white, many keys yet to be played, to be lay out, filled with so many dreams and wishful thinking. All comes crushing down...

I got the chance again, but being me, I screwed it up. How many sorry-s can I say? How many am I allowed to say? How do I even say it?

Why can't I just close my eyes and wake up.

Why can't it all be.

why.

Just rolling down this mountain of memories, dead hopes, tears and yet laughter we shared.

Praying for one more chance, hoping, desperation.

I keep telling myself, it's time. It's time. But it's not in my time. It's in Daddy God's. He knew I wasn't ready... But right now, I really feel like I've passed the stage of just a simple apology, I owe more than that...

Lead me to where you are, just one more...

Please just one more.

I believe its all part of a grander plan. I'm on my way, on my way home.

Day 04-

A habit you wish you didn't have:

To go off in a daze too often.

When I don't smile, I look lost.

When I go off in a daze its = looking lost + not blinking. = Looks as if someone died and I'm deep in thoughts, about to cry.

But really, I just daze easily cause of my lazy eye, when I put more focus on it (well I should). Just like if you cover my other non-lazy eye, I'll fall asleep in 5 minutes.. Heh.
But it's not that I wish I didn't have but its pretty funny when people come up and put their hand on my shoulder and ask, "Are you okay? ): Is everything alright?"

There you go,
PITAPOING.

Day 03-

A picture of you and your friends: (Sorry cause I love all you guys, my friends but if I did put up individual photos, I might be in my sit till I'm in heaven still uploading pictures. So I put you guys in group pictures and every single one in there are my beloved friends. :) There are some friends I put individual cause I don't have you in the group picture and you're rather important. :) ) There are still many more but heh, don't have them on this computer..

Day 02-

The meaning behind your blog's name

potatochip_craze: At that point in time I really loved chips and it was the most randomest name that I know I wouldn't regret in the future unlike my first blogger was "cheekymarilyn" and my older friends were all coo-ing and pinching cheeks..

Dragonfly, tales of ripples: Dragonflies, butterflies they amaze me. :) I enjoy watching them diving around flowers and tales are: a narrative that relates the details of some real or imaginary event, incident, or case; story and ripples cause like a still water, touching it a little, causing ripples like people in my life and me in theirs. :)

So in summary, like a dragonfly, graceful and silent recording each scenes of life stories that I share with people around me that causes ripples of joy, love and friendship.

Day 01-

A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.

Don't scream in horror just cause my "teeth" are red. It's octopus. No fear, :)

1. I love God, He's my Daddy and I'll try my very best to shine like a little candle in this darkness to my friends, constantly pointing back to Him.
2. I love every kind of music. From Piano classical to what my grandpapa will say, "bing bong bing bong trash music" (Clubbing, rap)
3. I've a soft spot for advanced in age people crying.
4. Smiles, hugs and kisses (not necessarily making out with a boy.. family, girl friends kissing cheeks) means a lot to me.
5. I WANT to be there for my friends.
6. I've had my cheeky smile ever since I WAS BORN.
7. I'm amazed by the colours of this world.
8. I love simple things. Sometimes, people call it cliché.
9. I'm naive..
10. I've been to 6 schools and soon 7 (next year) then my 8th would be uni.
11. I'm an emotional person.
12. But I hate crying. Other than family.. Only 3 people have seen me cry.
13. I love my family. But we're still learning.
14. I detest vanity.. But looking good is alright just.. Obsessive with the mirror is a little.. yeah..
15. I've kept the last to dedicate it to someone. I've got a mentor.. Rachel Puan, though you've probably read my long speech about you, I still can't thank you enough. Your presence in my life is much more significant than you think. Though we might be mean and getting comfortable with each other to the point of farting around each other is fine (especially at that time at prayer meet...) I really, really thank you for being in my life. I thank Daddy for sending you. && here's a I LOVE YOU! :)

that's it for today!

pinkie dinky.

Cause exams are coming and SOMEONE said, "I wonder what your blog posts during your exams will be like!" & seen some friends having fun with it so I decided, I should do this. :)

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog's name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about blogger and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you

Crash and soar.

Today feels like a good day. :)

Even though I have 2 major tests today, I still feel fly.

I would credit everything especially this feeling to Daddy. I dedicated today to him because I thought I would be going crazy with the tests but so far, WOOOOOOOO!!! One more test, BOOYAH I'm not afraid! My day is getting better and better. Not because of how I live, its WHO I live for! :D

pork-ah face.

I just found out how teachers notice when I'm not doing my work but probably on gtalk...

I would start smiling unconsciously. I'll smile even wider when I type: :)

I'll smile with teeth when I type: :D

& I'll start blushing to my computer when I said something embarrassing.. So anti-social. So lonely.. ): HAHA nah, my friends on facebook can accompany me.

Jokes, I LOVE LIFE. :D :D

Thwart.

Kids falling in, out of love; Teens smoking weed, getting drunk, losing virginity; Young adults banging all their friends, speeding in cars; Adults? Money, marry, divorce. This is the world now isn't it? Why do we cheapen such a great gift? Why do we turn it into child's play? Into poker to bet on? What happened to innocence, pure and honesty of love? The corrupt of this world... Why disfigure such beauty given with a magnificent kind of love; to love; people of this world..?

Disappointed.

I can't stand people who are ashamed of who they are born to be. Especially Asians hating themselves. Hypocritical? I think its a whole new level of immaturity. "I don't want to go to the party because its all Asians!" Not because, "I don't know her well." BULL. Just admit it, both excuses are stupid. Don't know her well enough, go & know her well enough for the last time possible then. But if because it's all Asian, don't bother coming cause really, if you're ashamed to be Asian, I'm ashamed of you.
GROW UP, love yourself, be happy for who God made you to be. Don't turn your life into such a deep hole that you can't save yourself out of just cause "you're Asian." Look at yourself, have you found a solution to your massive problem of being Asian? Maybe just take a step back and be happy. Stop sulking and start shining.