& they lived happily ever after, the end.

I don't know you anymore.

I guess you've decided to draw the line and live as enemies. You took away "protection", I took away "communication" and now you took away "providence". I guess this is it, I'm surrendering because we are living like AS hypocrites of this world, next time when one of us passes on, regrets WILL build, I know how this battle goes but you don't wanna leave and I don't want to fight this kind of war. I guess its not me who will make you realise. It's not my calling to.

A Lighter note,

Spoke to a J Witness friend today, was tiring indeed but fruitful. Hope it might be even, even more fruitful in the future! :D

Mares.

Mind in a haze,

always in a daze.

Thinking of fore coming threat, hopes.

With many heart notes.

We say we're one day going to break through,

But all our heart,

contains a turmoil zoo.

That rears monsters with drinking tears.

The hopelessness,

fear of reality.

13 hours..

Oh, that weak tower.

We push so hard,

reaching for the top.

Keeping our head up,

Looking for pops.

Adults sealed lips,

Lies once told.

Smiling with zips,

The shrill fear of wimps.

&& all you can say is "quitter".

KAP.

I miss this place very very very much.

Paint.

Can't wait! :D

Mugged today from 11 to 5. Good job Ni, M. Phe, Lin.

Talking to twin ever since 10am, good catching up. Miss ya twin! :)

Love that watches over me.

Anzac day, therefore tomorrow's a holiday.

I'm hooked onto Treasure Isle, oh boy.

Yesterday,

Slept in like a pig, well deserved! ;)

Went to church for the first time for the Sat service.

Dinner at Indian Restaurant in the city.

Jeannie's surprise!

On a lighter note from previous post,

Entered into 2 different competitions. One for Geography assignment (Teacher thought it was rather stunning and gave me full marks and apparently there's a state competition on that topic) and Art self-portrait painting. If I do get into top, I'd enter another competition altogether (Third comp? Hopefully). So, school's not too bad aye. There's always blessings by grace.

Tomorrow's studying day with Ni, Meli. Goal, BASKING ROBINS! Yumm.

The strength of the clamp.

I'll give you a diary of a teenage girl this time; I rarely do.

Uniform check:

Soon to say hi to detention,

1. no socks, stockings (I didn't know please be nice)

2. Never button top button

3. extra earring.

4. Skirt too short.

5. No socks in stockings. (Well I don't want my stockings to soak up my foot perspiration)

6. Necklace ( I forgot to take out, honestly)

7. Not polished shoes.

8. Bands.

9. Tie.

10. Never tuck in shirt.

More about me:

I don't like telling many people about my problems. Just 1 or 2 friends that's usually it.

I've always promised myself to never let anyone push me around or boss me about.

Promises to me are major, its natural for me to hold it against myself if they are broken.

I admit, I smile and laugh to push away unhappiness but I'd tear or cry if it has reached my limit.

The first person I usually tell my problem to is usually the person I rely on to just listen and be encouraging.

I'm a thinker, therefore internal wars is always ongoing if things have poked at my weakness.

There are only 2 things that could break me.

Other than problems that has the power to make me tear, I'm happy. I promise.

If I'm exceptionally quiet, means there is a internal debate between my heart and mind.

If I don't reply you after an insensitive statement means you've just poked a wound.

Now that its all black and white there, please, stop asking like you already know.

Note to sissy-in-Christ, :)

You made me smile in class like a shy idiot in there ya know sissy? :)

I was overjoyed (NOT JUST AN ADJECTIVE! It was literal!) once I read that post over and over to know you're now free. You're beautiful and you know it, so smile and show that you are proud that you have broken free!

The galaxies opens up when you smile Daddy.

:) Want to know a secret? I love you, Mel!

♥

Tomorrow is back to school after this awesome 20 days of holiday. Watched New Moon with Puan today while eating edamame! :) :) :) Momma's being such a gem, she's considering to take me back with her to SINGAPORE in JULY! Highlight, JULY! Praying about it.

Blues.

Back to school soon... I know if I was still in Singapore, I would be excited.

Missing Singapore yet, afraid to return. Things seems to be too different. To understand, to acknowledge or to absorb.. I want to yet, some hesitation.

on a lighter note, this holiday was awesome and still is! :)

LIttle Miss Trouble.

Carou, Curtin, IKEA, Some pop art cafe, Home, Puan's, Home.

Life is not going to stop throwing play into my life, and I LIKE IT! (:

I'm not proud of whatever happened but yet I'm not ashamed because it was through those moments God brought me out victoriously and I'm not afraid now but I'm fighting in God's army.

When holidays turn awesome.

Counter Strike face hahaha.

Sunday, Capt ball with awesome peeps.

Monday, play play play at Bryan's with Chahaha, Puuu-an, Lyn Mama, Xiao Ling, DRWYS, Ben, Matt.

Tuesday, "Brekky" with Sister-In-Christ, met amaliew by accident so hung out. Game splurging time! Bought Worms, soon Mario Kart Wii! Heehee, PLAYYYYYYYY!

Wed, AFTER one week of camp, I'm finally unpacking my bags HAHAHA!

Soar.

God;

1. sent me a mentor, God-sent def.

2. allowed me to be His tool.

3. Is teaching me to love everyone. Equally.

4. showed me an ideal person, praying.

5. is still using me when I personally feel I'm not being fair.

6. sends me a group of people I adore ttm.

7. is feeding me with so much love.

8. touches my heart and warms my soul.

9. is so amazing in ways He reveals Himself to me.

10. is showing me, I am capable to do the impossible only when I rely on Him.

Nothing is too much, nothing is too scary, nothing is too great for You to conquer. Cause Daddy, You have placed me under Your wing and allowed me to see great wonders through troubles, happiness and even in a mere smile.

My daily dosage of madness.

Will be back, I promise.

Camp Liberate.

4 days, 3 nights. See ya people, :) ON A BREAK.

Recently:

Hooked unto Lego Star wars 2: The trilogy.

Ate crabs. *YUMM*

Just started noticing...

God poofed a diff point of view in my life.

She's just a broken angel,

everyone just misunderstands her. Even her own family.

*Sings to I've gotta feeling*

"I've gotta feeling that... I'm getting sicker and sicker."

My sore throat seems to be getting better somehow. Just still sore.

I caught the FLU bug from school today. Thanks a lot..

I feel Mr. fever is going to head butt me in revenge of little miss panadol.

GOOD JOB SICKIES. Now, please be nice and get a-w-a-y..