2056

I thought I forgot the bus number which we slot the mark of friendship we had. But I was wrong. I remembered. Its you who have forgotten.
Its 2056; Bus Number 74. Single Deck. Last Sit, Left hand side.
Finally you have given me the answer indirectly. Through someone. Reading that conversation just gave me that definite answer. You said it straight. " I will never ever patch back"
Yeah in singlish. I bet you thought everyone is now on your side. But honestly, you are wrong. I am just a passer-by not the opposite side from you. You want them to tell you what I did? Well, I did not do anything. ITS FAKE. You wanted to take their "complains" against me thats why you want to KPO (according to your language) This was just a fake hope. A fake truth. A fake hurt coming from you. Atleast you said it straight, short and sweet. Now I know that I can give up my hope for that miracle, my last wish. I was hurt after reading that conversation? Honestly, Yes; But atleast now I know I had been through a fake friendship, teaching me to choose my friends wisely. Thank you FRIEND.

Saying, I: Pangseh, Kao Bei, Bitch, Flirt.
Pangseh? People will do that unknowingly, There is no such thing as purposely unless you hate that person.
Kaobei? When? See who was the one who started all this PLAYING COLD WAR.
Bitch? Oh? Did I WANTED TO/ FELT LIKE SLAPPING you princess?
Flirt? Hello? Why? Girls cannot talk to boys meh? If they do, they become flirts. Why must there be a separation? Don't lie and say you have not spoken to a single guy friend.
Every single girl you DESPISE you say they flirt. Cause you know what? You got nothing else to say about them.
Under your flirts list: Tricia, Marilyn and other girls you dislike whom I know who!
You really made me realize I wasted 3 months of time on you and Money to treat you on a regular basis cause you seem to be always broke. Who knew that you will change? Who knew we will split? Who knew that you became so proud to despise people? Well, I never did. Since all this happened I am still wondering why won't you just stop bitching about me and influencing people. Honestly, You were a great friend. A person I cried to. Someone I told my feelings. With all these gone the first time really cut me deep. Now, I have became strong and I am happy with that.

What's happening?

To NRAMLN:
Heys. I miss you loads. I wonder whats happening. Why are we distancing away again? The smiles, laughters and butt- smacking is all gone. All the "AHHHHHHHHH"s too. I miss you loads sexbomb. D:

LETTERS.

To BONGBONG RACHEL;
I really don't know. Since the beginning, I have already forgiven her. She not wanting to apologize is not the thing cause she is already forgiven. She wanting to stop and realize her mistake is another thing. I don't blame her for everything. What happened to forgive and forget? I am not too sure. But she has been forgiven.

To JOEY, My ex- friend;
If you read the letter i posted for Rachel, I really mean it. I really want to stop this discontent in our hearts. I really miss you as a friend who goes crazy and laugh with. I really want to patch things up. Do you? Or do you just want to keep the hatred in you? It's your choice. If you want to patch things up, just tag. Say it, cause I will gladly accept you back as my friend. I know you wanted to say sorry to me last time but you withdrew. If you did say that time, things would have been already patched. But since you did not, its ok. I don't hold it against you. I understand. If you just say , " Sorry." I promise, I will cry reading that message either on my phone or on the tag board or on msn or hear it on the phone. I will sit there and just cry. Not cause I am sad but cause I know my silent cries of prayers have been answered. Its tears of joy. I have not hate you. I never will. Cause I still miss you. Memories still run. Happiness and smiles. Not hatred nor sadness nor tears. I thank God for you my friend. This has taught me a valuable lesson. I hope you understand this letter to you girl. Slowly read it and know and understand how I feel about you. In short is, I MISS YOU.

FAIRFIELD OPEN HOUSE 2oo8!

Today, i dragged me feet to school alright. Did not want to go for the open house at first. Yun Xin had the same feeling too. Seriously, Mr Ow && Ms Ng May Gay today is super duper uber cute can! Mr Steve ow wanted to eat a little of the left overs from the catered food. Then before he took, he looked around to see if any one was looking. He did not realize I WAS!! :D Haha then he quickly stuff it in his mouth. He looks seriously cute with his mouth full, then he turned and realized i was looking. Then he just smile & continued chewing. Haha. To him, I am a girl with the basket filled with hand phones and a beggar. Haha. Then when Ms Ng went to get food, she tried tempting the ncc guys. Temptation was just filling in them. Haha. Too much, just too much Ms Ng! :D

After eating the whole box of nerds, 8 sweets from Yun Xin, 2 cans of Green tea & 1 can of milo, I went nutso.

Before: =,= zzzz SIANS!
After: 8D AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! HAHA!!! WHA!!! WHEEEEEEE!!! HEE!!!

yupp!:D

idk.

Today's school chapel really made me decide something. But I am caught in between another question again. Though I was sleeping when Mr Owyong came up, but i can remember vividly that before he came up, a preacher (or a teacher? o.o) said this, " Choose one thing this week that you want to show gratitude for." Or something like that. The first thing that came to my mind was to try to make effort and try to be friends with Joey again. I was certain and firm until I heard she went around bitching about me again. & I thought today was different. I really don't get it. Why won't she just stop? Its been like 3 months already!? I am really tired of listening to what she tell others. But what she bitch about me is like a total opposite of what happen? Its like a total 180 degrees flip! Joey, I am not the only one who is getting tired of this, many of the people you bitch to is really fed up. You should just give it a break and just stop for ONE day at least.

&& This is what you got wrong:
-You bitch to people close to me.*Even when they fake saying they hate me to see what else you got to say. They are surprised you never stop*
For? Its either you want them to dislike me too. Which is not working. Or you want them to tell me what you bitched about?

- I MADE/ FORCED you to sleep on the floor that time you stayed- over.
Hello? I told you I was moving house only got one mattress. I OFFERED 3 TIMES for you to sleep on the mattress. You insisted that I sleep on it. I said i was ok since you are the guest. You said don't want. I said then you want to share with me since you FEEL BAD. You said NO. Even so, I tried to make you feel comfortable as much as possible. I gave you 2 quilts. ITS SOFT & COMFORTABLE. I LIKED IT. Unless you are like the Princess and the Pea. I didn't even have a blanket yo! Be grateful that you were warm can!

- I STARVED you.
Hmmmm Really? Then whats the curry puff you denied eating? How about egg tart after a while I keep pestering you to eat? I am not your maid to spoon feed you, you know. There was 2 curry puff, 2 paos and an egg tart that night. Forgot? I ate one pao and 1 curry puff and shared the egg tart with you cause you feel WEIRD eating alone. Even a 7 year old can pick and eat all these up.

- You said I STEAL friends.
The only types of people that OTHER people steal are SLAVES. I am not sure if they still have slaves in other parts of the world. Unless you are saying your friends are YOUR slaves.

- You said I find new friends, I disown the old.
IF I did, why do i still hang out with YunXin? Sometimes Natalia? Winnie? Sarah? Rachel? && Many more you don't know. I "disowned" you cause hello!! You hate me why should I stay there in that clique? Unless I am a robot and has no feelings then I probably would. Why be your dog? Its not worth it. I can make new friends too you know. You don't own me. Cause, I am not your friendSLAVE Anymore.

- I treat you cold first.
If I did, why would I cry at first when you were enjoying your time? Why would I make the effort to patch things up when you are playing and ignoring? Why would I waste my time on doing all that?

- Now you say I am childish.
You said that if you were childish you would have already slapped me. Hello? Who is using vulgarities PURPOSELY here. Oh, & I am not 7. I am 14. You always insisted you were 7? Slap me? I think you would have missed like last year. Please don't bother trying to fight. Cause fighting things out is childish. Talking things out should be the right and proper way. Oh & slapping someone cause you HATE SOMEONE FOR NOT A SINGLE PROPER REASON is not childish. Its being an ass and some others call it, bitch.

I don't know why you want to fill yourself up with hatred and anger for no reason? You are just feeding yourself with reasons like some others up there by twisting your words? Why won't you just stop and think that its time to apologize? I already did many times, even gave you sweets AND YOU IGNORED. Forgot? Here, I am refreshing your memory. Did chapel struck you or not, just open up your heart and let God talk to you. But even after all those, I will try to patch things up. Oh, && please, don't try to deny all the things you said because you know deep down you did it. No use trying to run away. && don't blame whoever you told all these to because its not their fault listening, it was who you gossip to.

Personally this is for you FRIEND.
Slowly read the lyrics & understand what i have been trying to tell you. Its taken from Narnia, The Call.

Happy Birthday Winnie!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WINNIE MEI![:
The Last Birthday To Celebrate Before School Starts thats why I MUST & NEED to celebrate with you![: No matter What. Even though its the last day of the hols i dont care. Cause I dont need to rush my last min homework therefore i can celebrate with you girl! I will make sure its a blast! Even though others arn't able to come its ok. We will have just as much fun! Lets just hope it rains! Hahax I promise I will grant your dying desire & that is run in the rain again![:

Cell group!

Haha the distort. I guess we can start advertising for good bad breath; cause we just ate (:
Adult's cell group came over today.
My mom catered like ALOT. Really really filling. Winnie popped by during dinner after her church. Haha really missed her.. OHHHH! Suddenly remembered, I did not give her, her poisoned "food" Sad thing, today alot of youths in my cell, got music practice for tomorrow so they did not show up. Ohmanns, but thank God I got Pei ru to accompany me!(:

DINO GUMMY!!

gosh, I love dino gummies alright!!
Colourful and TASTY!! mmmmm.. Yummy!(:
Today, met rachelYEO at cck mrt interchange then we went to jurong library to finish up our homework!! Aww man.. Orca. Haha. We were going crazy in the library! Like total insanity! Got once we were looking wild & crazy then this guy walked past & he started giggling! We were like oh crap haha! Before getting into the train station, you cant bring drinks in but i goondo goondo go poke my straw into my bubble tea ;x haha then Rachel said, see lah! Because of you cannot go in. Then I just realize then I screamed OH! SHIT! Then this lady, turned around with that panic- stricken face haha. Serious madness! Really miss her!! && yes, to her things happen for a reason.. BECAUSE ITS MARILYN'S FAULT. Haha! :D

SINGAPORE FLYER! **for June 19th.

Sarah, my p6 closest buddy. (: Really missed her loads. Finally could catch up with her both physically and in life. (: Really happy! We sat on Singapore Flyer! Its like a dream come through! We bonded more then ever! From the bus ride to the ferris wheel to Marina's steps to the river side behind Esplanade to her house park. We sat on the swing, took turns to push each other and screamed. Letting our worries in us roam free, away from us. The funny thing was that, I was suppose to send her home, but in the end she send me home. Well, with her mom driving. (:

Sarah, thanks for taking off a day just for me! So we could bond and let our sadness and troubles off and free, floating away from us. (:

Thank you God, for giving me such a caring friend. (:

This is one of the songs I am still trying to get Max Combo for DJ Max portable. :D Haha I keep trying over & over until I am addicted to this song!(: ohh && I LOVE the electric guitar part! :3

Brandnew Days
Composed by Planetboom
Sung by Planetboom

We just takin' it over, when it's calm down. it's calm down.
We just takin' it over, where there is gone. Yeah.

She just let him go, it's alright. ooooo.
I just let it go, it's alright and go.

She just thinkin' about you
The night, the skies fell down
What was I thinkin' in a wonder
The world is the smallest world.

repeat & repeat & repeat (:

&& yes, My prayers were answered. :D

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

Happy Father's Day daddy!:D
Thanks for being AWESOME Father all my 14 years of Life SO FAR! (:

Thank you God for giving such a wonderful father. He was made so fearfully & wonderfully just to be there to guide me in my christian faith as I grow since I was born till the end of time. I am grateful Lord for placing me in this family that nurtures me so I will walk in faith & truth. Thank you Lord, Amen.

With All I am.

I found this video in youtube. I feel that the video is really meaningful. The song is from hillsongs. The lyrics is plainly telling us that we should trust in him, have faith. He will always be there for us. At this video, I saw someone who was pretty anti-christ. Well, though there are people who are like that in this world, they are there because they have been miss led. We are here on earth to evangelise to them. We are all running this race together. We want to see our love ones in heaven together with us when we die right? We don't want them to perish in hell. Its full of cries down there. We have to be careful in our christian walk. Its not easy, yes but just be careful. Ask for forgiveness as we were born sinners.

*note to self, Pray for forgiveness and thanksgiving everyday & be happy. (:

you hold my world

in the palm of your hand

and I'm yours forever

[Chorus:] Jesus I believe in you

Jesus I belong to you

you're the reason that I live

the reason that I sing

with all I am

I'll walk with you

wherever you go through

tears and joy

I'll trust in you

and I will live in all of your ways

and your promises forever

[Chorus:] Jesus I believe in you

Jesus I belong to you

you're the reason that I live

the reason that I sing

with all I am

I will worship

I will worship you forever

[Chorus:] Jesus I believe in you

Jesus I belong to you

you're the reason that I live

the reason that I sing with all I am.

&& yet another skin done.
Yawn.. I really need to take a break away from the computer.
Finally done Gloria's skin. Haha she drew the background and everything herself. Its pretty plain but both of us like it (: Here it goes..:
www.raceof-faith.blogspot.com Hope you guys like it too!(: Its ok if you don't cause its alright to speak it out loud so atleast we can improve it. (:

Another Birthday!

Haha I called Amalina like what I did to Yun Xin yesterday.
They really had the shock of their life! Made a blogskin for Amalina..
Its:
www.rainbowsandjoy.blogspot.com
Go & check it out! I made it specially & carefully for her. That's the third skin already! Haha. Eventhough it looks pretty & stuff, but it would have never come to this state without,

GOD; for giving me wisdom & patience & creativity to do these blogskins.

Amalina & JunYuan; Without these two great awesome people, I would not have realize how much I enjoy blogskin desinging.

Amalina; If it wasn't for her I would have ever found out how to put the pic on top.

JunYuan; Though you guided me only through suggestions, it was great. Without those suggestions, I would have not figured a way how to do the base codes & stuff.

Sarah; Without these wonderful girl here, I would hve never found out how to resize the pics!

Evangeline; YunXin; Wei Ling; Melanie; Gloria; Diana; RachelYEO; Thank you for viewing & comments.

Samuel; Without you, I wouldn't have persevered on last last night. You and your pissed off tone makes me laugh HAHA. Can't help but irritate you ;x

Happy Birthday SexyButt Amalina![:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMALINA aka SEXYBUTT![:
Yes, Another babe to join me in the 14th year of life![: Sorry cant be there for your birthday but well atleast I can virtually say and wish you here![: Miss you hell loads! Must catch up with you soon otherwise the hols will end real soon! D: LOVES![:

Tired.

Today woke up really late. Cause the night before slept at 4. Did my own blogskin though its not really that nice. && Today i did Rachel Yeo's blogskin. It took me total 4 hours.. Really tired. Haha. But I am really happy doing the blogskin for her. Want to see? Both that I made is in my tempt blog. Next time whenever I am free I will do blogskins for people or even myself hee. I use those 2 tempt blogs for making it.
Well, here it is:
www.thehappinessof-theheart.blogspot.com
&& Rachel's blogskin now..
www.thelittle-tryout.blogspot.com

Next, going to do Gloria's. She did the background herself. Its really nice. Haha. Well, off torest my little exhausted eyes.

Happy birthday Yun Xin Jie![:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUN XIN JIE![:
This girl, who never fails to make me go crazy with her! Finally a solid 14 years of your life has been covered already!
Baking,
Laughing,
Screaming,
Running,
Jumping,
Acting,
Chatting,
Eating,
Playing Habbo,
Emo-ing,
Drawing,
Freaking,
Fainting,
tickling,
Yawning,
slacking,
Sharing secrets
& life's latest updates

This are the most major things we have done together sister![: We are missing one thing && that is going out together, NOT ON A SCHOOL DAY. yupyup! Hahax. Love you loads & I am really sorry I cant celebrate with you your birthday but I can atleast do my very best to wish you happy birthday on the internet![:

today on the 10th of June

Today's the 10th already. One more week to go!
Early this morning went to visit SSIS ( Shanghai Singapore International School). Had an interiew with the vice prinicpal. He was pretty nice [: He wants to give me a Mathematics test on my last day of Orientation. I WANT TO JUMP TO GRADE 9!!! I don't want to stay back for half a year which is Grade 8 (secondary 2) D: Well, I got to work hard & prove to them I CAN do it. I can if I want to & even if I want it, I must DO it. I cannot slack anymore. I must pick myself & be dependant on myself to study for what I want; & that is to go to Grade 9. Well that cheery-o' Guy who is labeled, Vice Principal; He is great! He told me he used to be in Drama when he was in Secondary School. He said he continued after that but he knows that not many people can go to STARDOM. Well I said, " Eventhough I can't get to Stardom, Why should I stop loving Drama & just give up? I don't have to go to stardom. I just got to have fun in it & get the best out of it! Not being able to go to Stardom should not pull what I enjoy doing down right?" At that point I realize that studying should not be a chore, it should be done to enjoy it. Atleast I got a clear goal right now. That is, I want to go to Grade 9.

Though you keep saying you are the worst korkor I have what does it mean to me? It meant alot. Did I say you are? I just said that Beng korkor is one of the best. Can't you be another? Be surprise or not, you are; Junyuan Korkor. :D

Happy birthday wei rong.

Happy Birthday Wei Rong![:
That funny guy in Drama never fails to make people laugh!:D

repentance.

As I bow my head humbly & enter into Your presence Lord,
Realizing my mistakes & sins I slowly tear knowing for whatever filthy sins I have commited I must be repentant.

The Lover of my soul. My Savior. You are my Lord.

As I leave church every week may I be reminded that I am the light in the darkness around me. I must be the shining light, the right example, the humble. As I entered into church, in Your presence today Lord, my soul shivers in fear.

You are my Guide. You ar my Saviour. You are my Heavanly Father.

As I enter into church today, I realize how strong the church bond was. I felt the presence of our Lord amongst us. Met my "new" church today. This is where I will be worshipping as a little growing lamb on the right path. SFC, Shanghai Fellowship Community. I will be joining the Youth which is called SOAR 24/7. My Cell Group is, Open Hearts. This will be the people in Shanghai who will continue leading me in the right path, where we run the race. The faith we live up to. As I sang some christian songs today, I could see people around me tearing. After that I soon did too. I realized why. It was because we know we have done many wrong doings & we are repentant.

As I commit those who are filled with sorrows into prayer, espeacially those in Sichun. I pray that those You have send to save them, You will grant them in strength & wisdom. Thank you Lord.

RAWR!!

Argh.. Now in shanghai.
I dread plane rides..
I reached here on the 7th at 8.00++ the plane schedules & arrangements was way off starting from Changi till we leave Pudong Airport. First they changed the gate pretty last min, Suppose to depart at 2.05 but they opened the gate at 2.10. Reach Shanghai, they changed terminal.

Hahax. Well, its alright i guess. I Love my ROOM! :D
okok. Actually I love the weather too. But..
I MISS SINGAPORE! :D
Espeacially great people like..
Yun Xin.
Amalina.
Beng korkor.
Damn it..
CHELSEA!

i want a PSP.. D;
C'mon, i need something to make me go happy SOLO.
HAHA :D

Happy birthday Mas!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAS![:
THE mighty M'S is what people must remember!:D

I miss My Poogie D:

Chelsea, the best dog companion that I have ever found.
Whenever I cried since young, I will go to her little red basket to find her sleeping in it. I will pick her up & hug her as I cried. Whenever I watch Korean Or Chinese Dramas, I will pick her up from the cold marble floor where she is lying right at the bottom of my sofa, & place her on my chest as I lie down & she slowly doze back into her dream, wonderland. Whenever I was happy like my Chinese score was done pretty well, I will go to her & jump about with her runnng &hopping & Jumping like she was the one who score the marks. Most nights before she settles down & go into her lala land, she waits patiently crouched on the floor not too far away from me watching out if I go to the kitchen as she expects her treat before bed time. Whenever I get her treats, I dont just toss it to her. I kinda torture her first by making her listen to my comands like.. "Sit. Up. Pawssss. Go around. Up Up Up Up Up. Walkkk. up- five. Stay... Stay... Stay... * As I tempt her with the treat*" She is pretty impressive for an old dog you know. She hates looking in the mirror at herself or even pictures of her. I wonder why. Haha. When she know she did something wrong like pee-ing on the wrong spot * not on the newspaper* She will hide somewhere like under the dining table or chair. Sometimes she comes to me :D. She watches TV too you know. When my sisters & I watch American Idol last time, She will lie infront of the Tv, butt facing us, eyes open wide. I guess she loves singing too haha. Whenever I blast the music either from the radio or the computer, I will sing along & she will look up with that happy face. When we wanted to put her in a hostel for a while * cause we are going on a holiday* at first she knew what was happening. She thought we are abondening her. She will sit & her eyes will become really teary with that sad face on the car back seat with her eyes closed & tears seems to drop slowly.Later she found out it was temp, she loved the hostel cause Anderson * the hostel care nanny* always brought her for walks & fed her at a certain time EXACTLY. At that period of time I was home alone, she was my alarm clock. She will lick my hand at 6 SHARP. Sometimes if she is too tired she won't.. Haha but I still love her loads. 2 days ago, My mum had found a foster home for her. Well, she is gone from my home but not from my heart. Memories of her stays OK! Sometimes I forget that she's not here anymore, I start calling her name to come into my room cause thats where she sleeps at night with the cold air, air- conditioner. I miss her loads loads. 8 years of love we shared as close as sisters *though she's my poogie, doggy* Our hearts are linked knowing each others feelings & emotions. That's what I call, The forced breakage of love. I MISS YOU CHELSEA![; Some pictures coming soon since I got her till the 2nd last day. Though I did not get to say goodbye, I PROMISE MY WHOLE LIFE I WILL FIND HER JUST TO SAY THOSE WORDS & CRY THERE; GOODBYE CHELSEA. I LOVE YOU. TAKE CARE.

omg, thank you loads christina!!

Gosh! Look at it! Hahax. Its really extreamly nicely done by..
CHRISTINA LEE! My primary 5 buddy who is a smarty pants. Haha. Gosh didn't expect her to send this or even wish me happy birthday! She sent it through my hotmail & i only check my mails when the number of mails reach 100. oh my gosh. I Love youuuuuuu!! :D

Happy Birthday Chloe!

Happy Birthday, Chloe![:
Finally a solid 14! Just 3 days after my birthday![: This cute sporty girl has finally grown n year older & one year closer to heaven's doorstep heh? Hahax. :D Well its ok. I will meet you there when you come i guess![:

Hope you had a great birthday![:

Its just life I guess.

To BYJWNN.
Heys [: Well I am really sorry for all that has happened. Getting you fed up & worried & all. Guess I did not do a good job as a birthday girl huh. Hahax. Come to think of it, it was pretty dumb right? Well you can't deny all that!:D Cheer up alright? I guess life just has its ups & downs. Since the day you were born till you die, there are in betweens which we call, life. Life is mainly made up of us making our decisions. To make our life happy, cheerful & all, we got to make the right decisions! You had just ran into a problem.. I guess you can count that as a bad choice? Well, we shan't let that stop us from continuing in life! Its just one fat rock there blocking. We can.. Climb over? Run around it? Smash it? Eat it? Its up to you![: Well our friendship cant just get cut off cause of our wrong choices right? Its just as good as taking a scissors and cut the string that has been tightly tied around our hearts. Want to hang out more often?[: We can go somewhere where we leave our burdens & pour all the stones & pebbles out of our pockets. Whenever you feel comfortable, you can beep me & tell me whatever burdens you have and smudge it all over my face :D. I hope the times where you used to cry to me will come back. At least you let them off your heart! && I promise whatever happens, I will cry to you too.

Don't worry; Everything will be fine as long as I Love You. ;D

KAP with drama juniors & delia!

S'muarcks to you & me![:



Haha today had loads of fun with my Drama Juniors & Delia.
I love my burger man ;D

Joey;

oh please. You deleted me in friendster, do you think i don't know?
HAHA. Check if I can still view your profile, for what? Who in the right state of mind wants to? Its all the zhi lian pictures.
&& All that act cute face. May I ask? Have you checked the mirror these past few days? I am not saying that I look better than you but before you "downgrade" people with your words check yourself first please. && for your information, Its not block "friends" its delete unless you don't know how to read.
Gosh, So what if someone goes overseas & comes back with NOTHING for you does it matter? Especially you treat her like your doggy! Wow, you got super duper high high high ego huh? Yeah I know. I can tell ;D. Saying you are a 7 year old kid who loves to be CHILDISH & yeah well play is something everyone likes! Do you not know EVERY 7 year old grows up & mature too? Otherwise every one's life span goes like this:
Born-----1 yr old-----2 yrs old-----3 yrs old-----4 yrs old-----5 yrs old-----6 yrs old-----7 yrs old. ----- RIP.

If it was like that, we will still be CRAWLING about on just soil. We won't know how to speak. Nor write. Okay, maybe in your vocab is.. We won't have sweets nor chocolates. We won't have computers NOT EVEN MAPLE.

Be happy you can stay on this earth for 14 years! But stay 7 all your life & lets see how your future is like. I am not saying all these here to pull your hair. I am saying all these cause you might have given up in your studies but I do believe you still can Excel. Don't let retaining become your goal. If you don't want to do well the most just drop to NA. At least you still slowly build up from there. You can achieve if you want to. People who aren't in Express like you & I do not mean that we are dumb. It means we are more playful compared to them. We can still score higher then them. If you don't want to then you know what? Be a failure since thats your choice. Don't regret next time.

i hate o3o6o8

Just as I predicted all came true.
But something changed. I HATE IT EVEN MORE now. What's worse?
People who are SUPPOSE TO BE close forgot your last birthday to celebrate with them?
or
You spoiling your own last birthday here? Making it so hateful.

&& I dont know why in the world I cried my whole journey home to my condo's staircase to my room & back to the staircase! I am a fool. Yes, i know that. Yes, Winnie you are right I guess I want it this way. You know why? Cause I cant control what is happening.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY: BULLSHIT.

People whom you plan outings with just plainly completely forget & went out with another friend. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! HAPPY birthday huh? YEAH RIGHT.

My cousin wanted to come to my house & have fun. How to when this idiotic birthday girl spoil her OWN birthday!? When she called to ask if she could come now, my mom answered the phone. I shouted, "TELL HER TO FORGET COMING."
HATE MYSELF? YES.

&& thanks Winnie for making me realize how much I regret. Thanks for all those hurting messages to slice me in half in order to make me realize how much I deserve this.

...

Well that post below was a post i did earlier & I scheduled it.
Well no one can tell the future huh? Yeah true thats why whatever happens tomorrow I may blog all about it with happiness & joy in it.[: Thanks everyone!
First friend to wish me Happy Birthday:
AMALINA SEXYBUTT!

Man is she punctual! Hahax exactly on the dot she screamed all about it everywhere! Hahax she is loved! I recieved this note from the Singapore Post telling me to go down & collect my package from them. I will be heading down first thing tomorrow morning before I meet Yun Xin Jie to go for drama. [: I wonder who is it from. Well these are my suspects.. & those who are striked out means confirm not them![:

-Melissa.
-Melanie.
-Someone from pri school.
-Dad.
-Someone from secondary school.

so now we only left 2 suspects. We will know the answer in the morning!:D

happy birthday to me,

This day, Whatever.
Going for Drama, plan the farewell. Thats it. I told you; Yes, I DO dislike birthdays.
Thats all I plan for today. FULLSTOP.

happy birthday, RODNEY. [auzzie.]
hope you have a fun time![:

with winnie.

Went to Winnie's house earlier here are the pics![:

Happy Birthday Justin.

happy birthday Justin. [church.]
Hope you have a great time celebrating your birthday with your friends, relatives & who- so- ever! :D

Thank you.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fearis what we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not darkness which most frighten us.

We ask ourselves,
"Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented & fabulous?"
Actually who are you not to be.
You are a child of God.

You playing small does not serve the World.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It is not just in some of us- it is in everyone.
& as we let our own light shine,
We unconciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fears
our presence automatically liberates others.
☺Marianne Williamson

Isn't it true? We can be who we want to be. If we say, "Yes, I can achieve my goals!" You are right;
But If someone says, "Shit, I can't its impossible." You are also right. God is in us if we let him in. Things happen for a reason. Don't be too quick to judge & blame others. Ask yourself, "Which area or part am I at fault".

There is still one fact in my 14th birthday is that, No matter what its going to be a day after drama & just rush home, watch TV. Well, I don't want it to be a disaster, so I do something I am happy with. :D