WC.

Germany, england.

4 -1. OWNED pretty badly.

Pretty fun game to see people going crazy on facebook wall feeds hee. Next one, I'm on Argentina.

I'm going to make sure I watch every single WC with daddy, just like how I did since young!

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Daddy, heal the broken hearted. The gift, the tears of pleading cries and the electrifying heart that wishes to cry just a little more wishing to get rid of this bitterness. May the colours of melody you blend, embrace the ones You hear, crying out to You. I know you hear their prayers. I hear your voice and warm presence surround us Lord. && My soul delights, put them in Your heart. Hold me into Your heart. Take them deeper, Oh Lord.

You're like a zephyr in my heart.

But all I know is that I'm no supergirl.

Where ever you are, no matter how you feel tonight, the warmth of summer, the burst of spring, the colours of autumn or the mysteries of winter regardless, you can count on me. I'll be there for you. One thing's for sure, Marilyn loves you.

Enthrall,

15 deg outside, water was probably 5 since it didn't have contact with the sun and it was -0.6 this morning. Was home alone and decided to "swim", jumped in, tried to "warm up" swam one lap, the cold water was freezing my brain. External brain freeze. Swam another lap. God knew I wasn't ready for "home". He threw me out of the water. Started gasping for air to think again. Didn't have enough oxygen because my pulse and respiration was going too slowly. 5 mins later went back in the house, turned the heater on, sat there, everything was numb. Tried to fire back up. Fell asleep in front of the heater since my brain was still half dead too, I knocked out for an hour. Stupidity.

Hypothermia, a terrible way to die. Cause images don't flash by but just freezes in pain.

Things my mind do when its against itself...

If it wasn't for love from a Father,

If it wasn't for grace from a loving heart,

if it wasn't for mercy from Daddy.

Misses.

Finally found it!

About me #1: If I tell you honestly, fully how I feel means I trust you a lot. But the thing is, you'll never know when I'm hiding it. Unless we're so close, you'll be able to read me like a paper! :D

"you melt my heart."

3 hours of sleep, Alarm went of 3 times before I heard it. 3 degrees in the morning, rowing. With ore 3. Not superstitious, just amused. :)

I wanna go for winter camp... Commitments, I can't just leave them. A miracle prayer, a gentle whisper. The love, the embrace. I'm feeling like hugging anyone I see. They need it, and so do I. Hug? :D

Speak out.

Had a little bitch fight in sose class, ironically, its in law and politics class. I was part of it. I was the innocent one till I backed my friend up by "firing" a shot to the other. && WON! Heh heh heh.

Blessed.

You say I've got everything. Everything a 16 year old ever wanted. The question isn't "what's everything?" or "why do you say that?" but instead its, "if I've got everything, tell me honestly, am I sharing them with you? Joy, love and most of all, the most precious what I've been so blessed with ever since I was born, God's love, that's not only for me but for you too?"

There are those who thinks Christianity is a religion that brainwashes, there are those who want to stay "neutral", there are those who "doesn't want to have anything to do with this "garbage"" and there are those who are just avoiding this taboo topic. Christianity is classified under "religion" to us humans but when you discover its really a relationship a father wants with His darling children who hurt each other and themselves. Will you give me a chance, as a friend to tell you more? Because I love you and I want you to experience this joy that I've found.

Daddy has been so merciful to me. His daily embrace is enough to melt my heart. I won't be ashamed. I won't hide it, ask me I'll go on and on telling you how much I've experienced with Daddy's loving hands. Ever since I reconnected with Daddy, I have been completely changed. You'll never believe the things I've done, against people who loved me, people I loved and most of all, against myself which then overall against Daddy. So are you just going to give the cold shoulder and turn away..?

Cause Daddy first loved us but,

"Cause she hates me and she wants me to have a crap life!"

"who?"

"MY MOM."

Hearing that as a child myself really did sting me a little. Considering the fact I said far worse things as such when I was 8 onwards and am trying not to do so anymore but instead more of a "I love you." now. After getting rid of that "boulder" I realised how much it would have hurt if my FUTURE daughter ever did say that... It made me think, its so easy to curse and swear and at that point meant it. We surrender to anger why is it so hard to give in to even a little bit of love? We can say it so freely to a guy/girl or even a friend but not the person who loves us inside, out, overall, our wrongs, our mistakes, our tears but instead say these words that are slowly losing its meaning to someone who only knows what you decide to show, reveal and keep those broken bits of you behind because you know that they tend to leave you once they see that ugly bit. I realised I was then blinded with limited love last time and how much I have hurt my mom. Saying things like... rather not, thinking back of it hurts too.

Love, colourful, mysterious and an undefined art that speaks with warmth and joy that makes oceans dance in the wind, thunders clapping with glee, the sun shine right into the most sensitive spot, our soul's beating heart that rains with beauty that flowers giggle with joy. Why oh why, do we humans distort such a beautiful thing? Ungratefulness. Given by the one who first loved us a gift to hold. Abuse it don't ya? Then you ask, "why is there sufferings in this world?" A blinded world.

That day,

Just when you thought, “I know what’s going to happen!” life takes you by surprise.

somewhere, its where I'll find you.

This is it, its the "beginning."

Decisions are made. Hopes are set. Goals to achieve. Prayers to be said. Help needed to be reach.

There's so much in me I want to tell someone. How I'm feeling, how I feel like a 5 year old who.. okay too much info! Hahaha, well only if it's God's plan !

:)

Blended with the background.

Grabbed by the waist, embraced and spun around.