Just one glance back to the past.

http://potatochip-craze.blogspot.com/2010/01/dates-they-arent-only-for-remembrance.html
I said I would look back at the end of 2010, and here I am. Just 7 hours away from 2011.

THIS IS THE POST:
Cross out means edit. Italics means correction. Underline means almost done. Bold means done.

The more I write, the more excitement stacks. This year, hopefully my last year in Penrhos and off to Canning. Lynwood. JUST EXACTLY 360 DAYS till:

1. I say bye to uniforms FOREVER. I still have uniforms. :D
2. I get to carry my own bags to school.
3. No more school rules on SHOELACES.
4. I don't have a rule against my hair.
5. No more polishing of leather shoes in free classes.
6. 2 more years of high school and HELLO UNI.
7. I'm on Ls for driving.Getting there. Have not submit my cert.
8. 2.5 more years till my promise is fulfilled to God.
9. Year 2011.

I know I'm looking way forward but hey, that's why 2010 is a big year INTO 2011. Alright to make it fair, for 2010 this is what I would love to achieve:

1. Being more organised. NOT EXACTLY.
2. Getting to know ocfers better.
3. Learn how to drive.
4. Love my birthday.
5. Work.
6. Save up for a trip back to Singapore. Failed..
7. Then Shanghai.Double fail.
8. A mission trip with church members. Didn't but plans are under way for the future.
9. Get good achievements in ALL subjects.
10. Grow more in God.
11. Experience being a nurse. Not really, but a vet. So I guess win-win.

I'll look back on this post at the end of 2010, && I'll see how many I've accomplished!

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So that was how successful my year was.

Catarmarans today. :)

Countdown party tonight!

Its almost 2011.

Watched Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince last night. ME IS MISSION ACCOMPLISHED.

Whatever that happened yesterday, to be honest, I didn't know what I would do without you. I've taken you for granted and HAVE said some awful stuff before but really, who knows even though it sounds like I can't wait for you to leave, I don't know how it's going to be like. It's not just a bestfriend really, its more than that. So I'm not only going to say bye to a bestfriend, but someone much more and deeper than that. Till then, I owe you much more than mere words of I love you.

Sometimes I wish...

Had American breakfast at home. I did the eggs. guilty but its cause I'm paranoid HAHA.

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You know, she's right... I myself have been struggling with that, I never knew the others felt the same.
I tried and manage to go past that but whenever she brings it right up to my face and rub it in, in myself I swear and did wish I could be someone you could praise. Since Chinese, damn I was so happy when I could drop it. I thought I was past that but there were other things I could have reached but didn't. I know its for the better but too much becomes a bulldozer building another bulldozer. They destroy each other. Not compliment. What are you doing? What's the force behind the moving object?

Secrets that will remain so.
You are part of me. You were part of my past. Who was once like that.
But I still love you.

28th December.

Tuesday.
IKEA MEATBALLS! :D
yummiyo.

SIMS 2. Again.
Btw, my old couple died. One was chased off the planet, another was hallucinating with Hawaii girls and the Grim Ripper playing the drum. Haha.

27th December

Christmas Light Hunts.

26th December

Went to church, was helper, bub's.
Ate DIM SUM! :D
Long craving for that has been fulfilled! :)

Boxing day, didn't do much. SIMS2 mostly after.

Christmas 2010.

Christmas this year feels.. off..

I've been looking forward to this date, my favourite day of the year but something is off..

Maybe cause we're short of someone in the family, looking back to the past few Christmas (On my blog) it's with Melissa or parties with cousins. I guess its not being together as a family makes it off..

Christmas, the day where you want to spend this festive season with everyone, with people you love. But I guess as you grow older, everyone has other priorities on this day. It feels like just another ordinary day. Nothing special, just a lot of eating and growing fat. Food doesn't make Christmas, Christmas. Jesus does but I guess growing up with the same people spending Christmas annually with you makes a difference..

I just don't have the Christmas mood. But life is not going by feelings, I KNOW. It's just that you know SOMETHING is missing and things are different. People just get busy I guess.

It's like spending Christmas alone. :\

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Yesterday dinner at Jeremy's with ocfers. 

Dinner, chasing cockroaches cause we were having a feast and they wanted their own feast on our rubbish, played Articulate waiting for 12AM as we were counting down to Christmas, Sang carols and had a prayer then Gift exchange, played Sequence and Pictionary Mania till 4am. FUN! :D

Woke up at 12pm!

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I got 2 Pencil cases this Christmas hahaha. & Blogger is being evil by rotating my tree.

Love and other drugs.

Watched Love and other drugs with Mel.

Its probs a R18 in Singapore but its MA15+ here.

Loads of sexual scenes but the moral of the story, its touching and meaningful.

That was how I spent my night.

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& when I said I'd try to let go because time isn't a number,

something tells me, "hold on.".

Or is that something, me?

Daddy, I'm Yours.

As the rain comes down.

Wednesday:

OCF potbless Christmas dinner.

+ Prayer meet. :)

Today:

Went to the city with Janie and met my lynwood friends. Karaoke, Pot Black (Pool) & Arcade for photobooth.

Going to meet the whole gang soon.

by Kle-m

The past 2 days has been a little bumpy ride. Its an emotion that's so hard to explain. Insomnia. But after thinking it through, speaking to God, letting it out... Right now, I'm just going to let everything go. I'm not going to chase after a wild dream, I'm not going to keep wishing on fantasies, I'm just going to be me. Things might not change but I will. I will show that I don't care any more about things that doesn't require my attention, because whatever it is, God has a greater plan for me than me, trying to write my own story ahead.


"What's meant to be will always find a way."
- Trisha Yearwood 


It may be the hardest thing, but trust in the Lord always and He will make your path straight.

SICKENING.

I guess not knowing earlier was good.
I guess he should never know anyway.
I guess she just hate letting people know.
I guess she could never tell him what exactly happened after.
I guess she can't be compared.
I guess everything that happened was nothing much.
I guess it didn't mean as much to him as it did to her.
I guess he's right. "I'm a jerk." 
I guess the one that truly loves you do come back.
I guess it doesn't just end there.
I guess it goes on and the chain continues.
I guess people screw each other minds up pretty badly.
I guess its not a game for kids.
I guess its all not worth it...

then tell me why, tell me why was that foolish girl kept the same wish on the wish list for 2 years, feeling sick to the pit when she thinks of him, having dreams feeling so real to tell her everything is going to end like this while he was gone already? This is one huge circle of jokes and hidden facts.

"The one that loves us, never really leave us."
lies isn't it?

Why do I crave speaking to you but after each conversation its just feeling this way?

I hate love, what more do you need me to say?

Reviews.

Sunday,
Clare came over, watched Harry potter and the goblet of fire. :) Caught up, chat loads and bonded.
Went for the Christmas candlelight thing at the community centre.
Rained. I love rain.

Monday,
Puan came over, spent most of the day with her since I woke up at 11.
Harry potter and the Order of the phoenix with pops at night.

Today,
Ate, sit, computer, chat.
Caught up with friends. :)

It's been ages since I last spoke to you. I liked how the way you've slowly come around, I like how you're not much different. Broken, definitely, but still healing.
"smile :)"

time traveller.

Thursday:
City with Lauren B and Shazz M.
Many funny things happened, insane.

Friday:
Janie came over, went to this carol service thing that's put up by some church and had ballet performances relating to Christmas.
Carousel, bought heaps of stuff.
Not me, Janie. For the first time, she's in my boat. BROKE.
Helped picked something beautiful for her to wear to our Christmas Party. Won't ruin the surprise, will take a picture on that day.
Harry Potter Movie-thon from 10 to 4.30 in the morning. Only watched 2 harry potter (Philosopher's stone and Chamber of Secrets), we wrapped her presents too and we just died on my bed after.

Today:
Woke up at 11.30, sent Janie off, had "Breakfast", watched another Harry Potter (Prisoner of Azkaban). Then... I...

By Sisoko-Chan

yupp. I died again and woke up at 6pm. My head is giong crazy, cause of all the Harry Potter before bed, my brain kinda makes me replay the movie in my dreams and it hurts my brain cause it doesn't get to rest... But I still want to watch the remaining 3 Harry Potters. :)

Till then, a toast to my brain!

A little something on this Wednesday.

Went to Koorong, got some awesome stuff :)

Ate at Cosy Corner!

Christmas rings is almost nearly all settled. Just 2 more things to do!

Borrowed the whole Harry Potter series from the very first movie to the second last one. Oh wait, I just found out I'm missing 2! :\ ohwells but I could have never been able to finish all these in a week. Harry Potter Movie-thon on Friday! :)

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I know it's good for me, I know its a test, I know it's killing me, I know it's moulding me.

Maybe, just for another time, could I have those back.. To want to know, to feel it, to encounter it again..

Sore bottoms and watery eyes.

I can summarise my day today in just 7 words.
Morning cartoons,
Sims 2 (FOR 5 HOURS STRAIGHT. I was that bored.),
Gelare.
Family Devotion.

Tomorrow's gonna be more productive! >:)
Still need to wrap prezzos...
I LOVE WRAPPING.
Pay me and I'd gladly wrap alllll your presents.
Yes, I'm still looking for a job.

Christmas shopping :)

Shazzzz :)

Went shopping with this girl today in the city. Spent 8 hours straight with her, Christmas shopping then headed back had yummy nachos and watched X-Men. It was so good, now we're having a X-Men movie-thon soon!
Went for late night shopping with Mel after dinner, felt illegal cause it was so quiet!

I BOUGHT MY DUMMY TODAY! :D :D :D

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& I love you. :)

So many goodbyes, now 7 schools and 8 soon. People come and go, making little tea drops along the way with scents that linger in my life. But too many is terrible, too many its hard to keep in contact with everyone. I tried. I honestly do try, but it gets harder each time.


Daddy, all I ask is that You'd keep all these people safe. Amen.

Middle was never good enough.

I once thought that maybe, I do somehow hope I might meet someone in "that kind". Different but adventurous, I want to discover. But what if the rope that is pulling you back and restricting you from things you're trying to reach like a puppet maker mocking your every move. You know that if you defied laws of gravity, you'd still fall. You'd hurt yourself and you instead hurt the rope too. What's the point of hurting the rope and wanting to break free if the rope was made of solid iron? You might at most just leave a little scratch; that still hurts but makes no difference in situations.

Offended and disappointed but one day maybe you'd realise every fish in this ocean that runs from Arctic to Atlantic is different.

Christmas Present Number 1.

From Clare. :)

LOVE YOU CLARE BOOBIE.

loads of more love,
Marilyn Bumhole.
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Church, :)
Helped builders, mischievous little kids but cute all the same!
Song: ........ Universe, the jungle and the sea.
Little boy: .........Unibust, duh jungle and the sea!
heehee, SO CUTE!
&  a hug goodbye,
I've got a new bestfriend. ;)

continued. CHRISTMAS LIST!

heeeeeeee love you Melanie.

But for the rest of you:

Went to watch Harry Potter with Olivia, Jason and Timmy today, I started crying when Dobby died. o-o But I'm not much of a Harry Potter fan but from the weird order of watching the other Harry Potter movies I remembered loving him.. Then Gelare! :D

Janie over again!

Summer rolling by.

1st Friday in this Summer Holiday. Was suppose to go for my interview but 10 mins before, dad talked me out of it. Mum gave him to give me a greater insight so I agreed. Cleaned my 1.5 stuy table (Well I have a study table but I filled it with junk and went back to my old half of out slightly bigger table and messed it all up too.. :x ) But now its all clean! My room is neater, took all the stuff behind my door down..
So, Christmas is coming and people are all asking for things like iPad or iPhone 4 or Black Berry or whatever... I'd tell you my list like how I would tell the world every year. :)
This list is only for those who HAVE to get me a present (*coughMELANIEcoughcough*) ;)

List in next post :D

Thursday's summer cleaning!

Was suppose to hang out with Lyndall and co. at the city but had an interview.

Was suppose to go for an interview today but the person changed it to tomorrow instead.

Was suppose to meet Clare and Yeji but cancelled cause its too far thinking I had an interview but it got cancelled...

Therefore, today, I have the day to myself to pack, clean and clear.

PROCRASTINATING.

bugger.

Went shopping the past 2 days, a break through to being "in the slumps" and wearing my usual shirt and shorts. Bought my Sims to accompany me when I turn into a sloth.

But overall, taking each day one step at a time. :)

PUAN, please hurry your butt back to Perth. :p

A railway track.

I miss penrhos though it has not hit me that I'm not part of the family any more..

A goodbye has to start somewhere and a goodbye is also when things end. Goodbye, where the past and future meet and present is slowly taking its course as it gives us time to accept and adapt.

The 6th school that I'm leaving.. Now, to embark into the 7th school. HELLO LYNWOOD!

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If the one thing you ask me what I've learnt from all these moving... Not just moving house or moving schools but moving countries and all... It'd be the gift of letting go of this world.


Before all these big changes, my friends were my family. Where is my family then, you may ask? They were out of the equation. I wanted things any teenage girl wants while growing up and how boys were a big part of life etc. && When I hear about Jesus coming again and asking me to just drop my "nets" like how He called His disciples and followed Him...(Mathew 4:19 or Mathew 19:21) Could I? At that time, my answer was... "Could I bring my computer? Could I bring my friends? Could I bring Chelsea?" etc. but now, after the moving and the realisation that all the things that I have means nothing, I can just drop everything and anything and say, "Here I am Lord, take me for I'm Yours."

Bus runnin'!

Sunday, went to adventure world with Olivia and Janie, pretty cool. Fun day!
Monday, DARK HOLE. Failed maths; & physics by 2%.
I was so angry with myself, I was probably my own devil feeding my fire with kerosene. But I couldn't look angry, was too tiring to keep my brows kissing each other then people thought I was sad and about to cry because it was my last day. Sorry, I lied that that was the reason. Truth was, I had bigger things to put my emotions into.


I then saw this little kid, probably 3, had fairy wings on trotting on the edge of this ledge with her father behind when I was walking around to get some alone time. In my head I was saying, "Don't come into this school. Ms _______ just going to mess with your brain and laugh the evil laugh. Not worth it, run before they get you." I was just so disappointed about Math especially and  I thought I could have done better in History.


Took time to let go but finally, I'm in the stage where I'm like, "Ohwells. I wish mummy and papa wouldn't return so soon so they can just forget about my Math exam that my twin sat." Yes, blame a non-existent person. :p

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Went out for dinner last night at Siena's! Servings were massive and sharing with Janie, I was so bloated even. Had all the cheese in the world, I was the happiest person in history. :) Then had awesome desserts near by. Chocolate Marshmallow cake and Strawberry Pavlova. YUM!
I got dared by Melanie to wear my Blazer out. Was wearing shorts and plain white tee + Blazer. They said I looked like a half dress bouncer. Got many eyes, wanted to use the loo but it was halfway across the room so I didn't dare and didn't go. I earned $2 for that dare. ;)

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Going out now, meeting Olivia and Janie! :D

Day 30-

Who are you:

Everything that you should know is on the sidebar. Besides that, I'm the one in the middle. Okay, bye.
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I've made it through this 30 day challenge. Should I start another one? :o
Hahaha, not for now. :)

Day 29-

In this past month, what have you learnt?

A little something.
I've learnt so much more about myself, making myself realise the own progress I'm making in life, making me realise the different people that matter so much to me and to the different bits of memories, completing the process I went through to be who I am today.

I've lost it.

I'd come clean, I've had this painfully annoying thought whenever I'm about to go on holiday. Especially back to Singapore. After moving here, I feel I've become a little more anti-social, well not like we could go out much here. Shops close at like 5? When school is out at 3.30pm and by the time we reach anywhere, it'd be 4.30pm cause transport sucks.

& After awhile of not going out, I don't "dress up" much anymore. I put on a shirt and shorts and out I go. I don't care about how I look. I mean to some of you its a good thing but I've passed the point of not being vain to looking like a lost wild child. People say I've loads of clothes, well I admit I do because my wardrobe is exploding but what's the point if I just put on my usual shirt and shorts and not care? I look at friend's photos and all and I asked myself, "How am I suppose to fit in when I return?" Fit in not in terms of among friends fitting in but not standing out too much with my Primary school days where I hate dresses, skirts and what not then wearing just boy shorts and shirts from camps and such. I don't hate them. It's just you know... "Can't be bothered wearing them"?

& every girl goes through this, "I'm not beautiful..." They worry about what they wear, they worry about how make up goes, they worry about having the latest fashion, they worry about having high heels, they worry about having hand bags, they worry about having the latest accessories and they worry about their hair. Both body hair and head hair.

Now I ask myself, "Why am I such a boy... I don't care about these no more... I can leave the house without having to care about such. I can't stand having make up other than for drama, I can't stand high heels, I can't stand tiny hand bags, I can't stand changing ear rings each time I head out.. etc." The list goes on and soon I come to a conclusion, "I can't express myself with clothes any more."

Work Experience Day 5. Last day!

By defenderofMidgard.

I miss the cats already. Romeo, Fatty, Stubby and one eyed cat and many more. Too many to name but I've got favourites since they're the least scared ones. Did another 400 leaflets, today was much cooler so we did it in less than 1.5 hours! Gonna miss them all, it was a good week over all. I admit, I was counting down only because I couldn't wait for holidays. :p Heehee, overall, I've grown to love cats.
(The cat on the left in that picture looks like Romeo but his black spot on the side of his lip is on the other side. He's so adorable. I love him!) & that's the end of the vet trip.

Day 28-

A picture of you last year and now; how have you changed since then?

2009, 28th November.

2010, 26th November.

Definitely grew taller, matured, learnt to understand, baptised for a year and 3 days now. Got a mentor, became more obedient, became more of myself as compared to last year when I was still settling down, know what I'm certain in doing in the future, stable but overall, I credit it all to the one who gave it all. Daddy God.

Work Experience Day 4.

By Kainna.

Today there was a little kitten that was found last night by someone and the vet nurse brought her home for the night as she's only a kitten, the size width of the photo below of me and Shazz. It was TINY and it was stray. They suspected that maybe something happened to it that's why the owner only let this one go. They found the error but its so cute. It shivers and shakes, it drinks from the syringe and being a kitten it needs its mum to help it pee but cause it doesn't have it's mum, the vet nurse helped massaged its little bladder and pshhhhhhhh. So adorable. Had a bird in today but they suspect it got hit by a car so bad, it's going to die by tonight..
Accompanied our head vet to another animal hospital to pick a cat up that got lost from one of her customers. It literally looks like a hospital. Heard meow-ing and in the corner behind the board, 3 fresh kittens running about waiting to get adopted.
Funniest thing happened today. But it might be a little embarrassing for the victim. Though at that point it was embarrassing for Harriet and I, it's far worse for the other party so I won't be sharing here!

MEL'S COMING HOME WITH KRISPY KREME TONIGHT!
Defs not sleeping! :p

Day 27-

Why are you doing this 30 day challenge:

To get me blogging everyday even when I'm busy! :) Allowing me to balance play, study and rest so well for the first time. THANK YOU DADDY for sending Clare to show me this amazing quiz and helping me through this time especially. ;)

amen.

Work Experience Day 3.

I'm sorry for all the kitty pictures for those dog lovers out there reading this. But the kitties at work is getting to me. I'm starting to like cats a lot more, but I feel like I'm starting to react to all their loose fur and litters. ): Today the kitten was in again, so adorable. Played with her, amazing. Today went in at 9, suppose to be a half day on Wednesdays so was supposed to get off work at 1pm but instead, cause it was so dead, we got off at 11. Half day on a half day, amazing. (: 


2 more days!

Day 26-

What you think about your friends:

Winners. Defs.

Dear Friends I have all over this globe,

Those of you living in Singapore, those in Shanghai, those in Canada, those in Malaysia, those in America, those in Brazil, those in hong kong, those in Australia, those anywhere else, I'd like to say, you're amazing. Even though you might argue and say, "but you've got heaps of friends, I bet you forgot who I am!" Truth is, you're wrong. Each and everyone of you have entered into my life leaving footprints with little traces of memory. You might have left my life and stopped keeping in contact but really, even if you used to be the one who just says hi and bye that smile of yours still remain. (: I thank you for being my support group when I was going through happiness, rebelliousness, sadness or madness or just having lunch with me. I'm thankful for your presence in my life. But to put it out there, no matter what I wouldn't leave you out of my time. Though sometimes life catches up and work load increases, I try not to. I still want to be there for you, just like how I've last time; in the future just like how you've also been there to share little joyful moments with me. I love every single one of you, especially you Janie. hahahaha, ;) Just then I heard your voice, "ESPECIALLY ME!". You guys are indeed amazing for combining with such art of grace to allow me to share my little insignificant life with you. (:

With loads of loves and hugs,

Marilyn Ho.