Done.

CLEARED! :D

You can take the girl out of her childhood but you can never take her childhood memories out of her.
xoxo;
MARILYN
mho.

some more pics.

Some more pictures in Singapore, something Joey and I did while camwhoring!

STARRING...

JUNYUAN.AMALINA.EMPORIO.NIGEL.ZHEHUI!MAPLE EMOTICONS!
F1.F2.F3.F4.F5.F6.F7.Click on it to enlarge. :D

Hope you guys had some good laughs. (:

tag replies:
Winnie: Replied!
Qinying: Haha replied.
Xue En: You did not give me the link. Haha XD
Richelle: Will do! You are missed too!
Juliana: No worries, I was worse.. x.x
Yvonne: Hello! :D
Ellysha: Will link and HI! :D
Hansika: Haha I will, but I dont know whenn.. ):
Loysius: Thankyous!
Zahiya: Bite my ass! HAHAHA. :D
Joey: You're welcome. (:

Fun in singapore.

I had loads of fun in Singapore! :D
Here are some pictures.

[More in fb!]

back to PERTH

Returned from Singapore and back in Perth.
Will update soon.

If you ask me to prove to you where my home is, I will tell you my memories, childhood stories and cry a river but yet SMILE the brightest and biggest smile of all to show you my happiness. (:

With loads of hugs and kisses,
xoxxo
MARILYN
mho.

ASS

Marilyn is so ------.

Well, at least I still know people who truly care. && I am meeting some of them tomorrow. All I can say is, those that I was ONCE close with were never true. Well, for the first time in this holiday I feel this way:

YAY! ONE MORE DAY AND I AM BACK TO PERTH! :D CAN'T WAIT!!! :D


I don't mean this. ):

expectations, don't count on them.
MARILYN
mho.

Another Night.

I'm RECOVERING! :D
But tonight is just another night. :\

CONGRATULATIONS EMPORIO AUNTIE! :D Now, you have one of THOSE. Hahaha, :D

Woke up late this morning. :\ Went to vivo to meet E and T then head back to school. My room is bare, my house is empty and my things are gone. If migrating meant that you wont get to come back to the place you once called home so dearly, why bother going through that agony? Because it makes you grow. OI! MARILYN STOP EMO-ING LAH! -.-''' Haha, I wanna see Loysius one more time!!! D: He won't be able to go tomorrow and I still have loads to thrash on him while he too got loads to drown me in! I miss Singapore ALREADY. Shanghai, I wish I could be there again. OK, SMILE! :D

please be there, I miss you. I need to see you once more, smile with you then pull you through the promise you made me with, to skip around with me one more time. Tell me your deepest secrets, hear my heart because it is for you to listen to my deepest feelings. If only, distance never existed between you and I.

Seeing their picture, I picture of you and I. I miss you too. Will you hold me once more and carry me when I am weak and tired. Why different states? WHY. When we could actually just be 1 door away.. I'm sorry. I am just confused. What to do? Why do I feel this way? I am greedy I am sorry. But its calling me too.. ): I want to fix the gap but I can't do it now cause I am drawn to him.

with insanity;
x
MARILYN
mho.

last few days.

Through it all,
thick or thin,
problems or happenings..

SMILE or even LAUGH; as it is a soothing medication to the heart! (:

Yesterday went fusionopolis with J.E.N, A and Z didn't go and with Loysius and Tricia too. Its been a long time since I had a full meal. But eating half already made me sick. I skipped my ice cream and soon my ice cream turned into puke. Cause it contains, cheese, salt, pepper, chilli, ice, lemon tea, strawberry PUKE. Haha, :D Later went back to school, joined drama then played truth or dare with Juliana, Indah and Elysha. OMG, can you believe it, they are MAD but it reminds me of how I used to be. Now I am like: o.o LOL o.o HAHA omgomgomgomgomgzxs I miss those times when weird stuff made me laugh my ass off. Remember peeps? When we were sec1 and 2 we laugh at practically anything and everything. Haha, :D Then met Yun and headed to BTP, chat loads and walked around. Then headed home. (:

No pictures today, I didn't bring my camera. D:

DRAMA

Another day has come and gone away;
WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE.

The 9th. Zombie, coming right up! Probably going to sleep in school tomorrow at the foyer. :\

FMS(S) Drama, GOLD WITH HONOURS. Congrats! (:

Loysius crowns me with it, but rejected cause.. HE DESERVES IT! :D He was one of the main characters and its seriously amazing. GOOD JOB DRAMA! :D

Today went for my uncle's death anniversary. I still remember when I was young, whenever I see him, I feel the world stops to watch me greet him and he returns with a hug. (: It has been 11 years already but what sinks into my memory is when he would play with me toys he made out of wood or the toy kitchen. && When he made a wooden house that my sisters and I used to camp in the living room when I was little and watch t.v till our heads drop. && till this day, I still won't change my mind since young that HE, was indeed my favourite uncle. (:

Met T, A and E today, wii-ed and went to school. SAW THAT DEMON! :o She stared at me till her eyes went dry and sore. Guess what, this place means alot to me compared to you, monster. d:

tag replies:
Sarah: I will, :)
Joey: Haha, very cute!
Yunxin: Its alright.
Zhe Hui: Will do, :)
Melanie: Haha thankyou.
Rachel Yeo: SMILE! :D
Haris: Haha, I WILL! :D
Jingyi: :)

[pictures will come soon.]
With colours of honour,
xoxxo
MARILYN
mho.

8th night

8th night,how long more is this going to last..
LOOK AT THE TIME! oh-ish-shii-maii-goshhh! :O

tonight got someone different pei me. d:

ANYWAYS,
Yesterday Ben & Jerry's had their free cone day. Everyone rushed down to vivo and line up. I see the line, stare, eyes pop out then I walk away. Really CMI, VERY LONG! Emporio, lucky girl got her ice cream. (: But I didn't have the mood for ice cream.. :\ Later Joey, Abram and Zahiya wanted to line up for one. I thought nevermind, we shall go watch 17 again before we ran out of time. (: Movie was great! Emporio, like me last time while watching movie, sleep in the theater. This was her 3rd time watching and she fell asleep during the movie. So cute right! X) Then I went to ka chiao her. :x I went to poke her. After the movie, camwhore! :D
[more in fb!]

Everyone says I am lucky,
Everyone tells you its amazing.
People say its perfect,
You said it was meant to be.

Can one word say it all? But I can't stand this merry-go-round no more. CARE is one thing that I realise isn't that easy to sustain. Cause too much care becomes too over protective, to little becomes neglect. Watched 17 again, images come rushing to me. GREEDY, too greedy! d: But this time, its way off. I've gone back to step 6, the biggest stepping stone and the one that rocks most. Its called forbidden, its turning into a drama! :D

Smile and shatter it,
xoxxo
MARILYN
mho.

I HATE YOU TOO.

The 7th night. && still counting.
And the most painful of all is not losing somthing or someone,
its the regrets that hurts most.

But through it all, SMILE.

Happy Birthday Theon and Haris.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THEON! :D
We WERE once close last year but till now we do chat. :D Thanks for always being there for me when I had troubles or couldn't sleep. Haha, :D Alvin and the Chipmunks will always be missed! Especially when Theodore get smashed against the window. :x Haha, :D Happy Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARIS! :DHappy birthday Haris! :D Drama is always funny with you alright! :) SYF, bet it was the best! Haha, :D All the best! JIAYOUS! :D

To tell you.

MARILYN IS A HAPPY GIRL! :D

I dnt know.

Its plain chaos.
Regret much? Yes, I regret telling you now. I hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate youI hate you NOT.. ): I miss you, but its forbidden love. Its never going to happen because its not the same anymore. I am sorry for reacting that way but it was my first time and I was just scared. Scared.. ): Forget about me, break my heart all over again and I will make sure I will never return again. I want you as a friend. I want you more than a friend.. But what can we do.. cause I still love you..

HUI

Crushed up papers and dripping ink;
have now been unfolled and told.

Half a week.

Pictures to represent the happiness and bliss in my daily life.

THURSDAY.
drama carousel rehearsal, met Nat.
FRIDAY.
School, Joey's house, out.

[more pictures in fb]

And today is pool fun. Will blog about it when Junyuan uploads the pictures. (:

who knew what she is feeling within;
xoxxo
MARILYN
mho.

You are my superman.

6 more days till I start regretting all over again.

Is it so hard to say? It is. Cause its not the same
anymore. I know nothing will happen but it is...
SOMETHING you should know. (: How? I don't
know.. I've tried but feel too evil to say.. It will
destroy everything. But you won't ask though, I
have made it obvious. Cause you are the reason,
that disturbs me from the inside out every night.
God shows me signs to let you know. But.. Failed.
It's a secret I can't share, it's a perfect crime. To
them all..They may be "perfect", since they are...
Then you should be beautifully imperfect then! (:

I cant sleep.

I can't sleep.. ):
I can't frigging sleep.. ):
I can't damn frigging sleep.. ):
I can't damn it frigging sleep.. ):
I can't damn it boogie frigging sleep..):
I can't damn it, stupid boogie frigging sleep..):

This girl needs her bed time story teller.
She misses Alvin & The chipmunks much..

&& Poop troop is dearly missed too..

*poutpoutpoutpoutpoutpoutpoutpoutpoutpoutpoutpoutpoutpout*

&& IT IS 3AM ALREADY.

Anyone wanna go SKINNY DIPPING tonight? :D
Hahaha, I would be screaming and pulling my hair off.

Anyways, I was thinking.. Does anyone feel like going to a pool party and have a picnic pot luck? :D I was thinking of doing one this coming Sat, but who is interested? :)

ALL PEEPS INVITED.

;You are imperfectly beautiful
xoxoxxo
MARILYN
mho.

Tag replies.

tag replies:
Macy: Hey sexy! :)
Theresa: Don't have to treat, :) Miss you loads Theresa.
Mel: WRONG. They aren't but we ARE. :D Save mel, save!
Hansika: Miss you more. :) Hope to catch you on msn soon!
Jingyi: Miss you more, I am having a great time! :D Thanks.
Loysius: Haha, its alright. :D
Natalia: Heehee, d:
Christina: Haha you're always welcome. :D Miss you much.

Singapore

Haha, heehee, hoho!

- I still remember these silly
words you use to say till
it got me LMAO. SMILE!
Everyday, like how you smiled today!
.
.
.
Went school to scare people.
Went Fusionopolis with Zhe Hui,
Nigel, Emporio, Hilary, Vanessa,
Junyuan and Clarence. Chitty chatty,
:)
Went back to school and met
the marchers. Many peeps think
I dyed my hair BROWN. :o
Why would I? I love natural. :)
Guess cause Aussie sun is so bad till
it BLEACHED MY HAIR. d:
Haha I am not serious, just jking.
Then went back up, met Faiz
and Zul. PSP gamers.
Went opposite to the old place
and sat to chat. Evelynn scared the poor
cat away!! D: Scary.
Met up with the marchers,
sat and talk a little till slowly one
by one went off. Left Joey and
I and Loysius wanted to join us for
dinner so we asked him along.
POOR JULIANA,
GOT HELL SCARED BY...
THE PERVERT.
>:)
Went to KAP, took away and head
to my condo's swimming pool.
Secrets shared like little butterflies
and kept secretly sealed in us.
Loads were spilled till we had
nothing hidding from each other
anymore.
LOYSIUS FEELS BARE.
Haha, :D Then they went home.
Went to Yun's house, waited. :\
Wonder where she went..
YUN XIN!!!
.
[More pictures on fb; Yesterday's, Fusion & KAP.]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINA! :D
Haha though I am not extremely close to you.. YOU ARE STILL MISSED. Hope you love your new school! Haha, Happy 15th birthday you! :D Hope to see you really soon. Chinese class do bring back fond memories too! Loves and misses.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JETHRO! :D
YOU! :D Haha been fun having you around. Rarely going out with you and Yunxin but still.. FUNNEH times. Haha, :D Happy Birthday!

ZH

It is my turn to have icky yucky bugs in me.
-uhhhhhhhh... ;\- Feel so sick..

I am worried for you, why are you so down.. Cheer up, bud. Don't frown anymore. Remember last time you would always pull me along to skip whenever I looked down to you. && at the end of the journey you would turn and look at me smile the biggest smile ever on earth. Or during classes you would turn to look at me and remind me to smile. (: You've always been there for me. Now, I want to be there for you too.

weneedtotalk,Ineedtotellyouthetruthnow.

;the time has come
MARILYN
mho.
xoxoxxo

I miss you.

Heehee. :)

I hope B loved his surprise! ♥

I'm no one special, I'm just another human being roaming this earth just like you! :D

"We will be frequently visiting Singapore right? :D"
-silence-
"...n..nnoo not really.."

That stopped me right there.

SOMEONE owes me a HUGE O.
&& SOMEONE owes me one SKIP till WE SMILE! :D
xoxxo,
Marilyn
mho.

BACK IN SINGAPORE! :D

SURPRISE! :D
.
.
.
.
.
Heehee, :)

tag replies:
Shareler: Haha I am well! :D Why don't we meet up when I return to singapore the next time? :D Loads of misses! :)
Jingyi: Yupp, forever and always. :D
Rachel Yeo: Have you sent it yet? :D
Yun Xin: Haha hope you are feeling better now! :)
Junyuan: Yupp! ME TOOOO! :D
Loysius: If you wish hard enough, I am sure it will happen.. :)
Tricia: I changed my music quite some time ago. I just changed my skin though. Haha, :D Miss you loads! ): I WANT THE MUFFIN!! D:
Amalina: I HOPE to do it with you soon too.. ): I miss you loads and yes that was the GOOD OLD TIMES. D; Hope to see you REAL SOON Ama! :D

Who knew? d:
MARILYN
xoxoxxo,
mho.

I wanna.

I wanna hit the beach with the
old gang.
I wanna go to KAP this
Monday.
I wanna clear all of
these.
I wanna go back to
Singapore.
I wanna have bubble
tea opposite school
with Maggie mee again.
I wanna swing and jump
off it at the swing opposite
school again.
I wanna head to vivo with
ponnopits again.
I wanna swim in rainwater
at vivo with the old gang again.
I wanna scream and make
a hell out of a noise with
the old gang again.
I wanna go lan with the
maple and audi gamers again.
I wanna play dirty minds at
mind's cafe with the old gang again.
I wanna walk through the streets
of town from one end to the
other with the old gang again.
I wanna stay back in school to
play retard games again.
I wanna play who what huh and
lose (as usual) again.
I wanna have 2F outings again.
I wanna go to sentosa like the
firefly trail.
I wanna have another fmss
funfair with 2F again.
I wanna get into trouble and
stand up with my friends again.
I wanna scream the F word in
class and WANG QING ZHEN
ask me to shuddup.
I wanna sneak hello panda into
class again.
I wanna sneak h2o into
class again.
I wanna carry ABSOLUTELY
nothing in my school bag again.
I wanna spam Jun yuan's camera
with everyone looking retarded again.
I wanna camwhore again.
I wanna sabo the whole group
in getting an interview again.
I wanna go to a long lost area
of Singapore with you guys again.
I wanna chase fireworks with
you guys again.
I wanna laugh so loud till I get
kicked out of class again.
I wanna get the whole row to
sit in front of food & tech again.
I wanna skip with the whole
gang again..

We don't get what we always want.
But if you live your dream, it will happen all over again.

BUT I AM
GOING TO LIVE
MY DREAM AND
MAKE IT HAPPEN.

all I ever wanted;
Marilyn
mho
xxoxoxoxx.

Happy birthday Aiken and Theresa! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIKEN! :D
Hey happy birthday dude! :D Can tell you love your school here! Haha, :D Hope to meet up with you some day yeah? Probably in city or somewhere or maybe even Singapore! :D happy Birthday! :D



HAPPY BIRTHDAY THERESA! :D
Happy birthday Girl! :D Haha, have a blessed 15th birthday! :D Love those times I have spent with you at cold stone when we first became friends and the days before I left for singapore. :) You've been a great friend! Loves and misses! :D

As complications arise,
we let our pride take control.
As problems starts to ring louder and louder,
we take that hatred in and consume it.

Why don't you just let it go?
Forgive. Forget that hurt.
Don't use as a weapon to hurt each other.
Forgiving might be hard,
but look further, cause on the end is happiness.

No one wants sadness and anger to last forever,
no one wants to roar and spoil their EVERYDAY.
No one dares to admit fault,
because pride is ruling us.

"Why don't you just tell them? Its better that way so they see the point."
"But I can't.. Its suppose to be special.."
"If no one gets the ball rolling, WHO WILL!? Only you Marilyn, only you."
"But.. I cant.."
"If you don't tell them, they will not start the ball. They won't take the first step.."

Don't be dependent on me. Cause this time, its chaos in one hand and links of hatred the other. I know I can make it better, in God's helping hands. But this time, I won't take that first step for you anymore. I will push you to do it cause this is the last time I am carrying you and taking it.

One favour, that's all I ask.
xxoxoxo,
Marilyn
mho.

Thursday.

EASTER SERVICE'S PAINTING WAS SO COOL.
EASTER SERVICE'S PAINTING WAS SO COOL.
EASTER SERVICE'S PAINTING WAS SO COOL.

:D Easter service in school today was quite nice.

Wesley Social is coming soon, after camp.
The theme is white and I so need to
go get a white dress!(♥)

edited:

I don't know why I feel so glum,
feeling purple like a plum.
My mind is screwed and
my day's not any good,
Oh Daddy Lord,
Let my day get sought.
And cure my numb feelings,
to all this on going things.

Something made me smile oh so
wide and cured my day that was not so bright.
Thank you Yunxin,
You are God-sent.
♥ I miss you too LDBFF. (:

Who knew she was coming?
xoxo,
MARILYN
mho.

SCREW PERFECTION TO MATH!

MARILYN IS SO PISSED.

WITH!? STUPIDITY AND CARELESSNESS IN MATH.

SCREW THIS. == 5 marks to that, LOST. && it was those 5 marks that could have GOTTEN ME FULL MARKS.
ARGH, RAWR *BOOM*

I shared my unhappiness with my papa by telling him the school screwed my name up.
He sounded frustrated but my pissy offy was getting to me. Sorry papa for dragging you into PISSING OFF too. x:
&& Mammi asked me jokingly to change my name to THAT.
Both my dad and I screamed NO at her.

WORLD, MATH IS ABOUT PERFECTION. && Guess what, I'm not.

But guess what cheered me up! :D
CARTONS here! :) And wireless is HERE.

PISS OFF,
Marilyn
mho.

TEST TEST TEST.

I am getting my MATH TEST BACK TOMORROW! ):

And prolly science too. D:

And an essay to top it off. Ohwells, :\\

Today was drama fest and it was great. :D Love the hip hop, really cool! :D Tomorrow is house lunch, going to bring lunch for the second time. Haha, :D

With overflowing love;
xoxo,
MARILYN
mho.

7 more days to SINGAPORE. :D

Finished TWO major test.

My brain is on HOLIDAY. Ahhhh..~ ^^

Tomorrow is DRAMA FEST! :D
Anyone up for some extreme
MADNESS!?

Kicking shoes away, crossing legs.
xoxo,
Marilyn.
mho.

Hannah Montana.

When I signed in to my school portal, I saw this:

Look Clearly:When I saw the title at first, I was like, "OMG! Cool! :D" Then when I opened it..

I was so pissed. -.- I was like.. "What.." Teachers are sure one cheeky bunch. Haha, :D Guess that is one thing that makes learning fun! d:

edited.

I have studied, (Not doing homework.) For 6 Hours straight and my brain is crying already. I HAVE A TERRIBLE HEADACHE. And I left one more subject to go. Mammi asked me to stop and continue tomorrow. :) I WILL. I SO WILL. d:

Slamming winds and blasting sunshines.
xoxo,
Marilyn
Mho.

Ignite the second.

Loysius is loved.
Loysius is loved.
Loysius is loved.

:)

Heehee, best buds since s1 and counting.

Loysius says (10:37 PM):
and if i get gold rmb,its for you!

The best bud you could ever ask for. :)
Anyways, that is for SYF. I BET THEY WILL OWN GOLD YO!

This is sent to me by Olivia who got it from someone. There is an unbreakable glass in between them. He is left handed and she is right. At the end, she cut off her left hand so he could draw with her again.. I watched it a few times but only tear when I watched it alone in the car. Cause there is something between us, its called miles. We can hear each other, we can talk but we cant touch and can't give but I would sacrifice anything to make it happen too..

Tag replies:
Loysius: HEEHEE Not telling you. XD
Nigel: NANDOS! NANDOS! NANDOS! :D
Ashim: Thanks. :)
RachelYeo: I know you will always be there for me. :)
Amanda: Haha I dont know when.. ): I miss you too. :)
Elden: Its awesome! :D
Brenna: Haha thanks. I miss you too. LOVES! <3
Yunxin: I knowwww ): I dont have it..

& it's called sacrifice of love.
xoxo,
Marilyn
mho.

Brain is alive.

Piled up with crappies,

Mugging hard for upcoming thunder storm.

I feel busy, FINALLY there is signs my brain has revived from rotting.

Burning brain cells, evaporating brain juices.
xoxo,
Marilyn
mho.

May God bless this day.

The following post might be wordy but worth it to read.
For some, it might change and inspire you. For others it might just be another blog post. But it is still worth it.

One night I fulfilled my dreams by taking the first steps into it. After doing such rash actions I started to panic and I prayed to God telling him to tell me what to do cause I have been seriously planning all the things I want to fulfill and how. I started worrying and asked Him to answer me.. Tell me.. I didn't want to be worried about the future but I can't help but speed things up.. Then the next morning I woke up at 5am and at 5.23am, God answered me. How? Without warning, God spoke to me through my sister. She messaged me saying, 'Proverbs 16:1-9. Verse 9: "In his heart, a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps." Then she continue saying, "It's good to plan, dream, think ahead. But we should be more open to God-appointed changes in direction." I was shocked. But that verse itself impacted me and made me flip my bible open and read the whole chapter. God WAS talking to me. No, IS talking to me. I then lay on my bed, looking at the ceiling and started talking to God with my head phones on. I committed all my worries of my day and future to him and I opened up my hands to receive Him into my heart, take my heart and mould it. After that I really felt His comforting hand on me, His spirit in me. I started to tear. Once I started to tear, the song that started playing was probably set by God. Cause it was, "From the inside out." As I tear the words filled me and it was then again I knew God was speaking to me through this song. Every single word was like a reply to me. && by what we humans call "co-incidentally", the song ended right on the dot with my last "Amen." I felt new, I felt fresh. I had new confidence in me. I didn't feel burdened or worried anymore cause I have lay them all down on Jesus. As He carries them for me while he cradles me. Thank you Daddy.

I post this all here cause through this incident, I felt like a new person. The feeling in me was sweet and soothing. Its a reminder that no matter what we are going through, don't neglect the Lord as He is always there and He is the one who DETERMINES the steps that you take.

Seeking the living water, eating the broken bread.
xoxo,
Marilyn
mho.