Saturday Night

Another update. Rihanna is back with Chris Brown. After what he did to her, she decides to forgive him and let their love continue. :) I think I can continue with Hollywood updates, its pretty fun. d:

Used com the whole day till I feel sick. So I agreed to go for a car ride again. Well, felt better but on the way, we saw 2 rainbows (one in front of another) && the first thought that came to me was 2F.. United like those colours, awesome like those perfect blend. Well, I know its gone. Accepted the fact and cherish the past. (: Well, I will always love 2f'08. It will always be AWESOME! :D Other than rainbows, I saw a slitting cloud in front with sunlight bursting through like heaven splitting and God is opening to come down to Earth. Beautiful sight. :D

If I tell you how I feel, it will just turn tables and chairs.
Forbidden, not suppose to exist no more.
If you ask, I will tell..
But will you.. When you aren't here no more.

Junyuan and Zhe Hui, you guys aren't alone. (: I am always here for you guys and so is God. Don't give up so easily cause there are still friends there for you. Forever and Always. (:

THE STING.

A skip of a beat, a hug of a bear.
xoxo, it's all about you. But you will never know.
MARILYN.
mho.

Saturday Afternoon..

Another lazy day, blogging.
After doing the questions last night I really actually cant wait to meet my principal and school and class! Wanna know the questions she asked me to fill in? :D Alright here goes nothing!

Please complete the sentences below.
I spend my leisure time usually spending time with my friends, hanging out, spending time together and sometimes I do use the computer. To chat and blog. To express myself.

I am good at "counselling" friends. I enjoy listening to my friend's problems, sadness and happiness and giving them positive, good advices. I believe friends are there to listen to you without complaints and share your emotions with.

My favourite subjects at school are English, Physical Education and Literature. English and Literature is where things aren't so shallow and easy to discuss about. I enjoy looking deeper into it and understanding what the writer and language.

My least favourite subjects at school are Just Chinese language. A huge contrast from my favourite, but Chinese is just a killer for me.

My friend's would describe me as a good listener, cheerful, insane (hyper active) and bubbly. These are the frequent compliments I get.

I would like to be better at Mathematics and Biology. I do see a slight improvement in my mathematics but I do want to score better. Pure Biology, as it is something quite new to me but I have an interest in veterinary, therefore I want to improve my bio.

I am worried or nervous about nothing actually. I am confident to start school here in Penrhos. More excited than confident though.

I really enjoy sports, spending time with my friends, school, blogging and drama.

God means to me He is my daddy in heaven, provider, friend, Almighty God etc. He means alot to me cause He gave me THE most precious gift. The gift of life. && I am very grateful for this special gift.

Yupp that's it. I treat this very frank. I answered whatever I felt like it haha, :D Its like another quiz for me. Like facebook notes haha, :D Yeah but I really cant wait to start school! Well, didn't accompany my parents to house hunting today cause I really feel nausea at the thought of it. Kinda sick of it. Therefore I am home with.. The com. && Yeah yeah, don't forget my tamagotchi who is named JOEY! and well.. HONESTLY.. It evolved into something that looks abit like Joey in her what she calls "toot toot" pri school pictures. Well, can say its cute too. (: AND.. I WANT TO GO TO AUSTRALIA MUSIC FEST! D; If only someone would SPONSOR me and GO with me.. Sigh, ohwells. Its in March and I don't think I have any holiday at that period of time.

My dreams are somehow, all about you.
xoxo,
MARILYN.
mho

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON! :D
Happy birthday dude! :D I know we weren't lose but I still wont forget the times I webcam and chat with you on msn and laughed in class together! Haha, :D 15 already, ohwells everyone is like so fast! d: Well another NOT SO NICE PICTURE.. But we only took one! I LOOK LIKE A DUNG EH. Haha, alright HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D

PS. I am so dying to join Volleyball and Dramafest or Drama School Productions in Penrhos! :D

Friday night!

I think Alvin and Kenneth Didi are right. I can become a councillor. I realise I have at least 3 "clients" a day to talk to. But I dont treat it as a counselling session. I feel as a good friend, its something I enjoy doing. Being there for friends because what you can give is something not seen like positive and good advices and your reward is happiness in those people lives you have enjoyed listening to and giving them a warm embrace to let that person know you care. Warm embrace as in not physically hug as I cant do that currently now. But through words and a positive response. Its something I love to do.

I am blogging again cause I just cant resist to type in more about my friday night. Heehee, well guess what. Penrhos' principal sent me a mail on questions for me to fill in on my own and while I was reading, I kept giggling and papa asked, " What's so funny!" Well, its the first time I am getting this thing and I think its super cute! Haha, :D Alright I really need to go fill it up now. (:

Be an angel, shine and be humble.

With love,
xoxo
Marilyn.

Celebrity check and my perth day 4

I must say, Angelina Joline and Brad Pitt looks super cute together. To top it off, their kids are like OH SO THE CUTENESS! 6 kids, 3 adopted; 3 biological but out of the 3 biological, 1 pair of twins. Maddox, Pax, Zahara, Shiloh and the twins, Knox and Vivienne. Saw some of their family photographs, CUTEEEE! && Zac Efron has finally proposed to Vanessa Hudgens. Probably getting married next year. (: They do look good together.

Okay well, today is house hunting again. Viewed some, saw some. Pigged out in the car as usual and psp batt was down so halfway on the roads it died. Well, managed to settle the car today. Next is the housing then my school then the shop then the permanent house then Melanie then moving of stuff from Singapore to Perth then the renting of KAP then its settled. Step by step. One step at a time, the song that reminds people of me and a motivational song for me. :D Ohwells, parent's just left for cellgroup. Didn't go cause its for adults. Alright ciao.

Never a proper hello nor a single goodbye.
xoxo,
Marilyn.

My day in perth

Today was another day in a car. Now a days I spend most of my time in the car, music plugged on, head phones blasting and the music turned up to mystic as the music plays and I tap my fingers to the melody. I've found another enjoyable thing to do. Lie my head gently against the head rest, blast the music and look up at the cloudy skies as you watch various shapes go by and imagination just run. Why am I spending time in a car? Cause we are still house hunting. :) Sometimes I bring tiger along or cookie monster. They keep me happy when I hug them as the memories come back to me with the friends whom gave me or bought it with. && Tamagotchi is a must as it beeps quite frequently. I dont want it to die, its one thing that keeps me busy.

Today when mammi and papa went out to the bank and check the housing agents offices out, before that I was asleep in the car. (Car rides are my rocking chair. Like how I used to get rocked in a rocking chair in the arms of Mercy, my care taker for 6 years or mammi.(: ) Anyways, I was too lazy to get out so I requested to stay in there to continue with my lazy afternoon nap but before my eyes could shut back down 1 Penrhos junior walked past and I exclaimed, " PENRHOS!" Before papa got out. He was like, " Dont need to shout!" Haha, :D Well, I checked her uniform out.. Guess the bag is a must eh. && Soon before she left me head, another girl but probably in middle school. Guess today they had to wear dresses. && Soon, another and another but they were all across the street. Then soon, these 2 girls with their moms walked past the car. My eyes trailed after them and I gasped. Ohwells, reality. (: Soon tamagotchi came beeping, then I played the game. Soon some guy opened the driver's car door, JUMPED IN. (He rocked the whole car! I got a fright!) Then I was shocked! && I said," EXCUSE ME!?" && he was like, "OH! So sorry! I thought this was my car! Oh my car is there on the other side and its white but it looks the same!" It left me air laughing. SO CUTE! When mammi and papa came back I told them and papa said,"What if it was a kidnapper!" Well, even if he was a robber he was too unlucky to pick this car! I dont think he is. (: That's my car ride diary today.

Missing speeches, missing love.
xoxo,
Marilyn.

PS. I need a camera quick!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTY!:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTY! :DStill my fiance. :) So my love. You are 15 and I really miss your, " HEY! That's mean!" Haha, :D I'm sorry I couldn't be there to wish you personally.. D: But well, thank God for internet right? :) Miss you loads girl and soon, really soon I am sure, YOU WILL SHOOT UP. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again Christy! ^^

PERTH

I am going to start writing in letter forms cause this is for those reading in shanghai, Adelaide, Sydney and Singapore. No one in Perth yet. Heehee, ohwells. Here it goes!

I am in PERTH and so far..
ITS NOT THAT BAD. Yesterday at the Changi airport to Perth, people saw me carrying Cookie monster and a huge tiger on my bag and even the head stewardess TALKED to cookie monster and coo-ed at it haha. I heard many people exclaim and point saying, " LOOK! ITS COOKIE MONSTER!" I am really blessed to have 2 great friends who gave me cookie monster. Nigel and Zhe Hui. :) BESTFRIENDS FOR LIFE. :D

Alright, now.. Just need to get a car, a house *Saw many prettaye ones, but still considering* Next week is my interview at 11 am. Going at 10.30 to get my papers and uniform done and tour around the school. Wish me God's blessing. && I would probably start school on the next day? Hopefully its not a bad nightmare like what I think it is. Well, I wish I had the camera here.. If only I didn't lose it. Cause seriously, there is many things I wanna catch on pictures cause its really a very pretty place. :D Its amazingly gorgeous but days before we came, it was dry and humid hot but now is cool and air-con like. Uncle Francis house is seriously gorgeous. && he is one nice kind guy who was my dad's BFF when he was a small boy around my age. He is a funny cheerful guy. He was the one who has been helping us in settling down and serious house hunting and car and places recommendation. Just touch down yesterday and I was dog tired. I pigged out very early last night.

Someone told me this,"Since you slash yourself last time, why dont you slash till the veins break!?" But one thing I want to say to that person, DONT BRING MY PAST UP. DONT YOU DARE DO THAT CAUSE YOU YOURSELF AREN'T THAT GREAT. You might think you are better than me. You might be but leave MY past alone like how you don't like your own past to be raked up. Whatever..Tamagotchi is seriously keeping me busy like a NANNY. Always poop and get sad and hungry so fast. If not, it would do nothing for a long period of time and think its alright and walk away, soon its SICK and SAD and HUNGRY and 5 poops in place. I'VE BEEN GONE ONLY AN HOUR! x.x Haha, :D Ohwells, no wonder mammi calls it a terror. Anyways, I had a dream last night, I dreamt I met WEIQI from phpps in perth halfway while she was out with her friends. Haha, :D && she ditched her friends to show me around perth. Well, SHE IS IN SINGAPORE! XD && In the afternoon, I had a short nap. I dreamt about YUNXIN in perth, staying with me && since we are both new, we tried to find our way around Perth asking people for directions and where is the nearest CINEMA. Alright got to go, back to house hunting for pops.

xoxo,
MARILYN.

2F changes.

I was considering to answer Nigel's questions for me on his blog on his tag board or my blog. && I've decided to do it here cause its not just for him but EVERYONE who is going to read the previous 2 post or READ the 2 posts but think that its not for you. GUESS WHAT, ITS FOR EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU IN 2F'08. Cause the class is becoming like this not cause of one person causing it, DONT YOU DARE PUSH THE BLAME. Cause EVERYONE plays a part in this. EVEN THOSE who blogged about 2F, even you. Cause WE ARE A CLASS, we go through together thick and thin. That was our unity remember? That was the common thing we share. But the thing now is that WE CAUSED THIS BULLSHIT and now, we aren't sharing the blame but pushing it around. Last time was different. It was someone getting into trouble and the whole class stands with him or her. BIG DIFFERENCE, DISGUSTING CONTRAST..

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&& Guess who just made my day. MORRIS. One sorry, I know it might be no big deal to some of you but to me, it created motivation and impact in me. :) Thanks for giving me false hope dude. :D

DONT SAY SORRY WHEN YOU DONT ACTUALLY MEAN IT.

2F please dont go.

2F in 2009.

We use to stand up for each other.
Like sisters and brothers.
When one gets into trouble,
We help burst the teacher's bubble.

When we were unhappy,
Our moods became crappy,
but we talked it out.
And walk away not with a pout.

We become bestfriends,
Until this year it all just end.
I miss 2 eff oh eight.
For it to come back, is it too late?

'Unity' the word leaves me wondering,
Does it even mean a thing?
Where was the blame we share,
Not caring whether was it fair.

2F is not just the past,
Friendships built aren't meant to rust.
Bonds built together as a class,
Is it just for a year to last?

Don't leave 2F like this.
Tossing the past, forgetting the bliss.
Do you even care or miss?
Some cry because its becoming like this..

2F oh' 2F,
In us, what is there left?
Hatred and anger,
no more loving tender.

Friends for life we swore,
Enemies is like it more.
Now is swearing and cursing,
No more jokes and laughing..

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2F.. Why are you tearing the class apart and each other up?):
What happened..

2F, GONE.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ALL OF YOU.
Childish behaviors. Insulting people here and there. Hating each other for petty reasons. Creating war because of love. Forming cliques like ARMY to fight THE WAR. 2F UNITY!? NOW I CAN THEREFORE SPIT AND VOMIT OUT BLOOD AT THE SOUND OF THAT. WHERE IS IT? So what if it was the past huh!? SO WHAT? Does it mean THE PRESENT means NOTHING!? THE present is this way because of THE PAST. If it means nothing to you now, that means you have been PRETENDING to be united in 2f. Dont be a jerk or a bitch. 2F'08 still means something in all of our hearts. I KNOW. But if ANYONE OF YOU who are doing all the stupid things of the above, I can laugh in your face and say you are lying. PROVE IT THEN! Aren't you guys suppose to GROW in UNITY and MATURE! You are not Benjamin Button cause that doesn't exist and you become CHILDISH by each day. SO WHAT IF YOU ARE IN 3F OR EXPRESS!? Means you can look down and laugh at those who are in 3G or 3H is it!? YOU THINK YOU BIG AH! ( I am only referring to those who are VERY proud that they are in there and actually insulted G and H) If you actually laugh at us, guess what, I am LAUGHING BACK AT YOU cause you say you miss 2F, nice acting! Liar. One way to be united is to LOVE ONE ANOTHER. NOT HATE. && If you want to insult someone on your blog, why dont you think of knowing the WHOLE story then talking to the person directly on how you feel! KNOW THE WHOLE STORY before you shoot your mouth. Why hide behind the com and scold like a mad dog? Unless you are scared that you are actually lying on your own blog. I would scold all of you if you guys would even COME TOGETHER. It would have happened if the UNITY was still HERE. I know most of you read my blog so here it is. SO HOW? When you all are actually tearing 2f'08 apart and not even want to hang out together anymore and worst still, saying it in one simple, plain, hurting phrase: 2f is the past. WE WHO TRULY MISS 2F CAUSE OUR CLASSES AREN'T AS UNITED AS 2F LAST TIME FEEL LIKE CRYING when you say such stuff. If you cant still be united in your class from last year to hang out together, to donate for outings, HOW can you do that to your class NOW? Do you not know how ungrateful you all are!? You get to go for 2f outings but I am not as privileged as you all ungrateful creeps!? You get your firefly trail and slippers under the stars as a proper goodbye to 2F in 2008 as a class. WHAT DO I GET? Just simple byes and feel the sting in saying bye back. YOU ALL AT LEAST STILL GET TO HAVE FUN WITH EVERYONE. && DONT RUB IT IN OUR FACES THAT WE AREN'T IN 3F or EXPRESS cause you know something, WE ARE GLAD WE AREN'T THERE. Cause we are contented wherever we are cause we are in various classes for a reason.. Probably one of the reason is to see whether you still have the same unity you have from last year still amongst you all even if we are all in different classes and yet at the same time have unity in our present classes.. What does winning the best class award mean to you now? Just an award? With cheepo rewards? IT MEANS MORE THAN THAT. It means we were like a HAPPY FAMILY. Not just a class anymore. For this unity to come back, it is not only for one person to change.. But EVERYONE to change too. Everyone. Everyone who was from 2f'08. Cause you guys.. I really do love and miss you all..

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2F..Please..Dont go..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY. and PENRHOS STINKS.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AL-EMPORIO!
My winner partner, my dudette. So the love.♥ You are like a solid 15 eh! Like a not bad! Haha, loved to have you around to talk to. You hear all my darkest and deepest worries and cries that you dont mind listening to and supporting me. You are the greatest, love. Here me scream and insult, hear me laugh and burp haha. We crack the weirdest jokes yet laugh at each other for laughing. We make a weird META but still the funniest! Haha, :D Love you loads! Misses, :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SITI ZAHIYA!
I got closer to you through the Fireworks chase right girl! You are one funny math partner last year. With Yingwen, that guy who refuses to HELP. Haha, XD You are great too! In every way. Love you loads, and misses! Happy 15th birthday! :D

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I have issues with the GREEN school uniform, I have issues with the strict rules AND I have ONE BIG ISSUE.. WHY DO YOU ASK STUDENTS TO BUY THE:
SAME UGLY GREENISH PENCIL BOX($ 4.30),
RUBBER BANDS(Band ‐Hard thin $2.40 & Lycra $5.00),
BATHING CAPS($ 3.00),
SUNSCREENS($ 4.20),
KNICKERS WHICH IS FREAKISHLY GREEN($5.00),
BAGS FOR SCHOOL(– Small $44.00, ‐ Medium $46.00, ‐ Large $56.00),
MUSIC($16.50),
HOMEWORK($ 7.70)
AND SPORTS($20.00, Sport – Large $30.00),
LAUNDRY MARKER($ 3.00)!? AND
DRINK BOTTLE(various) AND
ITS COVER($ 5.00)
AND WHY DO YOU EVEN SELL CARDS(‐ Single $11.00, ‐ Double $22.00)
AND RUGS(‐ Woollen $48.00, ‐ Mohair $68.00)!?

Tell me this is a big joke right? I dont have to buy all this right? Please say yes.. && If its a yes.. Please dont make me carry a green bag and pencil boxes.. ): Let me have my own stuff too please? Or are my eyes just laughing at me too.. Sigh.. Guess I HAVE to accept the fact. Well, on the bright side.. THEY HAVE DRESSES! :D Heehee, but not that nice but still, DRESS! :D

Pet zoo!

When I move to Perth, I am going to start bugging my mom for a doggy like how I did it when I was 3 years old to 6 years old, till I got Chelsea. This time, I want a big big furry dog. :D Maybe a Golden Retriever? Heehee, I actually plan to turn one room into a entertainment room which mammi and papa agreed, into a partial mini PET ZOO at the other half side of the room. (They dont know yet, but its my plan. They are bound to read my blog soon so.. MAMMI AND PAPA, Pet zoo okay!!:D) Heehee. Once I get my male puppy whom I plan to name Buddy, I wanna get 2 mini turtle which cant grow (is there such thing? o.o) And have a cute little female hamster whom I plan to name.. Tammy(?) and maybe the turtle can be JOEY. Heehee Nah, maybe.. if its a boy it shall be Bonyo and the girl it shall be Monyo. Or maybe the hamster can be Monyo and the turtle Bonyo and Zonyo. I dont know! Okay but whichever. Haha, :D Oh my, and probably get 6 guppies? Heehee and I can slowly name each of them maybe.. Momo, Bobo, Dodo, JoJo, Vovo, Yoyo. Haha, :D I'm seriously running out of ideas for their names heehee. (: Oh and maybe a KITTEN! I shall probably name the kitten Ponnop in remembrance of dear peeps. Heehee, :D Okay Kitten is the last animal I shall PLAN to get otherwise my mom will make me the OFFICIAL ZOO KEEPER and quit her alliance with me. :D

META and PONNOPITS. ♥

Overslept big time and today I have to pack. Went to Emporio's house yesterday with Amalina and met up with Emporio and Tricia. Played Wii as usual and OWNED! Emporio and I owns. (: Didn't take any pictures cause we dont have a proper camera. Oh wells, at least we managed to catch up with one another and spent loads of time together. (: Miss them loads. Guess H wasn't in after all. ): Now its META. (: Had many heart top heart talks yesterday and many masks revealed.What are friends for? To listen to your every word and not complain. (: && Ponnopits, yesterday was not the last day, it is just the first for this year! Heehee. :D You guys are all simply loved.
No pictures for today, digicam is lost. D:

♥Slippers off, sit back and watch the stars slowly fade with me tonight.

young photos

Guess what I've found.
Was looking through some albums. Cheeky as can be. Ever since young, probably born with it. Always that plain innocent look as a decoy haha. While that cheeky hyper insanity is dying to burst forth, && Pocky, was always simply loved by me. (:

This was probably taken years ago while I was still that little. Like half my height now? Probably p2. That was then I didn't know my life would be so different now but yet filled with so much bliss and happiness. Cause I'm always being blessed. (:

another day.

this is the ### number of times I have fallen asleep during family devotion. I think I'm backsliding again. && This time its not cause of my stupidity to attempt stupid things but, this time the boulder that is blocking me; is myself.

School today was a gush of wind of laughter. It has always been. :) But I missed my counseling session though. I forgot the time. :x Didn't look at the clock till the period was over. Anyways, went to Jarret's house after school and wii-ed with Ethan, James, Loysius, Jarret, Rachel and Chien. :) Played Guitar Heroes and totally owned them. Heeeheee! Cause the girls simply rule eh! Haha, :D We have good team work. Then went to KAP with Loysius, Jarret and Rachel for dinner.

Mammi says I look haggard and old. ): I'm so going to sleep till my heart's content. d: Hope I won't oversleep though. Pictures of Emporio and more with me are all in her blog. I love to just place my earphones nicely over my ears, block out the noises in the world, watch people mouth their words and allowing myself to let my thoughts run free and music blasting at their tops as my background. Sometimes I would smile at times I call back from my brain's records filled with happiness and sometimes turn away when unhappy happenings slip through and placed on replay in my head. Some people just dont understand why I do that, cause they just think I'm slowly killing myself. But rest assured, I treasure my life more than I use to last time. I'm just not treasuring what are actually called privileges to other people when to me its just plain misery. Finding happiness in misery.

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cause at night when the star shines bright, I'm reaching for cm more than j to watch me smile in my dreams.
&& Why won't you just ignore me like the way I'm trying to.

CM & J

2 worlds apart, 2 love that draws. Complications.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLORIA. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLORIA! :D
14 already, my friend. My sister in Christ. (: Been friends since YOU were born heehee and played crazy games till this day. Just went to Mind's cafe with you. Last time was Runescape and Gunbound on com at home and when we were even younger, was catching, crocodile crocodile, what's the time mr wolf, Hide and seek and so much more. Time passed so fast! (: Happy birthday girl haha, the one who never fails to make me laugh my ass off in church. Especially during SERMON. XD Heehee, love you loads. Hope you love your present haha, :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D

I just want to run away.

FIRST DAY!

Caught up with 2F'08. The class I don't understand nor be able to read like a book no more. Its more complicated. What happened? Unity fell. Now I understand why the person who guided 2F the most and drove us forward feels a heartbreak now. Now, I understand. Cause WE have all changed. Some for the better, some for the worst. Bestfriends in 2008. Passive Friends in 2009. WHAT HAPPENED. You were my close friend, knew everything and anything about each other under the sun. But when the rain comes, you JOIN a clique. && Become a hi-bye friend. THANKS DUDE. THANKS FOR ALL THAT. Cause as we sit on bus rides, we realize and see the change. We then know how scary 2F has changed.

Caught up with Emporio loads today. Love you dudette. :) Wii date ah! SET. ^^ && Without fail, you would do anything and everything to make me happy. Thanks love. ^^

&& Guess what, I have a date tomorrow. ^^ Check it out!
MARILYN. says:
Will you be my valentine? (F)
<3RACHELL! ;* oh bloody ass migraine; says:
oh
MARILYN. says:
heehee :$
<3RACHELL! ;* oh bloody ass migraine; says:
OH YES I WILL! :D
<3RACHELL! ;* oh bloody ass migraine; says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA
MARILYN. says:
hahahah XD YAY!!
<3RACHELL! ;* oh bloody ass migraine; says:
LOL.
<3RACHELL! ;* oh bloody ass migraine; says:
I WANT A REAL ONE TMR!(:
<3RACHELL! ;* oh bloody ass migraine; says:
no lah,
<3RACHELL! ;* oh bloody ass migraine; says:
jk.

You would probably go: yeah yeah marilyn. WHATEVER XD
Heehee, (:

Will upload pics soon.

home.

Just reached Singapore, back to the place, the country, the home that I don't seem to recognize anymore.. Back to this place, where for sure, I know I was born at. Singapore.

Left Shanghai, left the place where I was exposed to new people, new characters, new friends and new adventures. Left the place where I THOUGHT was going to be my home for at least 3 years. Home. What is home.

Going to Perth, a place I have been before. Home? My heart tells me yes now. But I have never met my home. Never met any friends there. Not yet at least. The last time I've been there.. Months old? That was AGES ago. For dears sake I am going to be 15 already. && I ask myself again, home? My heart says yes already, my body just falls and tear apart & I start crying.

What is home? I don't even have a clue about it, therefore I went to google definitions for it. "Home" The word I once understood so well ever since I knew ENGLISH. && The word I learnt together with, "family". && here is what I've found:

-Noun:

~	a house, apartment, or other shelter that is the usual residence of a person, family, or household.

~ the place in which one's domestic affections are centered.

~ A dwelling place together with the family or social unit that occupies it; a household.
~The place, such as a country or town, where one was born or has lived for a long period.

Where is home? I ask again. && There is still no definite answer. Thanks google. THANKS THIS MUCH. God, guide me Lord. Please, I need your guidance Daddy, hold my hand and carry me through this spinning world that don't belong to me. As I reach out to you Lord, please pick me up and take the lead.. Cause I really need you.

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I know, I understand.
I was born in Singapore, studied here and learnt my foundations. I AM A SINGAPORE GIRL. That's who I am and I am proud of it. Cause I do love Singapore. It IS my HOME. Where most of my memories are so far. && Where I have friends, who are more than friends. They are more like siblings to me. So dearly loved.


I studied half of my s3 in Shanghai. Made great friends too, it was my TEMPORARY home which I didn't expect to demolish oh too soon. It still create a meadow of love for me. It WAS HOME.





I am going to Perth, where I barely know and remember nothing. Absolutely nothing. But it is going to be my HOME real soon. Too soon. My heart is just leading me there, preparing me and making me understand that it is going to be MY HOME. Where I will go on to High School then University. That is where I am going to be, Australia.

Beyond that, my future, my career, God is leading me step by step as I learn during each step I take. But where I want my home to be is truly heaven. Eternity as promised. Tenderly loved, I must slip no more. But continue my race of life and pick myself up quickly after each fall.

HOME.

"Everything and everybody needs love."

kaka & koko KUKU. <3

For short, in a collage. :D Last day the kukus will hang out together in February. I love my kaka kuku. ALWAYS, :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAYS!

Here are all my belated blog wishing birthdays! :x So sorry, could not find the time this month to post birthday wishes..

[9th February.]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY! :D
(omg, I don't have a pic with you! :o)
I don't really know you well. D: But well, I still miss you and your excitement over my squeaky voice. LOL, XD Haha, it's great knowing you even through that short period of time, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMYYELLOW! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MACY! :DMy babe always, was really close to you at first but soon we learnt to be independent. :D Haha, all the best for your studies yeah? :) && You are always my crazy babe. ^^ HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEACH BABE! XD

[8th February.]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEREMY KOH! :D
(NO PIC! :o When phpps meets again, better take! XD)
Haha, I remember in pri school always play maple with you. Heehee, well happy birthday dude. :D All the best for your studies! :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D

[7th February.]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHIM! :D
Happy Birthday Bi, :) Hope you enjoyed your birthday yeah? Finally a 14 HOHO! XD Hope you will settle well into aussie real soon! :D Hee, alright you xiao pian zi, LOADS of misses! :D LOVE! ^^
[6th February.]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEENAZ! :DI got closer to you through crazy ms shamsiah class and the NDP fireworks chase. Loads of laughter eh! XD Heehee miss you loads! && Hope to get closer to you this few days I am back in Singapore alright? HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEENAZ! :D

[2nd February.]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YVONNE! :D
(Barely know you.. Picture one day? XD)
Okay.. I barely know you.. We just smile and nod when we meet and say hi and bye. LOLS, :D Seriously need to talk to you again huh. :D All the best for your studies in sec 3! :D

[31st January.]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAUFIQ! :D
(Picture one day? XD)
Heys! :D I did talk to you loads last time for a short period of time. Haha, :D Well, Happy belated! :D Hope to catch up with you soon yeah? :D

[29th January.]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINE! :D
(When we meet again, pictures shall be snapped. :D)
Heys, :D Hope you are still growing strong in Christ.:) Loads of misses! Hope to catch up with you soon yeah? :D Hee. HAPPY BELATED!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANDACE! :D
(No pictures..D:)
Hope you are doing well and all is fine. :) All the best in your occupation now. :) && Loads of misses! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARISSA! :D
(We must really take one soon! :D)
YOU!! :D Haha, :D You were once my Sunday school teacher! Wow, goodness so long ago! d: Heehee anyways, all the best for your studies! && Happy birthday once again! Hope to catch up soon. READY FOR SOME GAMES!? XD

[23rd January.]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEVRON! :D
(We shall take one soon alright? :D)
Heys! :D Hope you are enjoying drama so far! :D I don't know you well though.. Hope to catch up soon alright? :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D

[21st January.]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYIKIN! :DSYIKIN! :D Haha, Happy birthday! :D Hope you are doing well in your studies in sec3! ^^ Haha, loads of misses, HUGS! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PIXIE! :D
(picture!! :D)
HEYS! :D Alright, crazy and wild. SO LOVED! Haha, well loads of misses to you from me! Hope to go crazy yet again hahaha! :D

[18th January.]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERILYN! :D
(During Drama breaks probably? :))
Happy birthday! :D Haha, you are one great DJMAX player yo! Totally screwed me hahaha! :D Anyways, jiayous for your studies! ^^ All the best! :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

[13th January.]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINQIAN! :D
(We should take one when we have family reunions alright? :D)
Hey little couz, :) Miss talking to you on msn haha, :D Always asking me to help you with your pro chinese translation to english and sometimes we play games together online haha, :D All the best for this new year and HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIEN! :D
(Barely know you.. Picture one day? XD)
Okay, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D Haha, all the best for your career yeah? :)

[10th January.]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAI! :D
(When we probably meet in perth. LOL :D)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D Thanks for being a great bible study teacher and guiding us youths on the right way of walk with God. :) Thankyou! ^^

[2nd January.]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIANA! :D
(In school one day yeah! :D)
HEYS! :D Happy Birthday! Haha, well I don't really talk much with you but I do hope we get to catch up soon yeah? MISSES. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI CHENG! :D
(Where is our christmas pic? o.o I can't find it. x.x)
Well, Happy birthday! Haha, :D Jiayous on your studies, class blog management and the poetry things. ^^ All the best, see you soon! :D

*Some I didn't wish cause I have wished before in a single post on the day itself. :)

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Okay I am done with the belated'. Now are the IN ADVANCE cause I won't be able to use the com for a few days as I am gonna be flying off to Singapore again and packing of more stuff for Perth. OKAY here it goes! :D

[11th February.]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAIQAL! :D
(One pic? XD)
Okay I barely know you too.. LOLS, :D But we do pass smiles when we walk past each other lols, :D But anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAIQAL! :D

[16th February.]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLORIA!! :D
(I know I have some pics with you bu where!? :o Oh man.. MUST TAKE MORE! :D)
Goodness, I grew up with you! I spent.. 14 years of my entire life knowing you! HAHA we probably licked each other's fingers! WAHAHAHA XD Anyways, I miss those little times where we will go running around the church compound, meeting parrot man and talking to Mr Parrot. && After Sunday school we would all play games like crocodile crocodile or hide and seek or remember we use to stand in one row with Zelia, Philana, Sara and Charissa(?) infront of cars and easily get amazed at how stubby and short we look on the car's reflection! HAHA! :D && We would share saga seeds that we picked and sharing dry cereal! Wow, we've come a long way girl. Wanna go out one day again and probably beat Charissa and Sara to all the games in the game cafe again? XD Wahahaha well, we can't blame ourselves for being such good gamers. Heehee, :D Loads of loves! && See you soon, MISSES! :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

THOSE AFTER, I am sure I can post it! ^^

Cheer up Jul.

JULIAN,

i miss seeing you smile. a true DLB smile.

7th & 8th Feb

Have not been updating the past few days. :)
Went to sleepover at Anna's on Friday night after MY LAST cell group in Shanghai.. T^T I am seriously gonna miss SYS. Went out on Saurday, bought a few stuff and helped Anna SERIOUSLY BARGAIN till the point one %&^* girl GLARED at me. && ITS NOT EVEN HER SHOP. == Hello? This is CHEENA and this is an UNDERGROUND shop I can SO BARGAIN here. d: Heehee, whatever. :x I learnt my bargaining skills from my daddy. ^^b Heehee, such a pro. He taught me how to bargain down to 20% and 20% that is, that's what we pay! :D Hey, they still earn okay! d: But sometimes I do feel bad.. ): They could have gotten like 80% from the original price and I am only paying them 20%. :x

Anyways, today went to church. :) Went to have lunch with Aunt Johnson and Aunt Rebecca and later that night went to Aunt Reb's house to have dinner with Aunt Johnson again and Aunt Magie and her family. :) I love Aunt Reb's doggy, she's called PECAN. I think. o.o But she is a mix between a Lab and Golden Retriever. && Awesomely quiet and cute! ^^ && I have OFFICIALLY just finished packing for 3 destinations. Do you not know how tiring that is. ONE to Pudong hotel. TWO to Singapore. THREE, boxes to PERTH. Tiring.. z.z

Anyways.. I have lost my camera.. Therefore lost my last picture with Anna.. T^T AAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNAAAAAA!!! D: I only got one pic with you in cell and the LAST pic we could ever have was beautiful, yet lost.. ); Sigh.

This post i gonna be so long.. well, I AM MEETING KAKA KUKU LATER! :D Yay!! I miss her loads canzxs! ;x STARBUCKS STARBUCKS STARBUCKS! Heehee, :D

&& Melissa just dumped me for being her VALENTINE! T^T Lols, :D Well, she has Norman. d: Lucky girl, hahaha, :D

Thank God for my sisters, I love them.♥

Tags replies:

qingying!: Heys, :D
vanessa: Hello, Thanks! :)
JOEY!: Heehee, we share that blame haha, :D
Stacie: Wanna meet up soon? :) I am currently in Shanghai but I am returning to Singapore soon. :)
JOEY!: Sure, will do it later! :)
ms i-love-to-chew-gum-: Who are you..? Hey.
Amanda: Hahaha, :D I AM READY!!! XD
Dickhead: What makes you say that? :)
rachelYEO:DD: lols, :D I KNOWWW!! XD
JOEY!: I suppose that, that person is one of my "friends". I am kinda disappointed in that "friend" though cause he/she is being a coward to reveal his/her name.

Joey's quiz.

1.Who's the person who tagged you?
-Joey.

2.Relationship between you and him/her?
- Meimei. :)

3. 5 impresions of him/her?
1. siao siao XD
2.xiao hai zi. :x
3.good friend. :D
4.Will do crazy things with me. Heehee, :D
5.Just, JOEY.

4.If he/she become your enemy you will?
- Never gonna happen.

5.what will you say to the person you like very much?
- I FRIGGING MISS YOU. T^T

6.A characteristic i like about myself?
- Just, me.

7.A characteristic i hate about myself?
- I don't hate myself.

8.For the person whom u hate, u say?
- Hi?

9.What do u feel abt urself?
- Just MARILYN. :D

10.Your crush?
- Not a crush no more. :)

11.Most ideal person u wanna be?
- Me?

Pass this one to 10 ppl:
1. Chein Yee
2. Rachel Yeo
3. Sarah Ng
4. Nigel
5. Oleander
6. Zhe Hui
7. Jun Yuan
8. Amalina
9. Jing yi
10. Anna

13.If 5 and 7 were together?
- LIKE A OMG.

14.who does 5 like?
- Godknowswho. ^^

15.what colour does 9 like?
- skyblue!

16.Say smth to 8.
- SEX BOMB SEX BOMB!

17.Who is 2?
~ jiejie! :D

18.Talk abt 3.
- SARAH! Just, SIAO. XD

19.Who is 10's best friend?
- Brenna. o.o

20.whose the sexiest among the 10?
- That's easy, NIGEL! XD No lah, all. ^^

21 . What colour does 4 like?
- RED.

22.Is 4 Single?
- uh-huh.

23. Your relationship with 1?
- BINGBING! ^^

24. Are 5 & 6 best friends?
Bestfriends!? Probably. :D

25. 9's nickname
-Laogong; silly; prince; superman.

26. 7's surname?
- HUANG. *yellow ywllow dirty fellow. :x* Heehee, JOKINGGGG x.x

27. say smth to 4.
- N.LO, YO.

28. say smth to help 10.
- I frigging miss you. D:

29. who does 1 admire?
- Her reflection? o.o I don't know... ):

30 . Where does 1 live?
- HOLLAND.

31. among 10 of them who u like?
- ALL?

32 . Say smth to 6 when u see him/her?
- Wanna skip!!? ^^

33. 10's spouse ?
- Hello? I don't think she wants to be married YET.

Fireworks at Anna's

Okay, I do feel bad about the last post. Well, for Joey heehee. Have to be a bitch.. Well, I am kinda PULLED in too, without consent, == but whatever. d:

This few days till I return to Singapore again, it's still MY holiday. :x Luke says he wanted my life, I told him I rather have his. Cause he gets to go school and at least meet and scream with friends! Visited Anna and her family earlier on, had dinner with them. Thanks Auntie for Dinner, Thanks Uncle for the crazy loud FIREWORKS. Thanks Anna for listening to my every emotion. Hello? This is CHEENA, you get to buy fireworks here, WITHOUT LICENSE and set it off in your back yard, in your toilet, in your room whatsoever, just be careful, DON'T DIE. Best, in the back yard. :D He set off 2 boxes and it was insanely screaming as it shoots out and it burst together with a loud clap. Pretty, yet scary.

It brought back flashbacks of Singapore National Day in 2008 when Nigel, Sykin, Sheenaz, Charminn, Jun Yuan, Siti & Her sister, Zhe Hui and me; (I think thats about it. Sorry if I've missed out anyone.) chased after fireworks, skipped, ran, sweat, screamed, camwhored. I don't think it was the fireworks that made it special, but it made it significant. What made it special were the people there that changes everything. The bond we all shared that night, loved. && The things we've done together, its a sweet memory, not a nightmare. When will we all do that again? I don't know.. I hope I'll be back this Singapore NDP celebration to run like mad dogs down town again. :) But, are you all game? :D

Will upload pictures soon. :)

REDNAELO

Why dont you try, "I want to hug you so badly now!!!" Go ahead, take the first step, JIAYOUS!:D Yay! Let's all clap for you! *clap clap clap* :) Such a dear isn't she? :) I know. ^^ Coming to spy on my blog? Go ahead, get all the info you want on how happy I am and actually don't bother about your BABY BOY. Sad eh? Me not blogging about him. I KNOWW!! But instead, you? *Honored!* I know, such a pleasant feeling right! :D You don't have to act all nice and sweet little princess when we are with you and you turn around feeling like you need to vomit. You act all angel, good show! Join Drama dear, it suits you! They can put you in a good role! :D You will be awarded! :) I know.. jealousy ruins.. ): Sad huh.. But don't be selfish, let's share our dear friend yes? :D I would love to! Sharing is caring, you do care for me. I KNOW! :D Heehee, you don't have to hide it love. :D Oh yes, Joey, I want to share my dear friend with you too! XD Come, lets all HUG HUG!! ^^ *HUGSSSS* oh wait! Let's all hold hands too! ^^ YAY!! I know, she's lovely isn't she? So cute! But why does she turns away after a small tight smile to us and shows a *whatever* look? OMG, She can't believe she isn't like us right Joey! Heehee, such a dear, she should hang out with us more often yes? :) Hey hey, don't fight, you've shown her a bad face, don't ask with a reluctance for her to go out!! Cause I am sure she can still survive without you. :)

"Such a dear isn't she?:D I KNOW!! ^^"
lurbs worzxs! :D

Met Julian DLB on 2nd Feb 2009.

Did not go to school again. Cause I felt it was pointless. :x
Well, had some crazy stuff going on. Just can't believe some people would neglect their friendships for their own personal reasons.. Selfish? Probably. Being too nice? Goodness, Arn't I being too naive. -.-'" Alright, earlier this evening Amanda and May came to visit. :) Took pictures with Amanda. :D Then after that, went to visit DLB. ^^ Thanks Jul once again. A million of thanks! :D And some pics from sunday, when I went out after church to meet Sarah and YunXin. :) Picture's story.




Thanks Sarah for the Pics on top! :D