Love shadows of the broken path.

2 years, 3 months...

Back to square one,

I wished things could have been different, things I didn't do, things I didn't have the courage to say then to have been said, to tell you I really meant it...

These 2 years 10 months, we've been on a roller coaster ride... Tears that should have not been, screaming that weren't meant to be.

From loving to just simple wishing for just 5 minutes with you to talk things out. To fix that cruel broken path we each went down.

The shadow of the heart.

This is the only situation I've questioned myself so many whys that I can never answer. From smiles to a last long tight hug, then unto hoping which was then crushed like a piano thrown from Mt Everest. Heavy, black and white, many keys yet to be played, to be lay out, filled with so many dreams and wishful thinking. All comes crushing down...

I got the chance again, but being me, I screwed it up. How many sorry-s can I say? How many am I allowed to say? How do I even say it?

Why can't I just close my eyes and wake up.

Why can't it all be.

why.

Just rolling down this mountain of memories, dead hopes, tears and yet laughter we shared.

Praying for one more chance, hoping, desperation.

I keep telling myself, it's time. It's time. But it's not in my time. It's in Daddy God's. He knew I wasn't ready... But right now, I really feel like I've passed the stage of just a simple apology, I owe more than that...

Lead me to where you are, just one more...

Please just one more.

I believe its all part of a grander plan. I'm on my way, on my way home.

I love Singapore.

NATALIA.
My Twin, my best friend, my sweets. The Bestest friend of all you can have. All the crazy times, all the cam-whor-ing and all the screamings and laughter will NEVER be forgotten. Remember our FUTURE plan! Its possible if we work hard and strive for it. You never fail to cheer me up and bring my smile back when ever i am down and sorrowful. You are my God-sent friend whom I know i can count on and lean on. Words between us are never held back. We tell our lives to each other. You are my kindergarten wish come through. iloveyou; bestest

YUN XIN.
My Jie, my friend and my crazy biatch. I will never forget the day we played the fainting game on 26th May 2oo8 @ my house in my KAP room with my beloved doggy sitting on my bed watching all the crazy happenings. All Sunny days spent with you always ends with a smile on my face. Another one who never fails to bring every crazy laughter out of me. thankyou; jie. LOVES.

AMALINA.
This sex bomb, my sexaye, my sexybutt is someone whom I love! She makes me go crazy and wild. Late night calls and staying up together. Sharing our favorite songs is one which we are in love with. Though mishaps have happened before we fail not to patch things back. [: I am your funfair, You are my cotton candy. I will definetly not forget the first day of school. That was when all the joy and fun started. I Love you babe. This sexaye babe is loved by me![:

AL-EMPORIO.
Sec 2 Adventure Camp spent with you are madness! The kayaking was the most memorial! This sexaye here is loved by me too! Never fail to pop over to the provision shop opposite school to get sweets, chocolates, Chips and gummys & going high together after that. Crazy is she but insanity are we![: You were the one to hear my cries. You were the one to make me smile. You were the one who hugged me whenever i needed one.I love you bestfriend. :)

HILARY.
These lovely girl is missed! Never forgetting the times we were bitching about you-know-who. Well we knew it was wrong but well we cant help it cause its just so funny. The many hugs I miss giving back to you. The Million hugs you have given me are all treasured deep down here. [:

JUNYUAN.
One crazy korkor![: Dont be sooooo emo can! Always ready to listen to my troubles. Thank you for always offering the lift home but its ok. [: Sorry for always turning you down cause its really ok. [: LOOOOOLLLLLLLAAAAAAAA!!!!! ( I wont forget screaming that everytime you come online ever again!!) :D

ALVIN.
My one and only didi whom I really dot on![: Must grow up too! Cant wait for you to become mature hahax. Gonna miss you and all your needs in your love life hahax. JIA YOU JIA YOU![:

RACHEL YEO.
My Jie, the one who knows me best & never fail to put a smile on my face! Remember our craving to push each other into the pool! Hahax. I will really miss you loads my dear jie. Cam-whor-ing is something that is not that often but we know we want to go crazy with the cam! Thank you for always being there for me when I cried. Thank you for bitching about notevenworthadung too![: Miss & Love you loads my dear Jie. [:

CHIEN YEE.
My Er Gu? Opps always getting mixed up with you being the da gu or er gu. Hahax. This K box Princess and Para Para Queen. Hahax. Miss you loads! Will miss your "rapes" and counter attacks hahax. Hugs![:

BENG KOON.
My Korkor! Without fail whenever I come online, the first scream and cry comes from you calling me![: Life got pretty interesting after I knew you! Hahax. Thank you for always being there for me when I needed you. You are always a beep away! We share life's woes and pains together but not only that all the joy and laughter too! You are one korkor whom I really look up to. Korkor, thank you for always caring for me and asking how am I and understanding me so much to the extend that you know whenever i am sad or down. Thank you for always making sure I reach home safely & putting on a strong front for me even when you are sad and down. thank you so much my dearest korkor. [:

ENGJIE.
Thank you korkor for helping me so much in maple & helping me whenever someone ks me! >< JEREMY. (MC) hello Casanova! You & your love life is madness man! Hahax Remember no matter what stand strong even if you get rejected a million times cause its not importent now. You still got about 10 more years to date! Hahax so dont go around giving out free cash! I really wonder why you want to be a REAL Casanova next time. Hahax But please do study hard and leave all these behind foe a little while alright? [: DIYANAH. My High-5 Maniac! These Crazy girl who goes seriously high like a powered up rocket! We make class lively and crazy dont we? Hahax.Love you loads you spongebob![: From loads of love, Patrick Starfish! Hahax. [: GLORIA. I will never forget my times with you especially since when we were born just that i waved hello to the world one year before you did. Hahax but its okay. Remember last time during church camps we would sit down together at the couch somewhere cause we were still too young to play those violent games and slowly crunch on our cereal in my taper ware like honey stars! We would even get a badge from your dad if we took our afternoon naps. Hahax good ol' times. As we slowly grew we had great times standing in front of those cars in the old church with the parrot guy living behind and staring at our short stump reflections and go really crazy? Oh and that was the place where we really picked loads of Angsana Seeds! Will miss all the crazy fun & enjoyable times with you especially with 13 years of friendship![: ADELA. You crazy laughing girl![: Hahax. Obi obi is loved![: Gummy sweets are deeply loved by us! Hahax. Crazy ideas in your head just go popping by. Loves! SARA. Sara! I wont forget that time we went settlers with Winnie![: It was really fun! Thanks for always sharing with me happy times![: Loves. Mind's Cafe is filled with our happiness we shared the last meeting. Make sure we go there again as Gloria and I gang up against you again! :D Haha. JEVON. JEEEEEVVVVVOOOOONNNN!!! :D Thanks for always teaching me my math! Hahax. Always reminding me of my formulas. And you! OBI OBI obsess! Hahax. YADA! Mua hahaha next time when I play obi obi & I sit beside you I must always remember to wear atleast 5 layers of pants! Hahax! The poor boy always kana whack by Adela. But who cares! Whose idea was it EVERYTIME to play obi obi? Hahax!:D LOYSIUS. My Papa, My friend. Always feel talking to you on msn & ofcourse real life. You can get pretty horny boy! hahax. That's my papa!:D CLARISSE. Hahax My first friend in our condo! Hahax. You crazy pa girl. hahax. Miss those crazy times together when we kinda go against Winnie heehee. :D DELIA. My Drama Senior whom I Kinda followed your footsteps! hahax. What to do when we dont really fancy GB? Hahax. Well Drama is loved and all the fun and laughter just comes in as a package![: Macs is famous already. THANKS TO US! :D ABRAM. Thanks for showing that you cared after i have negected you this year papa.SORRY ><

JIA MAN. Thank you for being such a wonderful cousin. :)

JIA HAO. Thank you for saving me out of troubles :x haha!

JUN JIE (MC).
FOOT JUICE SOCK TAP!

WINNIE.
Take care alright? Dont get into deep trouble again. You are not suppose to repeat your mistakes. You are suppose to correct them! :) Love!

SERENA.
Thanks for all the fun and crazy time! I actually hope we could get to know each other better!

THEON.
You are one that can see through my intentions. That is rare! Thanks for being there for me when I was sad and down. Your alvin and the Chipmunk's voice really make me laugh! :D Thank you for being such a wonderful kor.

EVANGELINE.
Thanks for all the fun times we had even outside GB. You made melaugh you made me crazy, you made me happy!

JOEY.
After all those days of hurts and anger, you made me stronger. :) I love you too. I hope our friendshipcan be build back up to that stage again. :D Missed!

STACIE.
I wished you could have come yesterday! I really miss you little sis. I first little sis. I first bestfriend. :) Loves.

YING WEN.
YOU!! Haha! I will never forget all the crazy happy times in math class with you around! Haha! :D

ZHE HUI.
The Best hug given to me by you! I love the cookie monster to the max! I miss those skipping times. Those laughing non stop cause of joy filled in us. My clown, my close friend, my smily sticker to make me smile again. I want to skip again like nobody cares cause that is when we are totally ourselves. :D I miss you loads!

NIGEL.
You! Haha! Crazy and funny alright! I love cookie monster! And its not only eating my cookies, its chewing my hair too! Haha! :D Thank you for all those times you made me go crazy. Thank you for those happiness you filled me with. My close friend, my crazy friend. MISSES!

Ms CAI. Thank you Miss Cai! For guiding me. For caring. For loving me. Thank you for everything you have done. THANK YOU THANK YOU!

FAIRFIELD DRAMA.
You guys make me feel like I am myself again. You guys make me smile. You guys made a big impact on me. You guys make me crazy. Together, we have done the craziest thing anyone or any team can do together. Together, you make me whole. Its the feeling of being a family fills me when I am with you guys. I love you guys!

PHPPS AVA.
You gave methis special gift. And that gift is to lead and persevere on during troubles and problems. You guys taught me that I cannot strive alone. Cause friends are there to oush you along as you strive. :)

Ms KAVITHA.
Thank you for putting me in AVA. Thank you for all those happiness and crazy times you filled my life with. You are my sunshine! :D

Mdm POON.
Mdm Poon, Snow Black! You were the one who made me smile from p1 all the way to p6. You and your bubbly-ness. Thank you mdm Poon.

Mr LOH.
I know you love those Brownies! Haha! :D

Mrs CHEE.
You were the teacher who made me grow. Though I did not really like you, you made me learn the hard way that life isn't that easy. Thank you Mrs Chee.

LIN LAO SHI.
The teacher that gave a an opening window to chinese again. :) Thank you Lin Lao Shi!

MINDCHAMPS.
Those happy people I meet session after session. You changed my life. Like what Brad and Tucky said, you guys really changed my life FOREVER! :D

BTPC YOUTH.
We grew together, we laughed together, we screamed together, we cry together. Memories are held strong to each of our hearts. We grow in Christ meetings after meetings. Thank you for showing me the godly way to walk. I love you.