When walls come crumbling down.

So I was in History class. We were learning about the Russian History. We came all the way down to the last official Tsar of Rome & that is, Tsar Nicholas II. During his reign, WW1 broke out. It then occur to me, if the simple sin of this world can break Daddy's heart, what about people killing each other without knowing what they're doing and just following orders for selfish gain? If I was a mum of lets say 10 kids, they divide into 2 groups, start killing each other, I'd be lying in bed crying non stop until I'd probably go blind. But to think of Daddy's love for His people were far greater, imagine how much pain that was, hearing His other kids crying for justice, hearing the mourns of lost ones, another scheming for selfish gain & others just plain lost & going down the wrong path. I questioned,"How was heaven like then? How was God feeling?" All I know is that, its the pain of carrying the world's sins along with the hurts of a loving Father (who loves His children so so much) upon Himself as we continue to mock like fools at the one who loves us.

such love.

my weekend of varietynight and high tea for habitat.

tinkerbell.

baked Friand & made chocolate mousse for High tea for Habitat.

Like the sand on the beach, waves wash and drags away.

Barely half way through the week, so much have been done, so much more to do!

Yesterday, my "love" band around my bottle broke. You might be reading this, don't really mind. You gave it to me, as a gift. I remembered that day, I looked at it once you handed it to me, I thought, "We're infinite. Dancing among the stars, you are it." My first serious relationship. They don't lie when they say that the first serious relationship you get, you give all you've got. The day before it broke, I looked at it, asking myself if I should take it off. I was reluctant. I won't lie that there's still a bit of me that remains back down that path somewhere. But I know, when it broke, it did fling me back to vulnerability. Like a child without her blankie for comfort. That was it, I knew I had to finally let go fully and grow. Don't get me wrong, I did move on.. Just a few months ago. But removing it from my thoughts... is just as hard as me deleting this blog. I refused to forget what was promised, I didn't want to look away from frozen memories: photos, notes. The prayer I would pray to MAYBE fully let go then go back to God and say, wait, nevermind. But He knew, my heart had to be set right again.

But today, I'm gonna go, never returning & be free.

Daddy, thankyou.

Paths that we've walked on.

the time is coming &,

Soon it unfolds

who we are in this

masquerade of stars,

tear off the mask,

the face you hide

is what I'm missing.

We made plans to

kiss the sun at night,

hopeless dreamers,

hopeless types.

I'm gonna miss penrhos.

So I decided to go simple with my blog. ☺

Mummy's birthday

tinkerbell misses peterpan :)

Variety Night is coming really soon.

Just a few more weeks now and everything will be done.

We're always learning.

Someone once told me, "爱是痛苦的，但被人爱是幸福" meaning,

"love is painful but to be loved is bliss." (relationship context)

We all have a secret about love.

Being a boy, being a girl,

we've never truly understood until we learnt about Daddy's love for the church.

That, is then true love. That, is how we should love.

Sounding so up myself.

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So much to do..

So many information to memorise, to learn, to understand.

Assignments...

Don't get me started on exams.

It's in 5 weeks time and honestly, I'm not prepared.

What am I talking about... :\ I'm not myself clearly,

for the first time, I forgot what I was going to pray about.

You call it stress, I call it "byebye fingernails."

It's just my bad habit when I'm overloading.

I know I'm too hard on myself,

just cause I hate procrastinating, its a must to finish everything way before,

My mind tells itself that,

but it doesn't care.

My mind's not listening to my heart.

Another internal conflict but for the first time, for my education.

& the madness begins.

Back to school,

8 weeks till bye penrhos.

7 weeks till work experience

6 weeks till exam,

and papa's bday

5 weeks till exam mood

4 weeks till Jap student

3 weeks till Youth ambassador meet.

2 weeks till tinkerbell.

1 week till mommy's bday.

and all assignments due.

had my catch up sleep today... I have a tinge of regret for doing so... Not enough time!

I'm a little mess.

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the day I got used to singlehood. (:

It's finally happening for me.

Daddy, it hurts to witness.

There is a love that I know

A strength for the weak and the broken heart

My Shepherd and King

I find You within me

For you are here

You carried the cross for the world

Gathered the lost and the fatherless

My Shepherd and King

I find You within me

For You are here

My Lord, forever, You are here

In this place, You are here

By Your mercy, I draw near

In my heart, take Your place

You are here

Your word is the light of the earth

Your glory resounds in the universe

My Shepherd and King

I find You within me

For You are here

My Lord, forever, You are here

The same power that conquered the grave

Lives in me, lives in me

Your love that rescued the earth

Lives in me, lives in me

You are here

I admit, I've a fear to lose loved ones..

A father's love.

"孩子不孝顺，是我的错"

A father's love for his children,

forgives each and every one of them before they realise their mistakes.

Tries everything to reunite,

but hatred holds strong.

No shame,

no remorse,

no sadness,

stop turning away.

The act of evil,

the act of selfishness,

who controls?

man, thinking the world is in his hands.

Daddy holds this world,

in the palm of His hands,

We are His,

Forever.

"For God so loved the world, that He gave His one and only son. That whoever believes in Him, shall not perish, but have eternal life." John 3:16

That Sunday, he hummed back the tune..

Daddy, healed the wounded,

took him away from the heartbreaks,

embraced him, kisses each and every tear,

saying, "I forgive you too."

The world, the absence of light.

The heartlessness of men,
The act of evil against each other,
In selfishness, you’ve got your wish at the cost of another.
Wake up fools,
Get your heart right,
Don't weep in pretence cause you’d just be a lier.
I believe he’s with Daddy.
The gentleness of the cries of a father for his son...
He loved him so much, he took it for granted.

That's how we all are in reality.
With Daddy, we turn away.

rip, Thank you for letting Daddy show me a miracle through you. (:

adventure world

Monday. (:

Twitter!

My top 20 words I shout out to the world; I like them all. (:

Perth Royal Show fireworks.

Beautiful like anything.

Credits: Derrick papa. :D

things that we've asked why.

In this chaotic world, we'd always need some time of solitude to take a step back and understand things from the big picture.