little window.

Okay, so I've been missing for quite some time and year 11 is honestly a mad train ride, I won't lie though I look like I'm on holiday everyday. Honestly, hate letting people know how I'm like when I'm studying or working hard. Not a closet mugger, I love studying with friends just don't like it when someone who's not studying thats spying on me. :\

ANYWAYS, that photo a day was a fail.. Clearly hahaha but I'll just try to find the time to post all that I owe.


Right now, I feel like I don't exactly belong anywhere again. It's just that I'm constantly moving I guess and I don't get to settle well.. The ones I feel most myself are probably moving on with life too, some are those I want to treasure but honestly doesn't feel too welcoming anymore.. & those I'm alright with aren't exactly like me who needs to socialise outside of school..
& sometimes I feel like a one man party on my own which is kinda pathetic, I feel like I'm on a road trip down to social suicide to be frank. I've been going out and all, not complaining but like I said before all of that with the different groups of people... I don't know.


The walls I'm building around me, all the fears I have from the past, silly but how can I just brush it off? I don't understand yet I'm liking where this is now yet I feel that why couldn't there be more.


This tunnel is not easy, it seems never ending, I feel like I'm fading, I'm pushing on, persevering yet hitting the walls of this tunnel so constantly. Just need my bestfriend now... But I don't know it seems funny how we've not spoken for 2 months now. Maybe everyone's gone without me knowing, I just don't understand.