Here's to days that are either just bright, or brighter.

The verse that has been recurring in my life lately and it didn't hit till I saw it on my laptop before jotting down my very depressed thoughts from this ache in finding a job... Why am I to worry when I've trust in a God who is greater than all, who knows the VERY BEST for me. Who also WANTS the best for me and to PROSPER me, even however broke I am right now. In my times of distress, I forget all of who You are and I'm sorry Lord. Take all of me, break me and mould me into someone that stands rooted in You, giving my very best to everyone You lovingly place around me and may You work through me.

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Happy 5th month Spods.

I've already done a post dedicated to this on Instagram but... Here it is! 

"5 months soon with this boy, thank you for sticking it out with me through thick and thin. For not just loving my good but embracing my 'pain-in-the-butt' moments. I thank God for your patience, for a heart of forgiveness He has so lovingly placed in you and also your determination. You've taught me what it means to strive with a heart of passion for the things I so desire and eagerness to learn especially in regards to music. Thankyou for climbing over your own barriers and then over mine just to help me out and pull me out of my times of distress. I pray that may you continue to persevere in your studies, your music as you continue being this passionate, loving guy. Love ya, MANFRIEND :P"

Mulberries

This is a photo taken on one of the last few weeks of OCF where we had an influx of mulberries brought in.

We took this photo because of the stain these berries left as we indulged heartily. :) May I be just like a mulberry, sweet, pleasing to God and leaving a positive legacy in this world with my stains.

Looking forward to a productive summer! Working, hopefully studying for my supp paper, embark on my music life again and start practising on the uke and drums more. :) Hopefully by the end of summer I would be able to get a secondhand, upright piano too! Hope to get back into it all and start jam sessions with Nick and whoever else who would be keen on joining us.

I hope that one day, I'll be able to play for OCF as well. :)

Braces

Today is supposedly the beginning to three and a half months of holiday as I just did my last paper for my first year at Uni. Honestly, I hope to get supp papers so I can put in more effort, have more time and be given that second chance I *cough* honestly don't deserve.

On another note, braces are my little dosage of joy. They may hurt due to the tightening but the colours make me so so so happy :)

Meeting Cassidy tonight, I can't wait. :) I can't wait to open and share my life with this family who are so lovingly opening up their hearts to me too and welcoming me in.

Going to start blogging more frequently as well! :)

Thoroughly blessed through the simplicities of life.

I thank God for bringing me through this first year of uni and really holding me together as this year has been one that is filled with major ups and downs but I am more than grateful for how God has sustained me through out. Certainly would not have been able to, so many times I would have just done something stupid to jam stop it all mainly because life gets overwhelming and we start to focus on our pain instead of the One who can CARRY us through.

I'll probably do an annual reflection at the end of this year, highlighting in points of major ups and downs of 2013 like I usually do at the end of every year and set new goals for next year as well. As for now, this week alone has been and will continue to be one of the most humbling weeks of my year. I'm just so so so in awe and humbled at how I've been so thoroughly blessed and getting answered prayers, be it said or unsaid but definitely on my heart. I thank You, Lord.

1. Bringing me through study week, I would honestly say, it's better than last semester!
2. Blessing me with a friend who was willing to employ me for a day just so to kick start my bank account again! THANK YOU OLIVIA!!!
3. Having loving parents who provide and accommodate for my stressful week.
4. Having loving friends to push me on, to persevere and study on!
5. For allowing me to draw closer to some of the OCF girls that I've always wanted to.
6. Reigniting in me the passion for HIS name!
7. Blessing me through Shane to want to pick drums back up again! :)
8. For providing me with a drum set once I was determined to start again! :O
9. Blessing me with not one, but TWO babysitting jobs that would definitely mould me.
10. Girl's D materials are here and ready for collection!!! :)
11. Ortho appointment this week and I am excited to change colours and gear up for the Christmas mood! :)
12. Carrying me through my first paper today, a unit I have been very shaky with throughout this sem!
13. For very caring, loving friends, SHOUT OUT TO BOENINCK-JEMEHBECK, KALEM (Thank you for looking out for me), SHERRIE (Sorry for making you worry ): )AND GUS, thank you so much for your lovely cooking!
14. Blessing me with a loving boyf :3 Who took me through my most ugliest moments this week, I'm sorry love ): But thank you, always.
15. Grateful for Subi72, to so lovingly giving me a boost pack! (':
16. Grateful for sisters who are constantly there for me.
17. Grateful for finalising (THE BEST!) accommodation back in Singapore!
18. Fitness increase through pole dancing classes, YEAH YEAH FITNESS! Starting this Wednesday!
19. GETTING MAH SLIDE THIS THURSDAY HERE'S TO A BOOYEAH!
20. Most of all, I thank You Lord, for sustaining me through this big week. :)

In this masquerade

In this masquerade

Close your eyes and take my hand,

May we forget time and remember us.

Escape reality, embrace clarity

And may the rest of the world fade.

When you build that pedestal,

When you are known to the world,

May they love you just like how I do.

I’ll always be here to support you with all I am.

I’ll be ready to catch you when you fall,

I’ll be ready to pull you up and dust you off.

Oh may we dance in love,

Bask in it’s glory,

Reflect it’s glow as you hold me close.

May we sing in harmony,

To the beat of love’s melody.

Remember us, forget these rusts

Wipe these cascading tears of hurt

And dance with me in this masquerade.

I mean the best for you love,

Always to build and never tear.

Let you in my heart,

Oh please, may you stay.

I’ll be ready to catch you when you fall,

I’ll be ready to pull you up and dust you off.

May we dance in this love,

Bask in it’s glory,

Reflect it’s glow as you hold me close.

May we sing in harmony,

To the beat of love’s melody.

Remember us, forget these rusts

Wipe these cascading tears of hurt

And dance with me in this masquerade.

Through our brokenness,

May we fit perfectly like we’re meant to be.

Taking our masks off, as our night comes to an end.

Leaving that sting aside,

cherishing every moment of tonight.

May we dance in this love,

Bask in it’s glory,

Reflect it’s glow as you hold me close.

May we sing in harmony,

To the beat of love’s melody.

Remember us, forget these rusts

Wipe these cascading tears of hurt

And dance with me in this masquerade.

Sit in my tenderness

The Heart is Where You Belong

 You shouted out to me, but I wouldn’t listen
You pleaded, pleaded, pleaded, but I didn’t budge
You gave me so many chances when I was blind
It was only when you scared me, I knew I was wrong
The heart is where you belong

 I’m sorry I dragged us down into this mess
Kicking and screaming for the wrong team, the wrong reasons
I messed up, I faltered, I failed you
But you rescued me nonetheless, out of love

 I’m sorry I was so strong-willed and stubborn
Putting up a brick wall blocking you out
I should’ve listened, adhered and accepted
Instead I kept on driving ahead

You shouted out to me, but I wouldn’t listen
You pleaded, pleaded, pleaded, but I didn’t budge
You gave me so many chances when I was blind
It was only when you scared me, I knew I was wrong
The heart is where you belong

 I’m sorry I made you feel so uneasy
You’re my number one, but I wasn’t making that clear
I love you, adore you, cherish you too
Don’t let go and I won’t let you fall

 I’m sorry you had to question your choices
The sanctity of our unison was being soiled
I’ll do anything you wish, so I can deserve you
 I’ve messed up and I want to make things right

 You shouted out to me, but I wouldn’t listen
You pleaded, pleaded, pleaded, but I didn’t budge
You gave me so many chances when I was blind
It was only when you scared me, I knew I was wrong
The heart is where you belong

 Look at us now
Moving towards better days
It seems like some distant past
Now and forever, forever and always

 You shouted out to me, but I wouldn’t listen
You pleaded, pleaded, pleaded, but I didn’t budge
You gave me so many chances when I was blind
It was only when you scared me, I knew I was wrong
The heart is where you belong

You shouted out to me, but I wouldn’t listen
You pleaded, pleaded, pleaded, but I didn’t budge
You gave me so many chances when I was blind
It was only when you scared me, I knew I was wrong

The heart is where you belong

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Reading this, made me weak.I teared because I know how hard it is for you to string words together let alone write a song that carries such weight in meaning. Thank you... You went that extra ten thousand miles just to show me how much you love, care and cherish this. me. us... I wasn't angry because I honestly have already forgiven you from the beginning knowing you were just being you... I guess sometimes change, is the only way we allow loved ones to stay and change may not entirely be bad, but sometimes it changes not just your own life, but others too in an amazing impactful way. :) I love you. (':