another day.

this is the ### number of times I have fallen asleep during family devotion. I think I'm backsliding again. && This time its not cause of my stupidity to attempt stupid things but, this time the boulder that is blocking me; is myself.

School today was a gush of wind of laughter. It has always been. :) But I missed my counseling session though. I forgot the time. :x Didn't look at the clock till the period was over. Anyways, went to Jarret's house after school and wii-ed with Ethan, James, Loysius, Jarret, Rachel and Chien. :) Played Guitar Heroes and totally owned them. Heeeheee! Cause the girls simply rule eh! Haha, :D We have good team work. Then went to KAP with Loysius, Jarret and Rachel for dinner.

Mammi says I look haggard and old. ): I'm so going to sleep till my heart's content. d: Hope I won't oversleep though. Pictures of Emporio and more with me are all in her blog. I love to just place my earphones nicely over my ears, block out the noises in the world, watch people mouth their words and allowing myself to let my thoughts run free and music blasting at their tops as my background. Sometimes I would smile at times I call back from my brain's records filled with happiness and sometimes turn away when unhappy happenings slip through and placed on replay in my head. Some people just dont understand why I do that, cause they just think I'm slowly killing myself. But rest assured, I treasure my life more than I use to last time. I'm just not treasuring what are actually called privileges to other people when to me its just plain misery. Finding happiness in misery.

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cause at night when the star shines bright, I'm reaching for cm more than j to watch me smile in my dreams.
&& Why won't you just ignore me like the way I'm trying to.