Just reached Singapore, back to the place, the country, the home that I don't seem to recognize anymore.. Back to this place, where for sure, I know I was born at. Singapore.
Left Shanghai, left the place where I was exposed to new people, new characters, new friends and new adventures. Left the place where I THOUGHT was going to be my home for at least 3 years. Home. What is home.
Going to Perth, a place I have been before. Home? My heart tells me yes now. But I have never met my home. Never met any friends there. Not yet at least. The last time I've been there.. Months old? That was AGES ago. For dears sake I am going to be 15 already. && I ask myself again, home? My heart says yes already, my body just falls and tear apart & I start crying.
What is home? I don't even have a clue about it, therefore I went to google definitions for it. "Home" The word I once understood so well ever since I knew ENGLISH. && The word I learnt together with, "family". && here is what I've found:
-Noun:
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| a house, apartment, or other shelter that is the usual residence of a person, family, or household. |
| ~ the place in which one's domestic affections are centered. |
~ A dwelling place together with the family or social unit that occupies it; a household.
~The place, such as a country or town, where one was born or has lived for a long period.
Where is home? I ask again. && There is still no definite answer. Thanks google. THANKS THIS MUCH.
God, guide me Lord. Please, I need your guidance Daddy, hold my hand and carry me through this spinning world that don't belong to me. As I reach out to you Lord, please pick me up and take the lead.. Cause I really need you..
.
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I know, I understand.
I was born in Singapore, studied here and learnt my foundations.
I AM A SINGAPORE GIRL. That's who I am and I am proud of it. Cause I do love Singapore. It
IS my HOME. Where most of my memories are so far. && Where I have friends, who are more than friends. They are more like siblings to me. So dearly
loved.
I studied half of my s3 in Shanghai. Made great friends too, it was my
TEMPORARY home which I didn't expect to demolish oh too soon. It still create a meadow of love for me. It
WAS HOME.
I am going to Perth, where I barely know and remember nothing. Absolutely nothing. But it is going to be my HOME real soon. Too soon. My heart is just leading me there, preparing me and making me understand that it is
going to be MY HOME. Where I will go on to High School then University. That is where I am going to be, Australia.
Beyond that, my future, my career, God is leading me step by step as I learn during each step I take. But where I want my home to be is truly heaven. Eternity as promised. Tenderly loved, I must slip no more. But continue my race of life and pick myself up quickly after each fall.
HOME."Everything and everybody needs love."
