Bowling, pool, car racing

Yesterday went to this bowling place near church. Ke You, Mark, Max, Roger, Vincent, Ashim, Aaron, Cai Sheng, Christy, Macy & I were all there. We bowled, pool, car raced.

All credits for GREAT pics to Macy, my babe. :)

Leaving for Paris in 7 more hours. I wanna go retreat! ): Oh this morning I wrote 3 poems. I wrote one dedicating it to Anna. I showed her my work piece. She went super high especially the one she read about her hahha! :D && we were the noisiest and most hyper peeps there! hahaha! :D

Autumn is finally here. A beautiful season.

I love you, yes I simply do.♥
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This coming week is exam period for Singapore. Jia yous everyone! :D Leaving for Paris in the early morning on Monday. I promise to buy stuff back. :) I wanna go to retreat... Oh gosh, I'm so lazy to blog today. Just came back from cell and I love ANNA LING. :D Oh and her sister, is MAXIMUM cuteness! :D

I love mummy.

♥ I love my mom. I really do. I am sorry mummy for the hard times you felt like eating knives and drinking your blood just cause of me. Well, I was one defiant, brat! Haha, Well I've learnt alot from those experiences right? You know me just oh too well mummy. You're more than a mom to me. You're like my happiness I see, comfort when I am sad, one who can see through my thoughts, feelings and emotions. You gave me freedom like cash from your pocket. You gave me my space when I needed a good cry. Cause you're the only one who's heart has beat together with mine in unity for 9months. Today after school, you saw me walking to the car. The first thing you said when I entered was, " Did you get a scolding from teacher today? Why are you looking so sad?" Honestly, its the feeling that comes whenever terrible things are gonna happen. You know me well. You know all my secrets. && One thing I regretted is, saying "I hate you" after you slapped me with the calendar last time. Well, I deserved it. :) But I truly am sorry for that D: I was really a monster? Haha. :D You really made me laugh everytime I need a good laugh. Thank you mummy. :) I love you.

Feelings of this heart.

I'm getting indescribable feeling again. Those that have been close to me know what it is. Yes, it means something is going to happen. Something unpleasant. Something hurtful. But not all the time it happened to me. Most of the time are my close friends..
Sometimes you wished you were being left alone in a corner under a window, in the dark. Sometimes you wished you were with your friends.. Sometimes you wished you could go back to the past, slap yourself hard and not let mistakes take place. Sometimes you wished you won't cry salty tears and get on with life. Sometimes you wished clocks and beeping would speed up. Sometimes you wished you could forget the hurts. Sometimes you wished you are recognised. Sometimes you wished you are someone else. Sometimes you wished you could not hear. Sometimes you wished you could be your old self. All these wishes. All these prayers. All these cries. All these words. Even though we scream all these in our heads, crush our hearts, or scream and cry. All we can do is look down, turn away and taste the black sea on our lips.
Sometimes I really do miss Singapore and all my friends, relatives and memories there. I've found the reason why. It's because everything is there. Everything there knows me well. Cause I'm comfortable there. Cause I understood my friends brilliantly well.
Coming to Shanghai was a huge stepping stone. It's because in Singapore, it's my comfort zone. Now that I was plucked out of my comfort zone, I guess I've found some answers why God has placed me here. He knew I would be more focused on Him here, Get away from my past. Move away from my fears. Grow. Realise what I've been hidden from in Singapore. Like I said, The Lord Gives and Takes Away. I guess it's His plan. My future. My life.

Just feeling so down.. Somethings gonna happen. I know something will.

I'm thankful some understanding close friends. Anna especially. Thank you for understanding me. It's like you're my soul sister.

sighs

You taught me that hurtful past was not the end.
You encouraged me cause you know I can.
You urged me to forgive,
forgive something I can't forget.

You knew my feelings.
You knew my tears.
You taught me sincerity,
cause this is not just serendipity.

You lost it today,
but you said it's okay.
Told me it's alright,
assured me and hugged me tight.

Thankyou for guiding me,
Cause I know you're God sent.
To make me forgive this important gift,
His treasure.
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Still super duper hyper since last night!
Can't stop laughing! :D
Cause I've found my light.
The light that God sent.
I'm thankful. Grateful. Feeling that warmth again. Moving on from the past. Ain't glued there anymore.

Today English class had mid term break test. :) Thankyou Mel for going through the whole passage with me. Teaching me there is more than this and looking ever so deep into just black words on white paper can be as deep as the ocean. What will I do if you are not on this earth? My grade for this test and all my lit test are all credited to you. Without you, I won't understand what it means. What it says, I will be wandering like a lost beggar looking for food and water in this busy streets through alleys and pest-filled bins. You widened my view for poetry. Made me understand and enjoy it. Made me continued my writing of creative words that paints the sky filled with rainbows stretching from the mountains to the valleys. Thank You HOCI! :D

Thankyou Cai Sheng for choco milk and pocky! HAHA! Certainly, you know me well, my best friend. :D