Mummy.

"Mummy, you can ask me anything you like. Boys, ball whatever."
"Do you like anyone now?"
"Nope. Have not had any likes or crushes since Year 10 I guess.. I mean look, Year 10 is a big year, year 11 bigger and now 12 BIGGEST! I just.. Don't have the time to think about it?"
"Well, you're normal."
"Normal? I think girl crushes are normal."
"Yeah they are. But who's the last one you realllllly liked?"
"Well... I guess my last relationship."
"Like real dating going out dating?"
"Yeah, Ashim."
"Oh."
"Yeah.."
"HOW MANY RELATIONSHIPS HAVE YOU HAD!?"
"Hah... *shifty eyes* Well only one proper one. Ashim."
"Just those puppy love?"
"Nah, it was pretty serious."
"But you guys met in Sydney like there wasn't anything."
"Yeah, there isn't anymore. It's been 3 years mum."
"Is he still short?"

and it goes on.

Why did I type this all here? Because I felt this conversation just made mum realise I'm no longer that little baby that sleeps with her butt in the air anymore. But yet again, this conversation allowed her so much deeper into my life and I feel so close to her.

Prayers of a loving mother.

Mothers all over the world, praying for their sons and/or daughters to get married.

My mother, prays for me to find a ball date. Just honestly, its the most shocking and sweetest thing that did leave an impact in me to know how much she doesn't want her daughter to be forever alone because of things like this... 

HEEHEE. 

Such love. It actually really means so much to me.

I love mummy.

♥ I love my mom. I really do. I am sorry mummy for the hard times you felt like eating knives and drinking your blood just cause of me. Well, I was one defiant, brat! Haha, Well I've learnt alot from those experiences right? You know me just oh too well mummy. You're more than a mom to me. You're like my happiness I see, comfort when I am sad, one who can see through my thoughts, feelings and emotions. You gave me freedom like cash from your pocket. You gave me my space when I needed a good cry. Cause you're the only one who's heart has beat together with mine in unity for 9months. Today after school, you saw me walking to the car. The first thing you said when I entered was, " Did you get a scolding from teacher today? Why are you looking so sad?" Honestly, its the feeling that comes whenever terrible things are gonna happen. You know me well. You know all my secrets. && One thing I regretted is, saying "I hate you" after you slapped me with the calendar last time. Well, I deserved it. :) But I truly am sorry for that D: I was really a monster? Haha. :D You really made me laugh everytime I need a good laugh. Thank you mummy. :) I love you.