& After awhile of not going out, I don't "dress up" much anymore. I put on a shirt and shorts and out I go. I don't care about how I look. I mean to some of you its a good thing but I've passed the point of not being vain to looking like a lost wild child. People say I've loads of clothes, well I admit I do because my wardrobe is exploding but what's the point if I just put on my usual shirt and shorts and not care? I look at friend's photos and all and I asked myself, "How am I suppose to fit in when I return?" Fit in not in terms of among friends fitting in but not standing out too much with my Primary school days where I hate dresses, skirts and what not then wearing just boy shorts and shirts from camps and such. I don't hate them. It's just you know... "Can't be bothered wearing them"?
& every girl goes through this, "I'm not beautiful..." They worry about what they wear, they worry about how make up goes, they worry about having the latest fashion, they worry about having high heels, they worry about having hand bags, they worry about having the latest accessories and they worry about their hair. Both body hair and head hair.
Now I ask myself, "Why am I such a boy... I don't care about these no more... I can leave the house without having to care about such. I can't stand having make up other than for drama, I can't stand high heels, I can't stand tiny hand bags, I can't stand changing ear rings each time I head out.. etc." The list goes on and soon I come to a conclusion, "I can't express myself with clothes any more."
