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Today's school chapel really made me decide something. But I am caught in between another question again. Though I was sleeping when Mr Owyong came up, but i can remember vividly that before he came up, a preacher (or a teacher? o.o) said this, " Choose one thing this week that you want to show gratitude for." Or something like that. The first thing that came to my mind was to try to make effort and try to be friends with Joey again. I was certain and firm until I heard she went around bitching about me again. & I thought today was different. I really don't get it. Why won't she just stop? Its been like 3 months already!? I am really tired of listening to what she tell others. But what she bitch about me is like a total opposite of what happen? Its like a total 180 degrees flip! Joey, I am not the only one who is getting tired of this, many of the people you bitch to is really fed up. You should just give it a break and just stop for ONE day at least.

&& This is what you got wrong:
-You bitch to people close to me.*Even when they fake saying they hate me to see what else you got to say. They are surprised you never stop*
For? Its either you want them to dislike me too. Which is not working. Or you want them to tell me what you bitched about?

- I MADE/ FORCED you to sleep on the floor that time you stayed- over.
Hello? I told you I was moving house only got one mattress. I OFFERED 3 TIMES for you to sleep on the mattress. You insisted that I sleep on it. I said i was ok since you are the guest. You said don't want. I said then you want to share with me since you FEEL BAD. You said NO. Even so, I tried to make you feel comfortable as much as possible. I gave you 2 quilts. ITS SOFT & COMFORTABLE. I LIKED IT. Unless you are like the Princess and the Pea. I didn't even have a blanket yo! Be grateful that you were warm can!

- I STARVED you.
Hmmmm Really? Then whats the curry puff you denied eating? How about egg tart after a while I keep pestering you to eat? I am not your maid to spoon feed you, you know. There was 2 curry puff, 2 paos and an egg tart that night. Forgot? I ate one pao and 1 curry puff and shared the egg tart with you cause you feel WEIRD eating alone. Even a 7 year old can pick and eat all these up.

- You said I STEAL friends.
The only types of people that OTHER people steal are SLAVES. I am not sure if they still have slaves in other parts of the world. Unless you are saying your friends are YOUR slaves.

- You said I find new friends, I disown the old.
IF I did, why do i still hang out with YunXin? Sometimes Natalia? Winnie? Sarah? Rachel? && Many more you don't know. I "disowned" you cause hello!! You hate me why should I stay there in that clique? Unless I am a robot and has no feelings then I probably would. Why be your dog? Its not worth it. I can make new friends too you know. You don't own me. Cause, I am not your friendSLAVE Anymore.

- I treat you cold first.
If I did, why would I cry at first when you were enjoying your time? Why would I make the effort to patch things up when you are playing and ignoring? Why would I waste my time on doing all that?

- Now you say I am childish.
You said that if you were childish you would have already slapped me. Hello? Who is using vulgarities PURPOSELY here. Oh, & I am not 7. I am 14. You always insisted you were 7? Slap me? I think you would have missed like last year. Please don't bother trying to fight. Cause fighting things out is childish. Talking things out should be the right and proper way. Oh & slapping someone cause you HATE SOMEONE FOR NOT A SINGLE PROPER REASON is not childish. Its being an ass and some others call it, bitch.

I don't know why you want to fill yourself up with hatred and anger for no reason? You are just feeding yourself with reasons like some others up there by twisting your words? Why won't you just stop and think that its time to apologize? I already did many times, even gave you sweets AND YOU IGNORED. Forgot? Here, I am refreshing your memory. Did chapel struck you or not, just open up your heart and let God talk to you. But even after all those, I will try to patch things up. Oh, && please, don't try to deny all the things you said because you know deep down you did it. No use trying to run away. && don't blame whoever you told all these to because its not their fault listening, it was who you gossip to.

Personally this is for you FRIEND.
Slowly read the lyrics & understand what i have been trying to tell you. Its taken from Narnia, The Call.