you still make me smile.

I love these guys to bits :)

Looking through my notes and messages, I found yours. The very first time you said "I love you =X". && What made you say it, was because of one blogpost.

Right now, I hear some of you guys going,"I want to ask you who all these last few blogposts are for but it's a tad awkward." Haha, don't. Don't get me started cause the next few hours all you hear, is my voice hahaha.

It's funny how I can find so many songs to sing to you, it's funnier how you can stay liking one person for years at this age. It's funniest when you're wishing each time for this person to come on, for months; and it only occur once-twice a year..

They say if it's a crush, it takes 4 months and you'll be over it. We've gone way way further than that and it's scary that it's like this..

Daddy, please give me an energy bar.
& You carry me through the storm.

dreams.

It's funny how this quote was invented in my dreams. It sounds funny but I love the idea of it.

Since Singapore, my brain has not rested. I've been having crazy dreams, dreams seeming so real. & Today it affected my living being. My brain was dead, I slept for 11 hours straight and woke up at 3.30pm. Insomnia. I have no emotions nothing, I just feel like a sloth, a walking zombie. Today's dream was about everything, all 14 chapters of you and I but Korean people acting in our story, maybe cause whenever I tell someone all 14 chapters, they scream "KOREAN DRAMA!". But to be honest, the dream didn't have a conclusion, but I see the guy, feeling like you and the story hasn't ended. I like it that way.


Australia day today, pictures soon!
A few days ago, when I just returned from Singapore, I woke up, surprised to be alive.. That surprises me myself but I guess it really feels that way, leaving singapore ):
"Woke up at 3.30pm from an 11 hours sleep;butter cream & chips for "brunch" & I've been sleeping in mess since I returned. Mummy, I need you."

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Went out with Nat to San Churros on Tuesday. Love this babe.

Back to perth.

Another Camera's

there are still so many more to come.

Family dinner!

 have not seen this bunch in ages. I really did miss them and how I can speak to them in English and feeling alright. :) I love them to bits really, though we only meet once a year for most of us, we're still bonded by blood. Hope to see Shanon in Aus soon! :)

Justin's BBQ Birthday!

I miss you!

like I said, I love this pic cause it's pretty arty farty. Everyone's doing their own thing and wasn't arranged. Pictures like these show the true moments in time that's happening, not like those that the camera man has to wait as people organize themselves then smile. Its these pictures that shows the truth in friendships and moments.

Everyone asks,"so, what now?"
"We'll pray, wait and see. :)"
After the first night, it didn't sting anymore. It's as if nothing happened but something did and that's what makes me happy. I feel, there's something greater happening in God's plan but will you allow it? Or will you lie to both yourself and I, saying "I'm not worth it"?

on my way back down.

I'm a girl who bites her nails when she's nervous,
scratch her head when she's stressed,
bottle up her feelings until one day it all comes flooding out,
laugh after she cries,
hates painting nails,
hates wearing make-up,
goes numb after something painful happens,
laughs until she has 8 pacs,
don't care if she's wearing pjs out,
she takes things at one step but sometime mess up because of not looking forward,
tells everyone to smile,
find my own advice hard to follow,
that runs and doesn't care what the world thinks.
she doesn't let the past go easily but finds her way after a long while,
feels lost,
naive and wouldn't believe things from others,
vulnerable yet acts strong,
always tangled in her own thoughts,
always trying to find answers that can't be found,
who is open yet closed,
who thinks she's the ugly in fugly when she sees her photos,
thinks she's fat yet doesn't care and pig out,
who craves mcspicy and leave the best for last but ends up full after eating the buns,
messed up?

Well, we all are in some ways and that's when we need some guidance.

little update trails.

Have not been blogging the last few days of 2010 cause my laptop was in m8.

So here are some updates.

Christmas countdown:

Played pictionary, articulate and sequence.

Melissa's wedding. A photo with aunt Pih.

18th Jan, Tuesday my 2nd day in SG!

At night, met ocf-ers at Jerry's!

 

Went to Marina Barrage.

 Proving that 3 is a crowd hahaha.

Thursday, visited phpps after 4 years! So many things have changed, so many teachers I caught up with and phpps friends. <3 Had the chicken rice from phpps stall, good memories.

Thursday after phpps, met Yun and Loy, wanted to visit drama but had some things to clear before anything.

Now, I feel like I've woken up, like a nightmare, goes on until you are jerk right up and you slowly come back down to earth and recover while you're on the journey down. Questions answered, pieces match, the puzzle is solved, the story of the 3 years have had a conclusion that one might know was a risk. Closing the book, looking towards the future that was once where I filled everything up with a plus one. Now I wonder how, but I know the answer lies in the one who was my first love, Daddy God. This is it, I've been let go from chains I've stayed too comfortable in. Run till you lose the feelings in your legs, cry until memories run dry of pain but lessons to be learnt instead and what's ahead is what I write in with smiles. Recovery, the first has now ended.. "meant to be"; we'll see.