Feelings, emotions.

The retreating Light.
My inside is trembling, I ask myself again is everything alright? && Again I lie to myself. My heart starts beating faster like it is using a hammer to knock itself out. My breathing gets heavier like I've just murdered someone. Yes, I've murdered someone, myself. I look down, letting tears flow and comfort myself with every lie I could come up to protect my inner judge criticize you. Someone comes by, asked me what was I doing, I quickly did a quick wipe and look up smiling the usual smile and say I am feeling tired therefore I yawned. Once that stranger leaves, I get up on my weak knees, trying to lock them there. Soon, they just gave way and broke down shattering into tiny pieces. I'm unhappy at myself, but for someone's happiness even an enemy, I've got to stand strong, pick myself up and look up to heaven. Looking deep into the clouds for comfort, I knew this was a comforting lie I've kept alive to provide that happiness two people needed. I've should have questioned myself before I let go of my sweating palms. But who knew my fingers clung on so tight that they began to hurt when the metal bars rust. Everything seems to come crashing down on me, like rushing water being poured into an empty glass. Withdrawing back to the darkness, I turn the radio up to mystic and letting the music blast wicked. Screaming and punching no one hears me. I let my tears flow like red tears on my hand drip with melody..

That is a story I made as I was tired of looking at never ending codes and editing. I know you guys will say it sounds emo, but I seem to have no emotions now cause probably the codes mind blocked me. Haha, :D Tell me what you think about it!(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEYOU! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEYOU! :D

I don't have a pic of you, but I've found this! Haha, :D Happy Birthday! Continue to grow in Christ alright? :) Be cheerful always like how you ALMOST everyday remind me to smile Haha, :D Thankyou for always sharing your interest with me like how crazily in love you are with free running and even showed me a youtube on it. && You and your skateboard fanatic, you even gave me a site to check out which teaches people how to skateboard! Haha, :D Thankyou for always entertaining me in chinese class when I am going to enter outer space! :x Happy Birthday once again, Ke You! :D

Melanie

SISTER DEDICATION.

M2.

One more pregnant week and you will finally be here! :D I can't find any nice picture of us on this com.. This is the best & the latest. Believe it or not, you better get your ass down here as soon as possible so we can camwhore more! This picture was taken in 2005 before all the changes occurred and the start of the Ho's separation.

I miss those times when the 3M ho went crazy even in public, watch blues clues, strawberry shortcake, rugrats && spongebob together, cook together, put on performances together, you teaching me gymnastics when I was in pri school or even younger! You doing midnight karate in bed and kicking me off. You sleep walking and before our eyes shut for the night our usual private talk about our life, you hugged me when I cried. I comforted you when you cried.. Me teaching you how to play my gameboy SP last time. && when I was much younger, you always brought home puppy in your pocket for me! && I copied you in everything especially in our fave colours that pissed you off! GOOD TIMES.. GOOOOD TIMES! :D Quick quick, come!

M1.

Gonna see you in dec! :D You better go shopping and hit the beach with me and hack your work for one day :x heh heh. This was taken in 2004, the year before you left and when daily NOISE POLLUTION was suddenly gone. No one to practice VOICE PROJECTION with anymore, no more eating peanut butter out of their plastic bottles using table spoons anymore. No one to ransack the refrigerator with for chocolate && sweets anymore. No one to share the blame for eating the whole bag of chips anymore. I guess that was how we became fatttt! Hahaha, :D No one to sit on and tackle me anymore. No more comparing tummies HAHA no one to laugh at anymore x.x No more ganging up and scaring Melanie anymore. No more screaming and whining when you come in the room and I wear a mask behind the door and when you come in, the horrible light keeps flickering before it officially turn on and you start screaming in my face when you close the door. Hahaha, :D && No more hot dog wrap when we forgot to set the timer of the air conditioner and it is at 18 degrees Celsius till the morning and realise the blanket that was warmly placed on me was gone and instead was wrapping you up while I was trying desperately to pull some to warm myself. You said you will come to my blog.. But I doubt you can cause of you tight work schedule. WORK IS A STUPID SISTER SUCKER. It stole my sister! RAWRRRR!

&& I'm M3! :D

Sister dedications are really fun, cause that is when all the good ol' memories come flooding back. :D

Now that picture was taken in 2004, in Sydney Australia. Before the under current incident. So embarrassing.. x.x Looks like I didn't change alot heh heh. But ofcourse, I grew alot taller! The PPG Frisbee, so what, I loved Power Puff Girls when I was p4! It shows I did not have a deprived childhood! && I liked bubbles that time. Now I prefer Blossom though I don't watch anymore.. Haha, :D I wouldn't have ANY fashion sense if ANY of my sisters didn't exist. Thanks to them, I've learnt WHO is cute and WHAT is beautiful. :D

2 more days and Tan Yang Jie is here.
Heh, I placed my bet already that he is gonna be another average ordinary Singaporean guy who will probably be another guy who is bonkers over dota.

Anna says he's gonna probably be a nerd. MAYBE. People placed bets! Haha, :D let's hope he can change people minds that Singaporean guys can ACTUALLY BE CUTE TOO. Haha, :D
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Oh I've got something to teach.

WHAT TO DO WHEN A BIRD ATTACKS YOU:

1. Stand still, NEVER look at it back in the eye.
2. Take your bag off your shoulder and place it in your hand in case it attacks.
3. Shout, "SHOOO!! SHOOO!! SHOOO!!"
4. If it still looks at you like you ate its feathers, say," Watch out otherwise you become bird pie!"
5. If it moves towards you, stop, drop and roll while saying sorry for offending it.
6. Once you are done, get back up, look left and right in case it did not bring a friend.
7. If it is still determine on chewing you, slowly back.
8. By now, you should be screaming and running in the opposite direction.

Now, there are your 8 steps to survival when you are facing a bird. If it is an eagle or falcon, just skip to step 8! But this does not usually work.. Cause sometimes we take too long to do the 8 steps and birds are usually impatient!

ANOTHER QUIZ!

1. The person who tagged/passed you this quiz is?
JingYi && Caisheng.

2. The relationship between him/her is?
HER: My LaoGong.
HIM: Friend.

3. Your five expressions of him/her is?
HER: 1. Sporty. 2. Supportive. 3. Skip addict. 4. Pocky in crime buddy. 5. My lovely laogong.
HIM: 1. Nice. 2. TRYING to be positive thinking. 3. Emo. 4. Caring. 5. Basketball love.

4. The most memorable thing she/he has done for you?
SHE: Camwhore with me after 2 months of deprived fun.
HE: Lend me his pull over when I was icy cold.

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
SHE: "It's okay laogong will be there for you!" Or something like that :x
HE: "I'm sorry for breaking my promises." You're forgiven from the start. (:

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
SHE: Hello? She's my lover!
HE: Get warm hugs?

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things to improve on will be?
SHOWER MORE LOVE! :D

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
Give in && not retaliate.

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
I don't know? Flushing them down to China's sewage system maybe?

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her is?
HER: Be the friend she has been looking for. (:
HIM: Pull him away whenever he is within 5 metres reach of anything that can cause pain.

11. Your overall expression of him/her is?
HER: Skipping and pocky addict. My partner in Crime.
HIM: Nice?

12. How do you think the people around you feel for you?
1. Crazy. 2. Cheerful?

13. The characters that I love about myself are?
MADNESS & INSANITY. SMILES & LAUGHTER.

*What happened to Q14!?*

15. The most ideal person you want to be?
I'm happy and thankful the way I am, cause God made me special && Unique in His image.

16. For people that love, care and show concern for you, say something to them?
It's 12.52am & tomorrow I've got school. I WANNA FINISH THIS LONG QUIZ && SLEEP!

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you
1.Rachel Yeo
2.Zhe Hui
3.Amalina
4.Jing Yi
5.CaiSheng
6.Brenna
7.Anna
8.Nigel
9.Joey
10.Theresa

*finally, I just randomly grab from my links. I JUST WANNA SLEEP.*
19. Is no.9 a male or a female?
FEMALE.

20. If no. 7 and no. 10 are together, would it be a good thing?
If they were Les, probably. As long as they are happy but, currently NO WAY.

21. What is no. 2 studying about?
He is apparently wanting to rot to death.

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
Pretty long. 1 week?

23. What kind of band music does no.8 like?
I know he goes randomly.

24. Does no.1 have any siblings?
2 Sisters, LIKE ME! :D

25. If no. 3 wants to woo you, would you acceptor reject?
OH MY MOMMA, I WILL GET RAPED EVERY SINGLE DAY.

26. How about no.7?
I will accept her, be her EDWARD CULLEN but confirmed kana ditch 1 day later!

27. Is no.4 single?
NO, SHE'S MINE.

28. What is the surname of no.5?
TOH. nono, THE BUILDER.

29. What is the hobby of no. 10?
Sports.

30. Does no. 5 and no.9 get along?
They don't even know each other!

31. Where does no. 2 study at?
FMSS.

32. Talk about something for no. 3?
I MISS YOU SEX BOMB!

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
== no. There is such thing as TRY!?

34. Where does no.9 live?
Somewhere in SINGAPORE.

35. What colour does no. 4 like?
sky blue.

36. Are no.1 and no.5 best friends?
THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW EACH OTHER. Okay, this is getting annoying!

37. Does no.1 have any pets?
Who's 1!?!? I'm too lazy to scroll up liao lahh!! Aiyah, no.

38. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
SEE! Scroll again! Anna, Sexy. SHE IS AWESOME-LY SEXY.

39. What is no.6 doing now?
SLEEPING && probably dreaming of pads..

YES, CAN GO ORH ORH LIAO! :D