I am Missing You Joey..

I Have tried. I really did. I tried so many ways, so many times, so many tries but you just continue facing your back to me. I am exhausted. Soon I am Going to break down again. I treat this relationship between you and I like a golden ribbon binding our hearts together. Even though this ribbon is now untied, it has come loose; I tried to tie it back but i seem to be successful for a short period of time. I really cant take it anymore. Control my emotions no more. I told you how i felt. Thinking you would understand. But instead you dont. If you really want to hit me I let you. I PROMISE I wont retaliate. If thats the only solution for bringing back does happy times I spend with you I dont mind even if I die in your hands I dont mind cause to me you really matter. You are someone I really care and wont give up on. But you are really pushing me; Down to those sharp rocks below. We use To Be the rainbow; sunshine and wind. Together pushing through our difficulties, troubles and fears. Now we are as good as a rope torn into many strands. I promises i gave to you time after time, day after day, moments after moments are still kept in my heart. It hurts me to break any of these promises i gave to you. But today is the day i broke one promise I am sorry but I had to. One promise we promised was this," If you fall, I PROMISE I wont laugh at you." This promise is still clung strong and dear to me. Promises between us i treat them as precious as Gold. But I Guess we are just loosing it all.. All I can do now is just waiting at the bottom of the Rainbow waiting for you to return and trying my best to build back this bridge of love between us; The rainbow we used to share. But while I am building it you are ignoring and kinda tearing it down. I am really exhausted. All I can Say now after all these days is, " I give up. I am really tired. I cant take it. But I MUST persevere cause I want this friendship back with you. The answer on how much you want it is in your heart. You know it yourself." If I fell last time I Know you wont laugh at me but you will stretch your hand out and offer to me to pick me up and caring for me but now i can predict that you will just sit there and laugh cause I dont seem to matter to you anymore. Its ok is what i tell myself cause now I have to be strong and pick myself up whenever I fall and to get that love back. imissyoubestie..

To My Close Buddies! :D

To All My FREAKINGLY MAD FRIENDS!:
No worries yeah? I wont forget you guys! Dont be silly! HAHA How Can i ever forget such crazy memories if I can see you everyday? Even if I am at "home" I still got your picture right? HAHA.

To My Closest BUDDY!:
When the times comes for us to be distant friends, don't let your ego over rule you. If you wanna cry come and hug me cause i promise you that i will cry with you there even if the information counter makes an announcement saying," Can the 2 Wailing girls just SHUT THE F*CK UP!" HAHA Just ignore cause they are crazy HAHA. Since the beginning of the year i said i will always be there for you. And I WILL. When you needed help I did Try my Very best to help you by coming up with loads of weird but some are sensible ideas. Guess I will miss part of the tornado at the back of the class.. ILOVEYOU my BESTIE!:D

To Winnie:
I really wont have any idea if you will continue your walk on this path to christianity but i really hope you do. Well life comes with unexpected events to make you go crazy i guess. I cant deny reality but i can hide it for a while. Yes I can. You cant disagree with God huh? Well He is GOD after all. We got to follow as He plans cause maybe there are other people out there who needs to recieve the message too! We got to continue to pass it on right? Like our favourite song that people always sing on Christmas Eve And hand out candles for you to hold. Yeah So Stay strong thats all I can say but if you need a crying shoulder my house phone is always open for you to call and ask me over to your house since you can barely go out. Aww Come on you know I am a good teddy bear for you to hug.. But not a pluffy one.. Maybe before you hug me i stuff some pillows around me HAHA. And I can return your smile! You know that alright! HAHA so yeah make this few moments last forever like its never going to end. :D

To Samuel Korkor:
I Told you. Cutting; Slashing; Slitting; Making scars on your hand is the dumbest thing can! I did not expect a strong guy like you to do such a ****ing **** **** thing! Yeah I admit I did it before cause then i was childish and was addicted to it. I ADMIT! But please please i beg you to stop can? Remember that promise you made to me. Promise me you will keep that promise and mean it when I meet you again. I let you do it but i dont let you cut. Face your fears; Dont run away. Cutting is like smoking. You never know when you get addicted until you go too crazy and people starts avoiding you. I know you did it for a reason but still! Why cant you control your anger? WHY! I am sorry but i was away so you could not call through but deep down you know I nor That Girl will like you doing it. In the end why do you do it!? Piss me off? Piss her off? Piss both of our ass off!? When you told me In my head the only four letter word came in and that was CRAP. I was disappointed in you. I thought you were mature but this has proven my impression of you wrong. Please Stop it alright. And DONT YOU DARE GO BACK TO SMOKING! :D

To Kaisan:
Thanks For trying! :D Well sorry if i kinda disappointed you HAHA. Well I wanted to be MISS ANTI- SOCIAL! But well the last few sessions are just too tempting to go crazy haha. Well after the board break I felt like a free person running my crazy hacktic life HAHA. Well you did get me in the mood to just jump and go crazy. Thanks for saving my life man! HAHA yesterday. :D Yupp looking forward to my first session though haha. Cant wait. But man.. Scared if it turns out boring. It will be a total blow off. HAHA. THANKS ANYWAY!! :D

AIRPORT.

At the airport now.. Going to board at 1.20am.. Using the free internet..

Earlier before we went through the custom, I showed my mom a video then suddenly she burst out laughing like mad HAHA i cant help but laugh and look around. PAI SEH!! HAHA but still very funny the person infront of us turned and started laughing too HAHA. I wonder what i will be doing on the airplane.. I still have my stomach ache and headache and very sore throat.. D; I went to play with the foot massager wah.. SHUANG! HAHA my mum used it 3 times i used it twice my dad used it once. My mum did not say anything my dad said its too Pain but after effect was good. When i first placed my small feet in, I burst out laughing! So Ticklish!! HAHA..Well.. Shanghai.. HERE I COME. Prepared for the unexpected and Expected.. Going to come back on tuesday.. Getting tired.. Cant sit to use must stand.. Somemore all my muscles are still aching from yesterdays napha or if thats how you spell it :D Well Got To Go!! I wanna go buy some candies from the department store.. To keep myself occupied chewing away on the airplane as i watch Movies and RUGRATS!! :D Miss RUGRATS the MOST!! HAHA okok BYEE!:D

I MISS YOU TOO;
JOEY.
RACHEL JIE.
CHIENYEE DA GU.
AMALINA.
WINNIE.
THEON KORKOR.
JUN YUAN KORKOR.
Pratically.. ALL MY FRIENDS!!
The lovely yet crazy people to keep my life filled with Random Madness haha. But sorry your friend here is the blurest sotong man.. HAHA. BYE.

Hints after hints to tell you that something is going to happen and will happen. But deep down I still Love This Place that is filled with memories, laughters, joy, tears, fears, Love and quarrells. One Day I Will fly away was something i believed in when i was young. I always thought migrating was going to be great. Thinking that it will make me forget all me anger and hurts. But when it nearly happened to me i realised it hurts to think of it. Leaving My friends and relatives behind and probably my dear, lovely dog. I did ponder and asked Why!? Why must my childhood wish come through? Be careful for what you wish for i told myself it might happen again if i am not careful. Why do unhappy things happen? Cause We Are Careless.

I Wonder.

S ame Lovly People Who I Know I Love. INEEDYOU.
H ave faith, Its ok. Dont Stay Hanging There I Know You Can. IBELIEVE INYOU.
A im to be your very best, the way I know you can be. IKNOWYOUCAN.
N ever give up, be strong; Move On. IWILLPICKYOUUP.
G ive Your Very Best Cause Where ever I Might Be, What Ever It Is ILOVEYOU.
H olding Back Tears Will Hurt You. I Will Cry With You On The Phone, The Streets, The Railway. IMISSYOU.
A lways Remember I Will Be Here For You & I Know You Will Be There For Me.
I Believe In You Guys. I Wont Give Up On You. IWILLBETHERE. I Will Cry With You; I Will Scream With You; I Will Shout With You; I Will Rejoice With You.