We know the end, we just pretend.

"I'll miss you. Everything is just so wrong and I don't belong and I'm just living in your precious memories."

Podpod adventures! :D

Exploring train tracks at Kent St Weir with Spods! 

Knowing Shane is still in his little bubble of tastes and food of this world, I've decided to try something out with him... Introduce him to my childhood snacks that carries not just familiar tastes (to me) but also share their significance of them in my growing up years in Singapore! In regards to that, we went Asian snack grocery shopping today!

Questions I asked:
1. First impression
2. Outside appearance, what did you expect
3. Taste
4. Anything interesting?

What we tried today and Shane's responses:
White Rabbit milk candy

- Since it stated milk candy, he was expecting the taste.

- Expected it to be chewy :)

- Tasted like milk chocolate to him! :o

- All checked out.

What it means to me:

While growing up, this has been the candy that would be shared out at school and be usually found around Chinese new year in my family because my cousins absolutely love them. Since then, there has been cases of poisoning in this lollies that made their popularity die a little but since then have been under strict supervision so... All good! It's not exactly my favourite candy out there but I know I love that transparent plastic-like wrapping each lolly that I had doubts about eating when I was just a little kid. Until I tasted the edge and felt it melt away in my mouth. :)

Onion Rings chips

"1. Like plain Cheezles. 2. Looks like Cheezles. 3. Bland. Where's the onion? 4. All checks out."

I've never really taken fancy in this to be honest... But Melanie and Melissa did like this though. Thought maybe we should give it a try especially since I've not had them in a while. :)

Sparkling apple drink

"1. Bottle with can lid 2. Fizzy apple drink. 3. Sparkling apple juice. Would drink again. 4. Pretty normal. Packaging is cool."

I remember seeing these cool looking cans in vending machines and I would beg mum to buy me one while growing up simply because I love them cans!

Pocky

"1. Chocolate on a stick. Can't go wrong. 2. See #1. 3. Chocolate was a bit rich. 4. Pretty normal."

Went through a Pocky phase before in my life while I was living in Shanghai. In shanghai there are heaps of flavours and different types such as mousse and additional toppings on them. I was very addicted to these while I was in Shanghai to a point that I would have one almost once every two days at least! Friends identified it to me as well and would usually buy me a box of these lovely things just to cheer me up then. :)

Kickapoo

"1. Fizzy drink. Should be fine. 

2. Apparently it's like Mountain Dew? 

3. I've had this before. Lemon lime mineral water. 

4. Can buy cheaper in Coles :P " 

Taste seems different as to how I remembered it but it sure does bring back memories of Singapore because other than Singapore and Malaysia, I've never seen this. I would usually get a can of this when I visited my grandparents back when I was little at Jurong and sure reminds me of the times I've spent at their place drinking this drink.

Hello Panda

"1. Some chocolate and biscuit combo? 

 2. Chocolate. I'm keen. 

 3. Heavenly. Divine. Would definitely buy again. 

4. Seemed normal." 

 Hello Panda has always been a delight to have though I am fully aware I did go through an obsession phase with these as well to a point I did feel sick after having wayyyyyy too much and I remember moving onto the vanilla flavoured ones just to get away from the chocolate ones for a bit. This was the snack that I would buy at the school canteen in 2007, Secondary 1 (Year 7) and sneak it into our English class. A group of us rebel girls would sit at the back, right next to the back door, 4 of us sharing packs and packs of hello pandas. Once we ran out and if we still had half an hour of our class, we'd send one person to the canteen to buy a few more and stuff them under our shirts so we wouldn't get caught eating in class! 

 Fruit pudding 

 "1. Jelly maybe.

2. Custardy jelly?

3. Tastes like frozen yoghurt, but thicker like custard.

4. Haven't had stuff like it. Tastes normal though." 

We use to have heaps of these while growing up though my memory of these was when we got them from the supermarkets in Johor Bahru (Malaysia) when we went on trips as a family. I love the little coconut bits in there to a point I would eat the rest of the pudding and leave my little collection of coconut bits in there and have them last. :3 

 We have more fruit pudding in the fridge, so till next time... We'll figure this fruit pudding out. :P

Egg Tarts!

Well, we didn't buy these. The 'rents got them from the bakery at Spencer Village but hey! Asian food that Shane has never had! So here we go:


"1. Looks like a custard tart. 
2. Not sure if sweet or savory. 
3. Weird combination of egg a short crust. Good though. 
4. Haha egg tart. Sounds silly, but it's nice."

Egg tarts are definitely a big thing in a Chinese family. I cannot remember my first neither can I remember my last but as far as I'm concerned, I did have a phase of these too... I know, I know... But I can't help it. I'm that happy fat kid that would eat till my brain shuts down and my tummy remembers the taste and adds it to the list of "horror"... When Melanie was still living in Perth, she would bake these fairly often to give to people simply because it's not common here in Perth and its pretty simple to make. I would still have them in moderation now... Lesson learnt!

On Thursday, 22nd of August 2013 Shane and I agreed to celebrate a little earlier this month since we'll be supporting Kelv at his gig on the actual night (Which would be the 25th). Since this was going to be a monthly affair, we also agreed that we'll take turns organising and planning monthsavaries. So I'm in charge of the even months and he, the odds.

Brought him to Leedervile, which is personally my favourite happy spot for food and artsy shops. I have known that Shane would like a Passenger album record so I was very hopeful that Urban Depot would have it. (Shane collects records and enjoys playing them on his record player) When we went in, I turned to him, "Present part 1! You get to pick anything from this shop and I'll pay for it!" I went straight for the 'P' section for records. To my disappointment there wasn't any 'Passenger'. I then turned a tad disappointed and said, "There isn't any 'Passenger'..." He then replies, "I wouldn't think so." I then  looked up and BAM! It was displayed on the wall. I grabbed his arm and yelled, "PASSENGER!" We both got excited and we got it off the wall and paid for it.


We left the shop soon after because we were both starving and didn't want to miss out on the amazing Little Caesars pizza. We ordered Chicken Satay, Apple strudel dessert pizza and I got Pecan pie and Shane got Sticky fingers to go. I felt so self cautious with my braces because I could feel loads of food getting stuck everywhereeeee. We then finished up and headed back to the car to offload our goods. We decided to walk the streets just to check out the other stores near by then returning to the car we felt like we wanted this night to last a little longer. So, we headed to East Perth river where we spotted a homeless lying in his sleeping bag trying to fight against the cold. We walked down half way and went back up to the park where we sat under the canopy to just... talk. We were going through the 'Boyfriend tag' questions the night before, so we just carried on with that. I've learnt so much more about him through the simplest questions such as things he doesn't enjoy drinking and why to his favourite sandwich, the BLT. (; We stayed there till 12 where we then headed to the car and we carried on talking about the past then the future till about 1. Our night didn't just end there. We spotted maccas along the way so yes, we did a maccas run where we ate nuggets and talked even more. Conversations are endless, things to learn and catch up on in each other's lives are just unending. Got home at 2.

Dear Spods,
We both have our flaws, we both have our quirks but at this moment, I would like to stop and really humble myself and thank God for putting you in my life. How you were there even when I push everyone around me away and how you stuck it out with determination. Instead, you went over your own barriers, overcoming all hurdles and reaching out to mine you charge through mine to bring me out of all that I have built around myself with all the baggages I have lugged along. Its definitely been a fairly short journey so far but we've gone through all hurdles possible that could have caused any couple to just fall apart. I'm thankful that I get to spend my best and worst moments with you. I'm thankful that you are able to remind me who I am, a child of God and how I'm able to get through the toughest situation in your own way. You might not be on the same boat as I am but I'm thankful that you are willing to maybe one day be able to see it the way I do. I'm sorry for all that I've put you through but I am glad we came out stronger than ever from them. You mean a lot to me and even though this is like a ticking time bomb, at least we gave it our best shot. Don't give up just yet, don't hold back, open your eyes and just take a step back. I'm with you, I'll take your hand and don't be afraid to see the unseen, to hear the still quiet voice and to know an indescribable presence. I love you, happy 2 months. 

Love,
Me.

SDScantlebury #1

The world tells you its right,

the mind tells you otherwise

with stubborn beats,

the heart holds on tight.

When feelings jump guns,

we forget who owns this heart.

We let it go just a little,

With a twist of sweet and bitter.

Skipping mountains,

I close my eyes tighter at each beat it misses.

With strings like a puppet,

I lose myself among your kisses.

Just the thought of your presence,

The gaze of your mesmerising eyes,

Bliss from your scent's remnants,

All I can manage are sighs.

That smile that has no adjective,

the way I 'feet' your fetish,

my little toes you kiss in adoration,

My response popped your bubble's imagination.

The way you strum your guitar,

the very same way you give, in loving me.

Serious but filled with fun and with passion,

you yearn to learn and get better.

I thank God for you.
Because you bring the 'beautiful' out of me.
Broken people with broken hopes,
Together, we're no longer alone to cope.

{S

hello again :)

I've decided to return and hopefully keep up with updates and all. To be honest, I've stopped because well along the way I got pretty exhausted with life and frankly, I was done sharing with the world my life. However, I came to realise that my joy and love for sharing my life is so that maybe someone out there would be impacted some way or another. Be it to feel happy or maybe to reflect on the lessons learnt because of decisions I have once made. On top of that, I love writing.

Quick update: Just got back from a Mediterranean cruise with the hofamfam. I'll upload pictures and tell of stories later. As for now... Meet the gang. 

 Kelvin. Shane. Marilyn. Shreya. Gus. Sherrie. & We're missing Kalem.

I'm not too sure if I have introduced Sherrie to you but...
Sherrie, I have known her since 2011 but we only got closer in 2012. Since, she's my sister from another mister. She's the one I would run to immediately when I have something exciting to share. She's the one I would confide in with late night golden gay times ice cream  and sitting in the car with our jammies on. She means a lot to me. We started getting closer during Weng's and Meiyee's birthday period as we started organising surprise parties and realising how well we clicked and how our ideas together, intertwined turned out magical. With my wildest imaginations, to her logical, realistic thoughts that ride onto them, we make the impossible, possible.

Sherrie :)

Something about Shane and Gus:

 Gus: Came to Lynwood in our last year of high school in the year 2012 where he was spotted sitting across the lawn with his brother looking rather... Depressed. "Poor kid" I thought, "He must be lonely.". So I decided to go up to him and invite him to join our group. "NO." was his reply. "Oh... okay. Well, we'll always be there. Join whenever you're ready." I was shocked but I trust that he will come around soon. He added me on Facebook that night. I was honestly pumped and ecstatic. We got to know each other so much more that night. He shared why he seemed so down and out, I shared my concerns. Eventually, he did cross that lawn and sat right next to me. :)

Shane: "That pretty solemn smart guy in chem" I spotted in year eleven. Doesn't seem to be outspoken or anything. He adds me on Facebook, said the mandatory thanks and it didn't get too far from there until year 12 when things weren't too great on his end and he started hanging out with us.

We got closer as we shared an interest in bands and songs that has not met the radio yet. That then escalated even more this year, firstly when we went to Jess' 18th and he only knew me as the rest were private school peeps. We talked so much that night as he couldn't drive past 12 so he stayed the night. We had so much to share, we didn't sleep till 4 in the morning. Sharing our lives through words for a night, a life filled of experiences exchanged for another.

All in all...
To be frank, that's the beauty of our group. We are kinda the misfits, part of other groups before but wanting to take a step into wanting a difference in our lives, we found each other. From there, we honestly don't have any bitch fights or childish squabbles because we accept each other for who we are. Make up, no make up; Nerd or rebel; Artsy or not; Sporty or unfit... We had them all but ultimately even the colour of our skin starts to fade out and we all become one colour.

Out of all that, six of us came out closer than ever. We spend almost every weekend together from just chilling to adventures.

Here's a drop of hype...

We started dating since 25th June 2013.

Strange at first, surprise to people in my life, heart aches for reasons but to me, I may be young and naive but I'm hopeful.

A hope I don't deserve but a desperate prayer I desire. If it's good or bad, honestly... It's worth it. I learn something both ways and I am grateful for that. :)