One night in Australia

That's me there in grey and white. The night before the sun ray's attack. These are the people who went for the countdown at my uncle's house, in the city near the harbor bridge and opera house. Watched fireworks with awe and heart's loved. Its pretty and the sweetest thing is to have those whom you love around you as you watched. But I've got a fraction there with me. It's alright, we still enjoyed it together and had fun. Some are relatives and some are friends. This is where I spent my 2008 countdown as we look back and learn that what a time we had and adore. As we welcome 2009 with love and warmth. All the best in 2009! :}

Moving on forward

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you." declares the Lord

Jeremiah 29: 11-14a

This is the verse that tells me everything is gonna be alright. Changes in life ever so drastic, we are unsure what is laid ahead of us. What is gonna happen or what is planned by Daddy. He is making a path that shows me the choices I can make and what is best for me. He has foreseen my future and watched my past but he is hearing my present as I reach out to Him. Daddy, lead me and guide me. You washed peace over me and showered love and mercy upon me. You have given me an option I have never thought off but you know what's best for me. As I broke down and cry, that so many changes are occurring and do not understand, my future is just a blurry image I can't see. I don't know where I will end up but all I know and trust in you that you will be guiding me through. Carrying me in your arms as I embrace your love. Daddy, thankyou for the change. Though it will be difficult to understand or comprehend Lord, I know this is just specially for me, for the better. You have given me this route ahead because you shower mercy upon me and as this is given, I shan't complain but accept and make full use of it. && become more like you. Calm my heart Daddy as you comfort me with warmth and heal my shivers. Thankyou Daddy Lord.

Gonna upload and update you guys about my trip to auzzie probably tomorrow alright? (:

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Carrying me in your arms, your warmth I embrace. Feeling safe and protected, by the whom healed my heart's wounds and created a perfect love.

Fishing!

You'll never be replaced. I will be with you as long as you want me to.

My skin is so burnt and rosy, I am radiating heat. Its so bad that on my feet, there are SLIPPER LINES. Shouldn't have worn slippers.. && I have my tank top and bik lines on my body too.. && luckily I wore shorts. && my thigh has a DIVIDER cause I was sitting on the chair and the top half is red and the bottom is fair. Gosh, it hurts. So much for fishing! Though we sat there for hours and we got cooked (literary), we didn't catch anything.. But, it was fun! :D I even nearly threw a guy in by mistake! :x Cause I swing my hook back, preparing to cast it out, IT GOT HOOKED ONTO A GUY. :x && he went back laughing, saying "That girl there wants to catch a BIG FISH!" I was like.. Oh manzxs.. && Once the wind was so strong, my hat flew into the water. It created a commotion.. People all gathered round, trying to help me retrieve it. Finally a family guy used his hook and hooked onto the hat. :x Thanks to him, otherwise I might end up jumping into the water to get it.

Gonna head out tonight, dinner with relatives. && I have just realised, my extended family is all filled with professionals.. Doctors, vets, dentist.. etc. && all I an do is to sit there and wonder what happened at birth for me. x} Anyways tomorrow, having breakfast with aunt and her family by the lake covered with DUCK and SWAN dung and of course, them too. && the airport, taking the plane towards Singapore and inter seat again. Gonna meet Mel there, hope she remembers to pass me my psp!! ^^ Then finally, shanghai. Back to winter people, freeze. No more sunburns and human bbq. Welcome to the human freezer, Marilyn. :}

BF, he's so not worth it! x}

Tell me why.

&& Daddy Lord, Tell me why am I on this planet earth again..

Everyday I am looking for answers. Answers in life. Sometimes the past memories of life feels like a tattoo, stuck and engraved in us, but sometimes when we think of them again, we dont laugh at them like how we laughed at our silly mistakes that we did probably in kindie. Instead, we cry and play our most emo song which bring the tears forward. What are bestfriends for? To go shopping with, to camwhore with, to share snacks with but to also tell us where we've gone wrong in our life like being too selfish, inconsiderate or whatsoever. We have many bestfriends in our lives, but which out of the many we've got dares to tell us what we need to change in life so you won't end up having a miserable day or week or even life. Those who dare and did that not use that to sabotage you or criticise you to weaken your self esteem; those are true bestfriends. Now, I have a question. Which is more important? Your past love? Or your friendship love you share with a friend? I have an answer; Let the past rest in it's place even if your past love have not even moved on. If you guys wanna patch and you think its for the better, go for it. But if the past love has moved on, let that person be happy and you will slowly move on. We can't all be selfish, we have to learn to give in sometimes. Even if it meant inflicting hurts on ourselves. Because hurts, are just temporary. But Jesus dying on the cross, that was not temporary, that was eternal. Cause of that, we were given a second chance. Why ruin a friendship because of love that we know we won't marry that person? It's not worth it.. We are still too vulnerable to commit the rest of your life with that guy or girl. But friendship, some stays, some goes. Friendship usually lasts longer than most relationships that we teens have now. We should take responsibilities for our actions.. We should not sacrifice someone to share our pain or wipe your hands clean off which you know will leave stains of guilt in your life.. We should face it and not make someone else our shield to hide behind. Cause doing that is just being cruel to make that person, suffer along with you.

I have done what I could. I thought you understood but instead, I was wrong. You doing this, just shows your ruined love by him is more important than our friendship.. Why cn't we just put this away and not let it affect us? Where is the love we share? Isn't it stronger than those hurts whih was because of a guy who can't make up his mind without hurting anyone? BFF, I do love you.