If you didn't realise I lied about not wanting to find you.
If you didn't realise I wasn't always smiling today.
If you didn't realise I still care.
If you didn't realise I got hold back for doing something crazy.
If you didn't realise I tried to catch up with you to do that insane thing.
If you didn't realise I just gave up trying to go after you.
If you didn't realise I still kept that message.
If you didn't realise I still have my weakness.
If you didn't realise I myself was going crazy.
If you didn't realise I tried to make you take the chance till the end.
If you didn't realise I'm sorry.
If you didn't realise You blew it again..
Why do I keep running away from the truth? Cause I'm trying trying to walk away but I know it won't be this easy.
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Let: Check yes Juliet by We the Kings, introduced to me by Nigel replay on my phone non stop. Blocking all other noises out, retreating back to my own world. Whatever anyone said to me today besides during lessons, I only see your mouths moving but I don't hear the words cause I just want the song to blast in my ears at maximum volume. Can't really concentrate in class, just feel like sleeping. Lost my appetite, even chocolate mousse cake tasted like candle wax. I wonder how long this stomach gonna stay closed, feel so full even if I didn't eat at all. Forcing the cake down, felt like I was pushing a whole sewage system down my throat. It tasted terrible on my tongue, it felt sick when it was going down my throat and it feels like it choke up my whole intestine.
