I know why.. I know why I can't focus, can't feel anything and feel like a puppet doll. Cause I am scared.. Scared of changes and differences. Cause changes in my life are ever so rapid and it is quite fearful because you wont know what to expect anymore. Not like a little kid waking up early one Christmas morning knowing what to expect under those nicely wrap presents.. Not anymore, this is like a dream, never knowing what is going to happen and with monsters out there, hiding anytime to make us waking up screaming, with tears in our eyes and sweating in agony not even in reality. In just 2 days, my life future plans have been changed again.. I won't be staying in Singapore for long, I will have to move to Perth sometime in 2009. && Yes, I am scared. I need to slow down and embrace the present. To face the truth and understand it.
I want to get away one day. Take the train non-stop, scream at the wind and find myself again.
Anyone wanna come? :} A company should be good. ^^b
