that little turn.

When the sun sets and my mind starts running free, I can't help but go to my long lost friend's facebook and knowing I miss this person yet nothing could be done about the current situation. All I ever say to myself is, "I miss you." The person I use to text all day, know pretty well, random moments to secrets shared and from smiles to nothingness is placed between us. Strangers. Then IT comes and tells me,"You're not good enough." "You're so ugly, inside and out." "You're so weak." "You're not worth it.". I know you'd tell me to not be stupid and think or allow these thoughts to affect me. But I guess I try pushing it away yet secretly giving up to such doubts about myself. I pray a prayer of strength, one to protect and one to aid. Know that to The One that matters most, I was and always will be worth it. But I look back at you again and find myself asking,"Why then am I so ugly, inside and out..."


I hate how you are able to validate me in this area.