Enthrall,

15 deg outside, water was probably 5 since it didn't have contact with the sun and it was -0.6 this morning. Was home alone and decided to "swim", jumped in, tried to "warm up" swam one lap, the cold water was freezing my brain. External brain freeze. Swam another lap. God knew I wasn't ready for "home". He threw me out of the water. Started gasping for air to think again. Didn't have enough oxygen because my pulse and respiration was going too slowly. 5 mins later went back in the house, turned the heater on, sat there, everything was numb. Tried to fire back up. Fell asleep in front of the heater since my brain was still half dead too, I knocked out for an hour. Stupidity.

Hypothermia, a terrible way to die. Cause images don't flash by but just freezes in pain.

Things my mind do when its against itself...

If it wasn't for love from a Father,

If it wasn't for grace from a loving heart,

if it wasn't for mercy from Daddy.