Smiles of this world.

You'd know if this letter is to you. (:

Dear _______ _______ _______,

You've always been there for me when I needed someone to talk to. You've always been ready to embrace me when I was sad. You've always been so understanding. You've always been there to laugh with me when I do silly things. You'd wait for me to feel sleepy. You'd make sure I get off my computer. You'd put everything down to just have a chat with me. More than a true friend. A true close friend. Experiencing it first hand that a close friend so dear would sacrifice time to just hear my randomest crap on msn. To be so willing to understand me even better than what I appear to be. In summary, thank you. Thank you so much. I know it was tough to let yourself a little free today. To be so sincere, to be so real. & I know you meant every word you said.

*to be cont.

Love,

Me.

Day 15-

Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play -

1. Comatose - Skillet
2. Haru Haru - Big Bang
3. She's all I got - Thirsty Merc
4. Mad - Neyo
5. Everything you want - Vertical Horizon
6. a thousand miles - Vanessa Carlton
7. Magic - B.o.B
8. Faithfully - Glee
9. 'Til I see you again - Jim Brickman
10. Always - Hillsong

Taking a step of faith.

I think my fever burned some of my brain cells and now.. I feel like I'm screwed for math.

Keep calm, Ms Edmunds on the way!

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I've questioned, what life would be like if I wasn't born in a Christian family;

would I be stubborn and not listen to my Christian friends;

would I turn them away;

or would I stop and listen for once to what they say;

or would I ask them to piss off and leave my pathetic soul to rot;

or would I follow them to church;

what would my parents say;

would they throw me out of the house;

or would they see the change in my life and be interested in the God I adore;

or would they buy more idols to piss me off;

would my sisters call me hypocrites everyday of my life;

would I be disliked so much by my family;

would they understand?

Sorry a little insight to countless things I ask myself from time to time. So happened I couldn't help but think about these. The questions go on, I give myself different scenarios, different happenings and sometimes my mind makes it seem so real, it carries on into my dreams and feel how it'd feel. All I could remember was feeling lost, in the middle, struggling, fighting not just physical battles with friends and family but spiritual battles as the devil continues to taunt me, screaming my every move but through it all, I remember through my thoughts as these all felt so real, there was a soft gentle voice telling me, I'm redeemed.

I know there are some of you reading my blog, not so into God and all. I'm not forcing you into believing in what I believe. The pressure on yourself that you place and others place on you is more than enough to break you but I just want to say, don't give up just yet. You may question and all but Daddy God will certainly answer you with love as you seek with all your heart. He'll carry you through this tough time. Maybe, give it a shot? Experience this intimate relationship like what I have and you'd understand, you'll keep falling in love with Him over and over again. :)

Daddy God will be there, to listen to you. & so would I.

James 4:8 "Come near to God and He'll come near to you."

He loves you. He's just waiting for you to turn back and run into His embracing arms. (:

Day 14-

A picture of you and your family:

Soon, +1. Then hopefully, another +1.

then... THE END hahahahaha.

Day 13-

A letter to someone who has hurt you recently:

This is a toughie... cause no one hurt me recently. Feeling so fly like a G6! ;)

No friction, no conflict. No conflict, no climax.

Oh wait, I just thought of something.

Dear people of this world, don't be so oblivious to the people around us. Even the shiniest star fall like a speeding shooting star and even Ronald McDonald cries. Care, love and reach out. Don't be a coward.

Love,

Marilyn